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I am slowly accepting that we are not meant for each other.

That we were a mistake right from the start. We were wrong for each other in every way possible. What was supposed to be a chance encounter dragged on until the flames of attraction scorched us both and left us ravaged in the aftermath. Our emotions were inflamed and our senses were heightened until we started something that we weren’t ready for. We kindled a fire that both of us did not know how to extinguish.

I spent so much time and effort trying to fight against fate and made you stay. I tried so hard to be someone I thought you would love. I loved you so much that I was willing to turn a blind eye to how destructive you were to me. I wanted to be with you so badly that I ignored the warning voice in my head telling me it was a bad idea.

And slowly I have come to see that we are just two different individuals who happened to be at the same place at the right time. We were not the right fit from the start and no amount of trying can force things to work. Our goals and dreams had never been aligned and our time together had an expiration date that both of us could not deny.

I am slowly accepting that we are better off apart and living our own separate lives.

Even when we were together, our inevitable end seemed to be dawning near with each passing day. Your unanswered text, your indifferent attitude towards us, and your tendency to hurt me made me felt like death on most of the days.

You were still with me yet I felt the loss of you so keenly as if you already left. Even in your presence, all I could think of was how your absence could kill me. I thought of how I couldn’t do without you and subconsciously, I gripped my hold on you tighter driving you further away from me. I thought any affection you gave me was better than nothing. I settled into an empty shell of a relationship simply because I could not stand the thought of losing you.

And slowly I have come to accept that we are toxic to each other. With you, I became another version of myself that I could not recognize. I was too focused on you to be there for myself. I was too absorbed in the idea of us that I lost touch with what was happening around me. I was too in loved with the idea of you to comprehend that love wasn’t supposed to be this way.

I am slowly accepting that I have to let you go to be happy.

Ironically, you had never been mine to begin with. You made me doubt myself every time when you refused to answer my text and spend time with me. You worsened our situation when you pretended nothing was wrong and swept our problems aside. You broke my heart when you misled me with your confusing actions and couldn’t reciprocate my feeling.

And slowly I have come to accept that I can only truly find my own happiness after I let you go.

I can reclaim my own identity and be the person I’m meant to be without you by my side. I can find the love I always wanted and live my dream life after I make the right decision to remove you from my life.

Fellow Magnolia Springers, word has it that love has been a twist up in this town…not that I really care or anything. However, it’s the talk of the town. What is better than love, anyway? Ya’ll seem to enjoy getting your noses up in other peoples business.

I am rather late on the news because there has been a change of events but I’m sure ya’ll want to know what I think, right?

Anyway, anonymous has sent in some rather hilarious statement: Guess Cade just hates Dalton. First Lucy, now his best friend Paisley. Poor Dalton. Guess no one wants him to have girls around him unless they're related or taken. That seems to be exactly it, anonymous. He just seems to never be able to snag a woman before another charismatic man comes in and swoops them off of their feet. Poor man. He can’t get laid for the life of him, can he? Come on guys, he’s a sweet gentleman from what I have heard. Then again, nobody in town likes a nice man. Women love the dirty country boys. Dalton, maybe you should step your game up.

However, Lucy is still available, brother. Why not try your game on her again? She seems really easy to woo. Onward to another relationship, Paisley and Cade seem to be locked down. Thank god the player is tied down. Lets see how long they last.

I heard from the grapevine Bailey likes Noah. Hmmm. Romance? Or will he turn the other cheek and ignore her? Who knows.

Do they? I wonder what Rafe will think about this. Word has it that he has a small liking for her; considering they used to be in a relationship, I do not see why not. Does he like her back? I wonder. According to another anonymous post, Noah's attention seems to be on Bailey. Completely….yes he does. Is he just playing her? He seems like to type of man to never focus on one lady. That’s just my opinion though. He can do so much better than focusing on one woman. Come on, Noah. Make this town interesting…for once.

These two new relationships? How long will they last? I hope they fall apart fast. It’ll be hilarious to write about it.

There ya go with your love-life gossip.

Send in something interesting for once.

With Love,

Read Dalton's journal with entry of wanting something sharp going across his skin.

Hey, anonymous. Have you ever thought of not prying into someones personal journal? Do you think that maybe Dalton has been going through some emotional time, or possibly, you’re saying this just to make him seem pathetic? We do hope that he is actually not contemplating something so irrational and utmost depressing. I may be a rude person because I have to deal with your petty bullshit of relationship drama and stupid things I do not care about but I do have a sense of pity. I have noticed that Dalton has just been trying to find love and not get shut down for nearly everything that he does. 

Anyway, this brings us to our topic for today!

A little social butterfly has given us word that there was a fight that broke out between Cade Gentry and Dalton Reynolds, himself. Even though this has everything to do with women and love (which I scoff at), it’s something I cannot miss filling you little dirty Magnolians in on!

According to this little butterfly, our lovely Lucienne White has shown some interest in the poor construction worker to only shut him down in the end. Our little Lucy seems to be completely smitten by Cade. But why? He’s nothing more than just a normal man who owns a stupid restaurant that doesn’t even serve that good of food. Hey, Cade! Consider not serving salmonella with your chicken?

Even though I completely got off topic, I thought it was humorous. Why should Cade get all the fun and leave Dalton completely in the dark, to deal with his depression? Our construction worker thought him and Lucienne were dating, poor little guy! Didn’t you know that she lives by the notion of romance novels, to play men? Geez! 

To be honest, I think it’s pretty pathetic that the two got into an argument over one lady. There are plenty of bachelorettes who are searching for love. Why not just move on and go after them? Oh, right. Cade suffers from PTSD and hates confrontation so of course, he needed to escalate things and embarrass Dalton.

Oh, Cade and Lucienne, I hope you guys know what ya’ll are doing.

Sincerely,

The Overseer

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