This is paco aka peach tree yesterday in the drizzle of the full moon. It was quite a doozy for the two of us. Our subconscious was like, sorry we really really want you in dream land today. I did all my #manymoonsworkbook exercises curated/written by @gottesss, I even did m my Deepak/Oprah meditation (which really are effective for me... the Sanskrit mantras jive with my chatty mind.) I felt restless, not centered, strange, far away. I went right into dreaminess and could barely remember anything that happened in my deep dreaming. I took a nap, a hot salt bath and tried to write and the only clear message I could hold onto was...wait for it... Whitney Houston's Greatest Love of All. When I was a kid I felt so hard on ballads like these. I'm talking five or six. I actually read the lyrics yesterday and was going over them in the shower and they're such a perfect message for my Aquarius Leo axis, which is about skipping in a playground childlike joy, and the collective, how to balance what kaypacha, the astrologer, calls polarity points. It might sound different than a Rumi poem but pop culture can have the same effect on us as ancient folklore or any other form of "messaging." (That's why @Bjork makes pop music instead of complex avant garden stuff, which she is very much capable of doing.) If there is some integrity in the intention of the creator, some open channel to what makes someone create, the messages operate exactly the same. Film and tv are now the most popular way to form a shared archetype in the collective conscious and therefore subconscious. These art forms know now hierarchy once they're in or muscle memory. "I decided long ago, never to walk in anyone's shadow. If I fail, if I succeed, at least I did what I believe...." My spirit guides were all like, lighten up, xenia. Just remember when you were five and you wanted to belt out diva ballads and to wear 25 bracelets and stand in a spotlight, and maybe you can stop laughing and making fun of and demonizing that little girl and actually let her sing. I heard the message, now the challenge for me is to learn how to be kind to myself and to make the space to integrate. (at East Williamsburg, Brooklyn)