#makingmemoriesofus

Date written: 6/18/13

I was tryin to get pregnant for over two years. Frustration, depression, envy, pressure, disappointment, and anxiety. I felt all those during the process. I wasn't getting any younger and i felt the need to bear a child as soon as possible. Getting married wasn't even my priority anymore. I had to have a child, I told myself. 

One day, I decided to lift it all up to Him. I fervently prayed that in His time, it may happen. 

My colleagues were getting pregnant one by one. Someone who's been trying for more than five years of marriage, another who's bearing their second child after a year in between, someone younger than me by two years whom I thought has no plans of having a baby yet got pregnant, and another who's also having her second child. Who's left out? Me.

But you know what, it never affected me coz I learned to trust His timing. They'd often tease me and say, "sana ikaw na ang next". I tell them, "darating din ako dyan sa tamang panahon".

I admit, we weren't religiously going to church. On Sundays, we just stay home and rest. I'm guilty of not honoring that commandment so I thought that makes me less deserving of His blessings. So I thought, why not make it a habit to read at least a verse a day from the Bible. I downloaded Our Daily Bread from the Playstore and decided to read everyday.

My soul started to be fed spiritually. I share my daily reflections thru my FB stories.

I went on with the flow. Never pressured. Bought some products believed to be effective for fertility to help myself.

Right after finishing the box of juice we ordered, wish granted. He made those products as instruments to answer my prayers. 

So that's part of this journey. 

Believe, trust, and pray.  God is good. He listens and does what is best for you. Just trust His timing. xo, KC

It was in the morning of November 16, 2019 when finally and unexpectedly, God answered our prayers. I clearly remember that was a Saturday. It was our day off from work. No alarm clocks but my bladder told me to get up already. At that time, my period was eight days delayed but it never crossed my mind that I could be pregnant. I get my period regularly so I thought maybe it just got moved or delayed. No expectations of whatever. Few days before that, we went to Watson's to buy some cough medicine and then out of nowhere, I picked up two pregnancy kits to go with the medicine upon paying at the counter. I was thinking, maybe for future use but not for that very day. So going back, that morning when I went to relieve myself, was about to sit when I went back and grabbed a pack of that PT kit. I did what was written in the instruction, again, no expectations, or more like expecting a single line like what normally shows whenever I use PT kit. And to my surprise, in just few seconds, I saw two lines. Like, what?! My eyes couldn't believe what it saw. Really? Wait. But how? LOL. I stood up and took the other packet of PT kit. I had to be sure. And again, in just few seconds, there were two lines. That's positive. I was quiet, there were so many things runnin' my mind at that time. Should I wake him up? No, not yet. I have to make sure. I was planning on getting two more packets of PT kit later that day to do another test. What if the kit I bought was defective or expired? I hid the two used PT kits and went on with my day.

Nearly lunch, time to take my cough med. I was having a really dry cough for a week already. Told my partner to buy me two packets of PT kit before I take another med. I had to force him to go. I just told him I'm delayed for days, better safe than never. So there he went. I never asked him if he was expecting anything when he bought me those.

Two new PT kits to try on.

Positive.

"Poppa! Poppa!" I had to call his attention twice. He was outside, and said "Oh" angrily. "Poppa!" He came in, showed him the PT kit. "Positive?" We hugged and we were both teary eyed.

Thank God! We never expected for that very day to happen. We thought maybe not yet. That we still had to wait much longer.