#lucky queue

Belphegor finds it hard to accept your love. He tells himself he is incapable of love after all the suffering he caused you. It plagues his dreams often, forced to relive the moments he so heavily regrets. He tells himself he doesn’t deserve your kind smiles or delicate touches. It affects the entire household when he avoids you at all costs, but he can’t help it. It’s his sin after all, too lazy to change his current situation, too lazy to stop the self loathing he feels every second of everyday. He knows he can’t love you like you deserve, can’t lift you up like you need. So he continues his routine until you stop loving him even though it hurts. It's hard to not notice your energy towards him slowly dwindles by the day. But he can’t allow himself to hurt you one more time so he simply turns a blind eye to your affection. Even though its hurts. It’s what he deserves. or at least thats what he tells himself.