#lumierc

for every ‘@’ sent (anon or not) i will mention and post some positivity about a fellow tumblr user

@i-ng​​ I’ve known you for a really long time (I mean, we’re talking at least four years here, right?) and although there were times when we didn’t talk as much, we’ve managed to stay in touch nevertheless. Despite your personal struggles and hardships, you’ve always had a sympathetic ear for my problems and cheered me on during some really difficult times when nobody else would. The summer you came to visit was undoubtedly one of the best three weeks I’ve had in a long time. I love you, hun, and you deserve only good things to happen to you.

@lumierc​ You’re probably one of the most kind-hearted people I have met on this website and I am so grateful to call you my friend. You’re so much fun to talk to and roleplay with and although I am the most trashcan partner of trashcan partners, you haven’t complained once and you’re still roleplaying with me. You, my friend, deserve a medal, along with all the others who aren’t tired of my lazy ass yet. And while we’re on the subject of roleplaying, you’re also one of the most talented writers I know. Seriously. So jealous! Sidenote for everyone else reading this: she’s Satan and will make you emo a lot if you ship with her. But that’s one of the things I love about her. Lol. Stay exactly as you are, darlin’!

@eizawrites​ is such a badass and I admire her for that so much. She’s the kind of person you definitely want on your team when going up against the mean girl of your school, haha. And have you seen her selfies? She’s got some mad makeup skills and she’s so pretty! Needless to say, since this is a roleplay account, I will also have to mention that she’s a fantastic writer too and so much fun to ship with (and by that I mean find ways to emotionally torture our muses, yay!). Ruby, you might actually be the person I have been writing with longest; that is some serious shit. And even when I had to take a break for almost an entire year, you remained understanding and didn’t let our ships die. Not everyone is going to be like that and I appreciate it a lot.

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☤ for my muses reaction to finding yours in a hospital bed

Oscar had never felt such crippling guilt ever before - he knew directly it wasn’t really his fault. He had always been a man to think logically, never letting himself get caught in feelings or emotions. He had always thought of those very things as a weakness, never letting himself get entangled with them. But then with Lea it was different - it had started as one of his schemes - just something he used to get close to her suit his means. He had never anticipated her smile or way she laughed. He didn’t know she brought light wherever she went and it was enough to reach the dark corners of his heart.

Somewhere along the way, without meaning to, he had started to care for her. In a way he hadn’t cared for anyone else in his life. And now - now they had fought and she had ended up in the hospital. He knew she would never have been driving so carelessly had her mind not been occupied. Oscar sprinted through the hospital, not caring about anything except the mere fact he had to get to her. 

His heart was in his throat by the time he got to the private room, catching himself by his fingertips on the doorway as he stepped inside and closed the door behind him. She looked so.. fragile, motionless and her eyes closed, hooked up to all those machines. Oscar couldn’t make sense of the feelings, he only knew there was nothing he hated more than seeing her like this. He couldn’t help the small, choking sound that escaped his throat as if it was hard to breathe suddenly. Oscar curled his hand in a fist, reminding himself to get it together. He did not lose control. 

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!!!!!!! ah youre such an amazing person to hc with and to plot with and rp with but tbh you’re just also a really amazing person apart from that??? like i feel sO SO SO good everytime we talk and like honestly just good vibes all around and i luv going on ur blog bcos its perfection but also bcos good vibes!!!!!! also u rip my heart out everytime you reply so thanks for that but goddddd i love our ships and also!!! you!!! so!! much!!! and also ur writing is flawless and you’re so patient w me and my ~lateness~ and im just so happy to get to know you and i love how whenever we pick up a ship we put them through hell and i cant wait to do more of it and i love our ships and any future ships we might have and you’re sO AWESOME ily!!!!

SEND ME ♣ + A SHIP AND I’LL TELL YOU…

who is the better dancer? oscar maybe??

who likes the outdoors more and who likes the indoors more? lea would def like the outdoors more

who’s a cat person and who’s a dog person? ohhh she’s a dog person and hes a cat person

who’s more social? ksjdkjsd LEA

who makes the bed every morning? ummm both of them??

who likes to keep the house cold and who likes to keep the house warm? they keep the house waRM

who takes longer getting ready? lea probs

who likes scary movies and who likes funny ones? lea likes the funny ones and oscar like the scary one just cos she clings to him :) 

who screams when they see a bug and who ends up killing it? she screams and he kills it lOL

who is more technology challenged? lea??

who would be more likely to burn something in the oven? ohhh lea 

who talks in their sleep? neither of them

who leaves the cap off the toothpaste? idkkk probs neither of them

who likes getting dressed up more? lea!!

who’s better at tying ties? both of them are but lea liked tying his for him and he liked it as well 3 

who recorded the answering machine message on the house phone? aHHH BOTH OF THEM

who’s better at planning romantic things? lea but hes really good at it too because he has to make her think he loves her an all (i mean he really does but you know shhh) and hes a really good planned and stuff so actually its oscar

who takes up more space in the closet? lea 

who has more of a sweet tooth? def lea!!!

who drinks more often? oscar but not like Too Much

bicycle: what are you talented at?

writing. i would like to think, at least. it’s the one hobby i genuinely love, and the one thing that is most sacred to me. over these last few months, i felt like it was taken from me. it’s a long story, but losing my love for writing was terrifying for me. misdirected anger made me blame my career path on what i was feeling, and it drained every ounce of passion i had. i’ve been slowly coming back, but it took me losing my love for writing to made me realize it’s what i truly care about. another thing i may be good at is listening to people. it’s sometimes hard to just shut the fuck up, and really listen to someone. whether i agree or disagree, i can usually understand where someone’s motives lie. i get their rhyme and reason. this also turns into a downfall of mine because i can find ways to easily excuse the worst behavior in someone. it’s easy when you can justify their actions and want to see the good in people. 

sunflower: what do you love and cherish?

see above answer about writing. then add into that my friends. the chosen family, as we call them. my grandmother, my mother, and my aunt. the three strongest women i’ve ever met who have had to deal with a lifetime of abuse at the hands of the men in my family. animals are neat. music is cool. this is turning into a generic answer. i love and cherish the things worth loving and cherishing? also love me some bearded men– i cherish the fuck out of them. lemony snicket, the author who really pulled me into reading and writing. my leather jacket with the ever growing pin collection. flowers of any kind. specifically pink roses and lilies. people who aren’t loved and cherished enough by their families or society. idk man, i could go on for awhile. some shit just needs more love than it gets. 

woods: where do you feel at peace?

near open bodies of water. so my “secret spot” in town is this little marina/park. you can park right on the water, and you can see so much. the largest bridge in the county is within sight, the hills of mexico are on the left. if you’re there at night the hill is totally lit up and it’s breathtaking. it bounces right off the water and it’s indescribable. if i’ve had a hard day at the newsroom or things are bad with my family, you can probably find me there. one time earlier this year i went and parked and sobbed like a crazy person, then took a two hour nap in my car and woke up to the sunset. it cleared the bad shit out of my system and i was good after. also good hugs are a nice feeling of peace. and hotel beds. and beaches. and target (if i have money). i also feel really fucking at peace if i’ve had six drinks or a few bong rips. 

mushroom: list unique things you like about yourself

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