#marshlight

Dawnspot - pale ginger tom with white patches

Family: Cloudleg (father), Speckfluff (mother), Streamshine (sister), Thistleear (brother) Gender / Sexuality: tom / pansexual Personality: fierce fighter, loud about his opinions, cranky Backstory: Dawnspot was an incredible hunter and fighter in his youth. After a falcon swooped at him in a tree and he tumbled down, passed out from his injuries, Dawnspot hit the ground beside his apprentice Marshpaw, unconscious. When Dawnspot woke he had limited vision, and memory problems.  Refusing to move to the elders den, when Dawnspot is having a good day they will let him sleep in the warriors den, but he’s often confined to the medicine cat den if the clan can help it.  Unpermitted to leave the camp alone, nor actively participate in clan duties, on Dawnspots good days he remembers he’s a senior warrior and will aid in apprentice training. On his bad days when he can’t quite figure out where he is and what’s going on, he will travel with the medicine cat to gather herbs or care for the clan.  Dawnspot is obviously frustrated, wanting to hunt and help his clan. On some days he will sneak out and try to hunt, but more often than not he ends up walking around confused, unable to remember where he is or what’s going on. It feels like he’s never been out of camp before and everything scares him. On those days a patrol will often find Dawnspot cautiously walking around lost.  Ideal Partner: the med cat, the elder warrior who had high hopes for him, a fellow warrior who trained alongside Dawnspot that feels sad that he can’t be the warrior he wants to be, med cat apprentice who babysits him lol  Position | Clan: Warrior | Whisperclan

Marshlight - dark brown tom with some tabby stripes

Family: Cedarclaw (father), Jayheart (mother), Oakthorn (brother), Peachfur (sister), Hawklight (nephew) Gender / Sexuality: Tom / bisexual Personality: faithful, warm, inviting, good teacher, super kind Backstory: Marshlight was obviously scarred when he watched his mentor tumble from the sky, seriously injured. When his mentor reassignment took too long, it gave Marshpaw time to look inward on himself. He felt so helpless when Dawnspot had fallen, not even knowing what to do. He panicked and ran, looking for help. He wanted to do better. Marshpaw wanted to become a medicine cat.  Only a few days after his personal revelation, elder medicine cat Meadowbreath of Thrushclan came into camp. She spoke to the medicine cat and then approached warrior apprentice Marshpaw. Meadowbreath had a sign from Starclan, they were obvious in their message; after the meadow stretches a bright marsh. Marshpaw was meant to be the next Thrushclan medicine cat.  Eager at the chance to make no cat feel as hopeless as he did, Marshpaw took the position and soon after had earned his medicine cat name. On occasion he will try to visit Dawnspot, but his mentor doesn’t always remember him, or the fact he’s Thrushclans medicine cat.  When in his new home, Marshlight not only is an excellent energetic medicine cat, he also takes time to train apprentices on the basics. No apprentice will see another cat bleeding and panic. He also very openly allows the apprentices to ask him faith questions, as he had to find his becoming a medicine cat Ideal Partner: the first warrior to accept marsh into thrush, or an apprentice he trained beside, or a warrior from whisper he trained beside before leaving Position | Clan: Medicine Cat Apprentice | Thrushclan

Owlflight - pale brown tom with tabby markings

Family: Mousebite (father, deceased), Pearblossom (mother, deceased), Ratbite (brother) Gender / Sexuality: tom / questioning Personality: sweet, warm, eager, skilled, on the quieter side, fluffy and loves cuddles, loves to cuddle his fellow fluffy best friend Backstory: Mentored by the tom who took over the deputy position upon Halfwhiskers gruesome death, Owlflight remembers holding silent vigil with his father and his mentor when he was only a kit. Now a full grown warrior, and new to the deputy position, Owlflight knows he wouldnt be where he is today without his best friend Jaggedhawk. They are the wonder duo. When paired together hunting, they do exceptionally well, and when leading a patrol, they trust each other and work with ease as if they can read each others mind.  Owlflight is pretty sure he might be into his best friend, which is making Owlflight realize he might be gay. Absolutely tragic, since he has no clue how to flirt, let alone with other toms.  Ideal Partner: maybe the token only other gay guy, or maybe someone who is recently out and can help owl feel safe coming out, or someone totes down to be his dirty little secret,, or someone take the place of Jaggedhawk? Position | Clan: Warrior | Thrushclan

Springflame - pale orange tabby tom

Is that our lost home? Walking in the dark

Lamps of a blinding luminosity,

Beat the drum to the lonely call of death,

The waters run their little races like

Rabbits running to their deep dark tunnels

Under the soil, underneath my sore feet,

Where mud hides the dead…

  What an inextricable darkness that

Comes to greet me from the long reeds that sing-

Odd lights guide me cross the rills beneath,

And I am led to where stars touch water-

But I walk on for the wise crickets have

Warned me not to play in the dead ponds…

  The flowers twitch like they hear my humming,

As I traverse the damp moors with the long

Faces of people without hopeful cause.

Lonesome ghosts flee from my tinkling lantern,

Light chasing the shadows like cat and mouse,

Grinning dead faces glinting garishly

In the opening marshland. I wave my

Hand dreamily at the glimmering stars

That shine from above. I lose my footing

It’s there for me. :O I checked that it plays.

That's weird, it definitely doesn't work for me...

marshlight replied to your post: helshades replied to your post: Looks like I...

Also *snif*. Guess I deserved to be forgotten.

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Saved for if/when I care... Thank you!

marshlight replied to your post: Looks like I won’t be watching Agents of SHIELD...

I think the Thor tie-in is next week. The week before last there wasn’t an episode, and last week’s is available on 4oD.

phospolarase said: :(

marshlight said: <3

Thank you all! (I feel pretty normal this morning, which is okay.)

sifsdottir said: Alcohol has will take the deep down mood to the surface, so if things are shit, they will become more shit. It helps to cry. Or at least I think it does. And then sleep.

marshlight said: What she said. Also, I’m pretty sure we have a Tumblr messness support group!

sifsdottir said: What ever it is, I hope it gets better. *hugs*

helshades said: I think you are a mess in several ways, but several of them I share, and I know several other ways in which you are not a mess, love. Or if you are, it is a beautiful kind of mess and one should be proud you exist.

I was about to say 'it's not much I just got drunk and started hating myself' then I realised that the truth is more like 'I got drunk enough to lose the posting filters this is nothing extraordinary'.

Anyway, please don't take that as any kind of rebuttal and thank you very much.

@marshlight, this is very true...

@sifsdottir, *hugs* back. Thanks. (It. probably won't. I hope but with little hope if you get my meaning. Normally I am okay with this but I have just drunk a bottle of wine.)

@helshades, I have a lot of ways in which I am a mess that I don't talk about much because that's part of the messiness, ug...

(No I will not let myself go typing my way into an urgh self why are you spiral I will press publish and thank you all for your very kind words and hug you all back and not beat myself up for possibly saying something marginally wrong or whatever.) (PUBLISH THIS BEFORE YOU CHICKEN OUT AND DELETE THE HONEST PARTS KESTOR FOR FUCK'S SAKE)

It's not that exciting, someone just started talking about something cannibalistic while we were all absolutely hammered. I forget what. I was steaming.