#may.speaks

I never really thought that I would be writing this message, but here I am.

First of all, I am truly sorry for ghosting. I am not someone who does that and hates when others do it. So I wanted to apologize for these 2/3 months which I never answered any asks, tags, or dms.

Second, as you might have already realized, I won’t use this account anymore. I am writing this with tears in my eyes, because I met amazing people doing this and deeply in my heart, I know I will regret this.

I’m not only leaving this blog, but Tumblr entirely. My life hasn’t been quite good lately, and even if this part was incredible, I can’t handle it anymore. I need to take care of myself for now.

I started “being” Tsukki because I wanted to pretend being someone I am not, but instead, I learned so much about myself and others. Which I am grateful for.

Making people happy with my blog was one of the best things in late 2020/early 2021 that happened to me. Because if I made at least only one person smile, even if was once in a lifetime, I am satisfied and completed.

That was the whole purpose of this blog.

Every word I said, of encouragement, love, appreciation, etc, was completely coming from my heart.

Don’t doubt what I told you being Tsukki (or May). You are special, you are loved, even if you don’t believe it.

This might be a goodbye, but goodbyes do not last forever.

I love you and I’m grateful that you took the time to interact with me.

You can try to forget me, but I know you won’t ;) I won’t forget you either.

Thanks to my fellow mutuals —Ella, you were always by my side. Thank you.

And thanks for every interaction, even if it was only once.

Thank you.

thinking about how it was the realisation that things between her and sol are changing and the fear of sol not seeing ji-wan the way she sees sol and the fear of sol choosing someone else over ji-wan that threw her across the boundary.

the longing in DIFFERENT FLAVOURS FROM BOTH SOL AND JI-WAN; ji-wan REALISING THAT SHE IS IN LOVE WITH SOL (and also into women); that realisation being fuelled by minor jealousy and the realisation that Ji-wan has ALWAYS seen sol in a different light than her other friends; wanting to stay away from someone you’ve been in love with + wanting to escape your feelings + choosing to stay nevertheless because being away from them is more painful than being beside them when you think they can’t hear you; a very VERY obvious display of affection; A DRUNKEN CONFESSION; A SOBER FOLLOW-UP, no denial, no hiding once they realise that things can never be changed; and then a courageous confession and a happy ever after,

muskan and tarasha — Episode 4 of Netflix's Feels Like Ishq (2021):