#markswitchtask02

Not having to be nervous that a Dominant is going to use their institutional power to punish me for things I disagree with through ‘random orders’. I wont be administering any, but I like not having to worry about it. 

One element of your new mark you’re not looking forward to trying

Being a Dominant. I don’t want to tell other people how they’re doing and I don’t want to be in charge. I like being submissive. 

One thing you’d like to learn

I would like to learn..... what it feels like to get my way.

And something you think you can teach your partner.

Idk man, I’ve never really wanted to try submissive shit. I guess we could try topping from the bottom but that’s against the rules right? Maybe I’ll just try being a brat, that’s always looked fun!

One element of your new mark you’re not looking forward to trying

Pegging.

One thing you’d like to learn

Judo.

And something you think you can teach your partner.

I am looking forward to seeing what Sugar does with the new role. I don’t predict that this will be difficult to fulfil for myself as I do not think I take myself seriously enough not to commit to my role, in a similar way to an actor. As someone who can embrace different roles, it will be interesting to see who struggles more with it. 

One element of your new mark you’re not looking forward to trying

I am not looking forward to attempting to relinquish decision making to a submissive, which is no slight to Sugar, I just think it’s important to recognise that there will be issues in doing so for mysel. 

One thing you’d like to learn

I am hoping to learn how much I struggle with this, I think it will reaffirm my designation if it feels wrong to be a submissive. 

And something you think you can teach your partner.

One element of your new mark you’re not looking forward to trying I can’t think of anything I wouldn’t want to ive a try to, as a switch I think I should be up for Dominant tasks, and making rules wasn’t nearly as hard as I thought it was going to be!

One thing you’d like to learn I’d like to learn how to be calmer and less..... chaotic. This week is going to let me do a short term style relationship thing... not that we’re together... but I’ll get to chill and trust in Mike and let him trust in me for a week and hopefully nothing will be crazy and I can stop going from 10 year relationship which ended badly... to a one night stand which ended badly. I just hope to learn how to not end things badly.

One element of your new mark you’re looking forward to trying

Seeing what it’s like to not have to make decisions and plans, and what it’s like leaving that up to other people.

One element of your new mark you’re not looking forward to trying

I don’t know that I have a good answer for that, actually.  I’m going to give everything I’ve got to this week and learn anything and everything that I can.

One thing you’d like to learn

How a submissive feels when they’re in the care of someone who’ll take care of them.  What that sort of trust feels like.

And something you think you can teach your partner.

One element of your new mark you’re looking forward to trying

Surrendering all of myself to someone who I know will take care of me utterly. 

One element of your new mark you’re not looking forward to trying

Remembering titles.  I’ve been a Dominant for long enough that this is going to be a serious problem for me.

One thing you’d like to learn

How my girl can give herself over so completely to me, and what that sensation is like.  How to be in someone else’s hands and believe in them.

And something you think you can teach your partner

One element of your new mark you’re looking forward to trying

It wasn’t on my bucket list or anything, but I don’t hate the idea of being in charge during a scene.  Just so I can tell someone what they can and can’t do instead of the other way around.  I really only want to do it once, though.

One element of your new mark you’re not looking forward to trying

Having to worry about whether someone calls me the right title and whether I have to like...punish them.

One thing you’d like to learn

Whether sex is better as a top or a bottom.

And something you think you can teach your partner.

One element of your new mark you’re looking forward to trying

Is none a good answer?  Virtually every part of this scares me half to death and I can’t imagine myself actually enjoying it.  But if I need to have an answer, then...making rules, because at least that’s abstract.

One element of your new mark you’re not looking forward to trying

Basically all of it.  Despite what some test says, I have no Dominant instincts.  I don’t want or need someone to kneel for me, to follow my orders, to call me Miss.  None of it’s going to be fun.

One thing you’d like to learn

Why anyone would possibly think that I could be a Dominant even for a week.

And something you think you can teach your partner.