#luke crosscode

Whenever I’m thinking about Luke and Lukas there’s always a corner of my brain thinking about the fact that the moment Luke reneges his claim to the name Lukas exactly follows after Lukas responding to the Super Lukas joke with “I’ll be True Lukas, then.’”

Like. Kinda fucked up thing for Lukas to say when you stop and think about it. C’mon man that was a pretty big fuckup. He could’ve used a nickname in CrossWorlds instead of making Luke give up his name for his entire existence. Yeah it’d be more confusing for him and his irl friends but they could make it work for the sake of not making him rename himself.

(I still like him though to be clear. I like him more for the mistake than if he’d handled it well honestly. What can I say I’m a Shizuka fan.)

I also keep thinking about that scene where Lea dreams of receiving her name. Like, we know the Lea of five years later so she’s super used to being named Lea, but I just keep picturing that moment. She was just activated. Barring the language impairment she’d still be pretty close to a perfect clone of a younger Shizuka at that point. No memories, floating with no idea what’s happening to her. And then this guy just fuckin’ names you?! I keep wondering, did she ever feel something off at first? Ever suspect this was wrong?

Did she ever remember that her name was Shizuka? She spent a fair bit of time around Satoshi, as I understand it. That would cause her to regain memories much faster! Did she ever wonder why her own brother wouldn’t tell her her own name? And even if she remembered it herself, she wouldn’t be able to tell anyone she remembered her name, I don’t think ‘name’ is a concept she would be capable of learning a word for at that point in her life.

Also I should really do a separate post about all my many thoughts about how “C’Tron” is presented as just one of the accounts he changes between and how that must fuck his sense of self. But that’s a whole other thing so for now: I also muse about how C’Tron has so so many names and every last one of them has been a fake. He, seemingly, does not even remember what his/Sidwell’s real name ever was.

Now the one name he chose to befriend interrogation target 78 under has stuck to him permanently. But he’s known it’s fake for just about as long as he’s been alive. Did it stop feeling that way just because it’s the last name he has left?