#luvvewan

what is your favorite line you’ve ever written?

“Fuck you, Jinn,” Obi-Wan Kenobi says, voice oddly toneless, faintly prickling yet devoid of anything like ire. “If you cannot take credit for my successes, then you dare not take on my faults, as well.”

😏 very fond of that 'fuck you, Jinn' (sound the abyss, part of one of the first conversations where they actually make some progress with each other)

I also like the opening to Occupational Hazards. it has a rather nice rhythm to it:

The Order had a long and complicated history in Malastare. Neatly situated in the Mid Rim, it was perhaps one of the most highly-trafficked worlds in three sectors, and lay at the crossroads of the galaxy. Home to some of the most famous swoop and pod-race circuits, Malastare played host to both Core- and Rim-Worlders; to Republic and Confederate Senators alike; to successful businessmen, and ‘businessmen’ of a darker stripe, like the Black Sun Vigos. 

There were opportunities aplenty for commerce big and small—anyone could find a place in the bustling vaguely-legal corners of Malastarian metropoli. 

Escaped slaves, refugees, and freemen. Rich men, poor men, beggar men, thieves.  

Jinn checked his wristcomm. 

Memory is currently functioning at a surprising low, tho. I think some of the more recent fics have some pretty good stuff in them. I just can't necessarily remember what it is.

hmm. oh here we go! Pudding Cups had a very nice opening, too! Obi-Wan's dramatic entrance was a good one

There were victories to be had, even if they were small: a night’s sleep, a breakfast that he could keep down. A lap or two around the medical ward, leaning on his IV stand. And today, at the end of the second lap, he’d even worked up the appetite for another pudding cup—an entirely new indulgence for him. 

A collection of firsts between Master Qui-Gon Jinn and his apprentice, Obi-Wan Kenobi, including: first kill for Obi-Wan, first platonic bed sharing, first time Obi-Wan sees Qui-Gon cry, first major injury for Obi-Wan, first time Obi-Wan realizes how much Qui-Gon cares about him, first shared tea, first time Obi-Wan doesn't come home. (Gen)

The first time Qui-Gon sleeps next to his Padawan, he is not sure the gesture is appreciated. Obi-Wan does not acknowledge Qui-Gon’s presence, an elbow against his back, here on the narrow cot of a nameless transport. He remains huddled against the wall, facing away from his Master. It is obvious to Qui-Gon that the boy is trying to regulate his breathing, but the rise and fall of his chest is too measured, too perfect.He wants to say “you do not need to perform for me,” but does not, because he worries it will be perceived as an insult. And Obi-Wan wants so much to be unaffected by what has happened. After all their trials together, his apprentice still clutches to the ideal of a Stoic Jedi. Qui-Gon also wants to say “that sort of Jedi is a myth,” but does not, because he worries the long-carried notion is the only thing holding Obi-Wan in one piece, just now. 

okay, since you didn’t specify the character, I’m going to do Qui-gon for this ask ;)

10) Fears/phobias

okay, so here’s a take. Qui-gon isn’t afraid of all that much, not of physical violence, not of his own demise, and, to a degree, not of something terrible happening to someone else he cares about. (Not that he doesn’t care, but he doesn’t have the same type of intense attachment to others that Obi-wan does.)

But you know what Qui-gon might be afraid of?

Lack of meaning. 

Here is a man who puts so much importance on what the Force “tells him,” who believes that prophecies are sending a message, that there is a reason for everything in the Force that he must stay on the side of the Light because the Light has meaning whereas the Dark is its opposite, is the lack of meaning, is nihilism and relativism (the same nihilism and relativism that pulled Dooku under). 

But what if there was no deeper meaning? What if everything Qui-gon had strived so hard for, to live his life as the Force guided him, to delve into the mysteries of prophecy that had to be the will of the Force, the Whills themselves - what if it all meant nothing? 

It would drag Qui-gon under, and quickly. 

There’s a reason Dooku thought Qui-gon might have joined him. There’s a very good chance, once Qui-gon was clued in on Palpatine’s schemes, he would have. 

11) Bad or petty habits

I mean, the plant thing probably gets a little out of control at certain points, and I am relatively certain that hippie Qui-gon Jinn is a petty little shit who can be totally passive-aggressive in expressing his displeasure with someone. Stuff like switching the labels on certain tea tins so Dooku nearly spits out his drink when it is not what he thought it would be. Or rearranging the furniture to be an inch off from where it should be. Or hiding Obi-wan’s books in inconvenient places and then making him find them through the Force, as all things are possible through the Force. Like, Qui-gon totally would.

21) Turning points in their life

☕️- favorite passage

A single favorite? I don’t think I’d be able to choose just one.  Here’s one of my favorites, from the Drifting Starlight epilogue (which never fails to make me Feel Things):

Obi-Wan held up a hand, interrupting him.  “I should have tried to help you more with handling your emotions.  I failed you, Anakin, and—”

“Obi-Wan, stop.”  Anakin’s voice was loud and indignant.  “None of this was your fault, you hear me?”  He deflated.  “It was my decision to join Palpatine.  And because I did that, you…you died, Master, and I just stood there, as though it didn’t matter to me,” he exclaimed.

Obi-Wan let out a breathy laugh, and Anakin frowned.  What was funny about this?

“I died,” Obi-Wan said finally, his voice heavy with some sort of sickening mirth, “I died, and I’m still here.  The Force played some cruel joke on me, and now Qui-Gon has taken my place in the Force.”  He coughed harshly a few times into his sleeve.

“Obi-Wan, I—” What was he supposed to say to that?  Master Che did say that Obi-Wan’s mood was not good, but Anakin didn’t realize exactly how bad it was.  “I’m sorry, Obi-Wan,” he repeated, voice cracking.

“I know.” Obi-Wan was serious again, and his eyes were watering, though Anakin was sure it was from the coughing.

There are just…a lot of layers of things going on here, like I can’t even explain it in words.  Obi-Wan’s a complete mess, Anakin’s trying to figure out his own life, and they’re just…blahhhhhh.

(yeah, that’s just how I feel about JotL in general)

⭐️- how do you get your inspiration?

I just…look at things with a pair of angst-goggles?  I like to think that I’m good at getting into characters’ heads and just figuring out how they’d feel in certain situations.

So I’d say I’m inspired by the potential for angst or whump or hurt/comfort (in varying ratios) or anything like that, really.

Minute: Later he would try to remember exactly what happened that afternoon, after he promised Qui-Gon absolute forgiveness. He should have memorized every detail about that moment, because it was the passage of one life into another, a banquet after long fasting, the satiation of a hunger he had not recognized, before. (Qui-Gon/Obi-Wan. Explicit)

Even As : The battle on Mustafar ends differently. Obi-Wan is taken prisoner by the Sith. (Obi-Wan, Suitless Vader, Palpatine. Explicit. TW for non-con)

All and Only : Anakin Skywalker notices things, whether he wants to or not. (Anakin, Obi-Wan. Mature)

Customs : Obi-Wan is too uppity for an influential elder during a mission. Talks are stalled until Qui-Gon will (publicly) deliver the proper punishment to his apprentice. (Qui-Gon, Obi-Wan. Explicit)

Twin Suns : Obi-Wan is brutally attacked by a mysterious warrior while Qui-Gon retrieves Anakin from Mos Eisley. (Qui-Gon, Obi-Wan, Anakin. Gen hurt/comfort)

10. How would you describe your writing process? 

16) if you had to choose one moment/event in the star wars universe to change, what would you choose and why?

Okay, so this would totally fuck with canon as we know it, but I would change the aftermath of Ahsoka’s arrest, in that I want Obi-wan to break her out of prison.

And like, I know why he didn’t. Why he went along with the Council. (He had just pulled some rank insubordination on Mandalore, was probably under some kind of restriction, felt that his interference only led to death, felt GUILTY af about disobeying the Council, etc.)

But I really, really wanted him to go outlaw.

(I would probably also change the whole time portals thing at the end of Rebels, as it just felt…I want to say something like Forced or Deus Ex Machina, but it would be hypocritical of me to say so as Star Wars isn’t really known for iron-clad plot lines. Still, it felt over-explained, if that makes any sense, and I would have preferred a more wooly conclusion where Ahsoka remained Schrodinger’s Jedi, but that’s just me and I realize it’s not a popular opinion.)