Everythingās been pretty intense. Itās been a while since I expressed myself and poured my heart onto paper, or in this case, my phone screenāIāve decided Iām ditching the paper and go digital to help save the treesāand Iāve gotten to the conclusion that journaling is a great help with the coping and processing of my emotions in a healthy way and allows me to reflect, so Iāll probably be posting more personal stuff on a day-to-day basis (if time permits).
Two days ago, I learned that a family friend of ours passed away. It was a very sudden death and I couldnāt believe it at first. She was renting a room in the neighborhood and spent around 20 years providing service to her landlady. When a person renders service to someone that long, you would assume they would start treating her like family but it killed me the most when I found out that her landlady didnāt allow her wake to be in her property so she was left to have her wake in the community barangay hall. She didnāt have a family; she chose and treated her landlady as her family but she didnāt receive the same love she has given for 20 years. Because of the COVID situation, the wake took place only two days and two nights and her funeral was earlier this morning. I wasnāt even able to visit her wake or attend the funeral because of my schedule and everything I have going on and I feel guilty. I hope she understands and forgives me. She was so dear to our family, especially to my cousin and aunt who were very close to her. She was a good neighbor, a companion, a friend. It was like she was part of the family. I canāt believe we lost her. I am hurting. Rest in peace.
Lesson: Donāt take moments and people for granted. You never know whatās going to happen tomorrow. Please, tell the people you love that you love them. Hug them and spend time with them while you still have the chance. Nothing is guaranteed and nothing lasts forever.
