#master j

Because pictures of me smiling means I'm sad?

You: ‎12‎:‎13‎ ‎AM I'm sorry that I hurt you. I really didn't mean to hurt you so badly.‏ me: ‎12‎:‎14‎ ‎AM you dumped me via text message‏ You: ‎12‎:‎14‎ ‎AM I know‏ I'm sorry for that‏ ‎12‎:‎16‎ ‎AM I know it was probably the biggest asshole thing to do‏ ‎12‎:‎19‎ ‎AM please, let loose. Say everything you've wanted to sya to me‏ me: ‎12‎:‎31‎ ‎AM it was fucking bullshit‏ ‎12‎:‎32‎ ‎AM by doing that, everything we had together felt and seemed like nothign‏ it hurt me, and i don't know if i cried harder over losing you or harder over how little i clearly meant‏ you felt like a waste of time‏ of space‏ of all the love i had for you‏ and i hated myself and i hated you‏ and i can never forgive it‏ You: ‎12‎:‎33‎ ‎AM Alexis‏ don't hate yourself. I never meant for you to feel that way. If you still want to hate, hate me‏ me ‎12‎:‎34‎ ‎AM and now‏ you want to fuck me‏ something that you never wanted when you had it‏ and i have questioned it every time i felt sexy‏ that if i was,why didn't he want me‏ when i had been on top of you, half naked, ready to give myself to you‏ and you pushed me off‏ why?‏ ‎12‎:‎35‎ ‎AM so what the fuck am i supposed to feel right now?‏ You: ‎12‎:‎35‎ ‎AM I don'tknow‏ me: ‎12‎:‎35‎ ‎AM justified? validated?‏ You: ‎12‎:‎35‎ ‎AM I'm sorry for all the chaos I've caused within your life and that I've been causing‏ You are sexy Alexis‏ me ‎12‎:‎35‎ ‎AM or like nothing mattered?‏ You: ‎12‎:‎35‎ ‎AM you always have been‏ me ‎12‎:‎36‎ ‎AM that's goddamn right‏ and why should you deserve this?‏ You: ‎12‎:‎36‎ ‎AM I don't‏ me: ‎12‎:‎36‎ ‎AM after you hurt it, rejected it, threw it away?‏ you don't deserve it, i'm glad you know‏ You: ‎12‎:‎37‎ ‎AM I'm sorry‏ I've got to go‏ me ‎12‎:‎37‎ ‎AM i'm sure you do‏ You: ‎12‎:‎37‎ ‎AM I'll leave you alone‏ me ‎12‎:‎37‎ ‎AM goodnight.

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