#make it exist

I drew some shit a while ago and figured I’d post it

It’s ass but here you goes here’s your doomed yaoi

i feel like i’ve seen a fanart of this photo:

Because nothing gets the inspiration going like having a full time job that leaves you with no time to write and a plate full of things you’re already working on.

- I want to see an AU where Thomas learns about the whole Anna/Alex Green thing before the bus takes Green out. I’ve seen people fixate on the fact that he did not give Proper Respect to her trauma, but they overlook the fact that he didn’t know about her trauma. The two of them supported each other when Sybil died (at least through the mourning period), he was the only person at the breakfast table to notice and show concern for her bruised up face, and he’s actually very protective. Things would have been very different if he’d not been in the dark, and I want to see that explored.

- Flip side, I want to see something where Anna learns about the whole Choose Your Own Path garbage, during or after, doesn’t matter. She’s one of the only people in the house who really tries to understand Thomas, ever, and while she does an understandably inconsistent job and doesn’t really try to push much past that first layer of armor, that episode probably would have made a pretty serious impression. I want to see that explored.

the rock bottom i was feeling 2 years ago, when my physical conditions and mental illnesses were still undiagnosed/untreated, was a painfully slow uphill battle, that i couldn't have seen through without my spouse.

he has been here with unwavering support, in all of my battles with helplessness, shame, grief, to have come to a stable enough point, that for once, my dreams and goals can move up beyond "i hope i make it out of bed by 1pm today" or "i hope i can find at least a part-time job that pays enough so i can move out of my traumatic home environment".

now, he has helped me help myself. he has helped me become someone i can be undoubtedly, resoundingly, assured of. i have dreams again. i have aspirations again. and i actually hold beliefs that i am capable of achieving at least one of them.

so we started with my going back to school while he works. if you asked me in the beginning of the year if I'd be ready or interested in going back, I'd have remarked that "yeah right", that I'll be burnt out within a week.