5:03pm | nov 6th, 2025 - i made it
the rock bottom i was feeling 2 years ago, when my physical conditions and mental illnesses were still undiagnosed/untreated, was a painfully slow uphill battle, that i couldn't have seen through without my spouse.
he has been here with unwavering support, in all of my battles with helplessness, shame, grief, to have come to a stable enough point, that for once, my dreams and goals can move up beyond "i hope i make it out of bed by 1pm today" or "i hope i can find at least a part-time job that pays enough so i can move out of my traumatic home environment".
now, he has helped me help myself. he has helped me become someone i can be undoubtedly, resoundingly, assured of. i have dreams again. i have aspirations again. and i actually hold beliefs that i am capable of achieving at least one of them.
so we started with my going back to school while he works. if you asked me in the beginning of the year if I'd be ready or interested in going back, I'd have remarked that "yeah right", that I'll be burnt out within a week.
well I've made it through the hardest part, starting, staying, and applying myself with all I've got. i feel so much relief and overwhelming gratitude that he didn't give up on me, and that i also didn't give up on me.
