#mai.

Desde el segundo piso, con manos puestas sobre la baranda, admira a los vástagos que se pasean en el nivel inferior. Eran momentos como aquel que imagina cómo sería controlar la dominación como Tatyana, su sire, y saber qué pasa por la cabeza de segundos, terceros, cuartos ⏤ "Vaya prueba de fortaleza nos ha presentado el príncipe." Es imposible no sonar irónico hablando de esa figura en específico, pero su semblante está inmóvil. "Sed, sueño, aburrimiento... paciencia. Por nuestro bien ¿no?" Se las arregla para casi sonar divertido con la situación.

no.

watching atla, i related so much to mai. that absence of interest or excitement for absolutely everything except when huge things happen, like in her case it was her family getting attacked and having to chase the attackers down, butt even then, the “fun” was shortlived and she went back to being “bored”. those feelings of disinterest for everything, and i guess downright nothingness, are things i’ve been dealing with for years and it doesn’t really get better at all without psychological treatments and medication.

people act as if when she talks about stuff like hating everybody, she’s trying to be “quirky” or “edgy” or “cool”, but you guys forget that the atla world isn’t our world, in which depression has been extremely romanticized, downplayed and overused as a term for feelings of sadness when it’s way more complex than that. there is no reason why mai would be saying that stuff in the atla world unless she really feels that way.

given all i’ve seen of mai, i’m 100% sure she is clinically depressed and i say that as someone with diagnosed depression. for some people it manifests in different ways but for me it was always just like mai.

she isn’t constantly sad and weepy as it’s sometimes portrayed in tv. as far as i’ve seen, she does care deeply about some people and yet she’s done with all of them at the same time, her love language is much more through actions rather than through words, gifts or physical affection displays, sometimes the actions are huge like at boiling rock, and sometimes they’re smaller, but are often overlooked because of her collected, calm and aloof sort of behavior. and there’s also that constant boredom that only fades a bit sometimes but doesn’t leave for enough amount of time for it to really matter.