They say “ when a door closes, another one opens..” 

So... I guess I’m keeping our door closed for now...

I wish things were easier, but i just had to do it, before we dug our holes deeper. Because... if I was HER, I would want you to respect and love me enough to break up with me and be honest with your feelings.( Don’t play with people’s feelings, thats just pure evil.)

This coward who I was talking/hooking up with for a month then outta nowhere drops the face of the earth& hits my line after 2 weeks. Like boy youre playing games and have a new girl. If she can’t do what I do then that’s your problem.

I don’t know why but I’ve been triggered so much in the past 2 days.

Like mentally/emotionally I’m just fucked. I guess my feelings are just hurt by almost everyone around me.

I’m being constantly yelled at by my mom.

My dad trying to talk to me because he hasn’t received alimony. like wtf does that have to do with me? Be a fuckin man and talk to your ex wife about that. Not me.

My friends being too busy with their boyfriends and not making time for me.

Their boyfriends making fun/teasing me for insecurities and sensitive topics that I confided in them with. - We’re not close like that. So just stop.

I didn’t get an email/text back about that job I was really looking forward about. Something that possibly could have been a big break...

Like really? You moved to the Philippines in 2014 and get paid $800 USD per month. That changes into about 40,000 pesos a month. Don’t you think it’s about time to get your shit together? You’re suppose to be the one supporting me. Fuck your shit.