#malformed-box

It's a scary world for artists, mate. You either throw herself 30000% into it or you leave, halfhearted efforts won't get anywhere but mediocrity. So in the end... either do it, or don't. Believe in yourself I think. If you don't, no one else will.

If you're in an artistic career, you really need to trust what your gut is saying over the people around you. An artist always knows their own skill and abilities best.

I think you're right. I KNOW that you're right.

I think you have to weigh the pros and cons while thinking about whether there’s anything you could learn at school that you wouldn’t be able to do yourself, in the end. If you can do everything yourself then it’s reasonable not to go.

Can you imagine a future where you’re happy in a career you could pursue after art school?

Firstly Ravi, thank you for responding. It means a lot to me.

true. 

WOAH, MAN I MEANT THAT IN AN AFFIRMING WAY.

Sorry that it came out like that.

Thank you friend.

1 - How are you?I feel slightly ill still from last night when my body malfunctioned, and more than a bit sad. Still recuperating from my near-suicide attempt a few days ago so I like to be in company just to not feel alone, but today my best friend is busy all day so I just well. Well. I appreciate you coming into my inbox.

5 - How old are you? 234.5 months old. I'm turning 20 next March.

24 - Do you have any pets?Not currently, due to time and financial reasons, but one day I really want to get some small dogs: long-hair chihuahua, pomeranian, and maybe a Bedlington terrier. My current apartment doesn't allow dogs, so I guess I'm going to have to get a new place before I do that. Also been considering getting a cockatiel because oh my gosh. 

43 - What are your career goals?I'm (fairly sure that I'm) entering Tokyo Mode Gakuen next April, which is one of if not the best fashion school in Japan. I'm going to be studying the hair make artist course, and hope to get my national certification, then begin a career specializing in visual-kei hair make for bands. However, I'm the kind of person that gets bored by daily routine, so instead of only doing that, I'm also trying to start a little clothes label with my best friend, which we're considering eventually expanding to include hair make and styling, like our own little company.  Bet you didn't want to know any of that.

48 - Say 10 facts about your room.I have 34 posters/postcards/flyers/papers pasted to my walls, 25 of which are of the GazettE. I have velvety zebra print curtains. My window faces east. My bed has black and white checkered bedding. My aircon is currently set on heat. My furniture consists of three long horizontal bookcases, one short vertical bookcase, a futon (directly on the floor), and a steel wardrobe, all of which I built by hand. My walls are made of some kind of weird spongy material, and it's very annoying because my posters keep falling down because I can't put a pin into the wall so I have to secure them with tape and sticky tack. At night time with the help of an interesting little object that I bought in a specialty store, I have the moon projecting on the wall. The carpet is ridiculously soft. It has no door.

182 - What kind of music do you like?Erm, tough one.  I guess the best answer is music that I can feel. My favorite band is the GazettE, but I also like a variety of other jrock and/or vk bands, such as Dir en Grey, Fatima, D'espairsRay, Alice Nine, L'arc~en~ciel. I listen to some kpop (and learn the choreography in my spare time), and I also really enjoy "girl music" as my mum calls it, stuff like Shakira, Kesha, Beyonce etc. I was raised playing classical piano so I still have a fondness for classical music (opera, piano, orchestra etc), soundtracks (especially from Disney or Bollywood movies), and, erm, dubstep and club kind of music. However, recently due to .. let's not kid ourselves, it's due to Kaolu .. I've been listening to what I call "floaty sad love stuff", artists like Lana Del Ray, the xx, Balam Acab etc.