#margin notes

Fae are strange creatures. Their customs are unfamiliar and tricky for the normal human, so being clever can save your life when around them.

Unfortunately for you, one takes interest in you after you accidentally say 'thank you' to them for something innocent.

He is not the Christ in that he is not truly god - she is

John is the man who became god and the God who became man simultaneously with Alecto like the holy trinity but she originated with the power and bestowed it, and then like Uranus and Chronos to Gaia he violated her

He killed her and everything she loved and then ripped her in half. He stole more of her than she was willing to give - consumed what he could of her and then desecrated the rest - rebuilt her in his image, but not even his image but a simulation -

AND SHE STILL LOVED HIM

BECAUSE SHE IS GOD THE MOTHER ALMIGHTY CREATOR

She is Gaia

She is Adam and Eve

She is Mary the mother of god

She is galetea

She is Christ

She is Barbie

She is vengeance

She is Frankenstein

She is both creator and created

And she has been wronged so severely by everyone

And yet she still loves

What else can she do?

"There is no satisfaction whatever at any time. There is only a queer, divine dissatisfaction, a blessed unrest that keeps us marching and makes us more alive." Martha Graham (from above quote)

My notes: 3/29/2026:

I love this life truth that Marta Graham wrote to her friend Agnes De Mille, both who were American dancers. There is a low level anxiety that runs with being alive. You can't escape it, but, you can use it. it fuels the creative fires. It also pushes you into wanting to know possible solutions to what generates the anxiety. Which may lead to deeper insights and revelations.

Regarding my 2/4/2020 margin note (above). I was talking to the bailiff about my work with the homeless which took place mainly in 2017. Something was moving through me, causing me to become a vessel of encounters with the homeless. I handed out bags filled with food, socks and toiletries in Trader Joe reusable bags. I called the bags Trader Joe Survival Kits (TJSK). Quoting from Martha Graham above "You have to keep open and aware directly to the urges that motivate you. Keep the channel open"

In my 12/22/2019 margin note at the top of the page (above) I added "Be a vessel, so that what wants to happen can happen through you."

|Elizabeth|

“Which, by the way,” he shifted his weight onto one leg as he stood near the end of his side of the bed, “you still have never denied.”

Her mouth opened for a moment and closed almost immediately, narrowing her eyes at him before huffing quietly and folding her arms over her chest, “Is that all this is about?” she bit, cocking her jaw to the side, “Sex? You need your dick sucked, Henry? Is that it?”

“It’s not that—I just—” he balled his fists up on the bed and her eyes flicked down to them, her jaw still set sideways and tight. He doesn’t know the half of it. “We don’t—we haven’t—Elizabeth, we haven’t had sex in—”

“Six weeks,” she tossed out quickly, flitting her eyes back up to him, “I know.”

“And that’s not us,” he said.

She sucked in on her tongue and looked away from him toward the window, the shine of the cologne cap she’d unknowingly knocked off catching her eye before she stared down at it for a few totally silent moments.

This house I’m staying is old and it creaks and groans so loudly sometimes. Though maybe it’s a ghost??

*flips page*

Letter One

“Who better to lay your heart out to than a poet” 

“Does anyone listen to the silence of the small man and wonder if they are a great unique man who doubts themselves”

“Life’s event are so often impossible to capture in words, so wonderful, so painful words do not do it justice”

“Do not write a love poem. Be sincere, poetry without sincerity is bullshit, use the things that you know best” 

“If you had nothing, no stimulation, what would you be left with? Use that to write, use what you have when you have nothing” 

“When it is just you and your words, your deepest feelings, you find confidence in your own work” 

“Create for yourself, not for the praise of others”

“The response of a man entrusted with a soul”

Letter Two

“Are we alone? We have out memories, our childhoods, our inspirations. Are we ever truly alone when we have our past” 

“Or we could try and listen [to] and believe in each other, speak from the heart in the most sincerest of ways. isn’t that when advice become most effective” 

Letter Three

“The joy of hearing someone speak well of themselves”

“To live in everlasting sound means what exactly? To have it ring like an symphony that rings in your head from the day you read it onward”

“When it comes to your art, you are in the right forever and always” 

“Art doesn’t have to be based on loneliness, it is based on the world”

“Life is the impregnation of art, it is the constant creating and birthing of ideas”

“One must always let ones thoughts blossom in darkness, unperturbed by outside influence, one must always allow themselves to exist without the burdens of the ever limiting outside world”

“Don’t live in fear”

“When something is so beautiful, so perfect, that you don’t want to ruin it, not even with the next page” 

“A strong natural gift of the poetic nature is what one must have” 

“One must remain untouched[from outside influence] but what is art if not repeated imitation”

“Man has tainted love, it has become much more complex, much more dramatic. Love without prejudice or arrogance, society has marred and mauled love in the dramatic rose petal romance sense”