Journal - Monday, March 19th, 2018
Iām not doing good. or I havenāt been doing good. Drinking on work night. Cannot happen any more. Iām just donāt spending time and money on it. Completely done. with heavy drinking. a beer here and there isnāt going to kill me, but no more of this shit. I am so disappointed in myself. but I know I am capable of doing good. I will do better. I will be okay. I will live and be able to do all the things that I want to do, it will just take a lot of hard work! I can do it and will do it. Also the band will happen! Iāll hit up Austin later today. Iāll hit up Chris soon! And stop worrying about what people will think of me. I will also find someone to date and be physical with. Someone thats not a friend. SOmeone thatās like me in a good way. not a heavy drinker, not a heavy drug user. I donāt know. Weāll see what happens. Just no more nights like St. Pattys day. That 100% canāt happen again. Goals for the rest of the month. Get car paid off. Figure out a place to stay in Santa Cruz. Only two beers on friday/Saturday only. Possibly make another bus payment. Cancel Bus Insurance/registration. yes - drive and fill the tank maybe














