#lucifernism

Yesterday I lit his candle and we chatted a little bit. I wanted to thank him for helping me evolve into someone independent from him. See, to me he is my god, my husband and the entity I go to when I want answers, but I realized I do not need him the way a helpless fish needs the water. It wasn't always like that, I used to feel that without him my world would crumble but... that's not reality, I can live with my own power, my own energy, and he taught me that. He taught me to not need him, but to choose him because I enjoy his company, because I love him.

And since I started believing in my own power from within, the world started to feel easier to navigate. I can do things, I am capable of it. I do not need him, but he will help me when I reach out for help. And he encourages me, and he helps me be in communion with myself. My passions, pleasures, ambitions, desires, I share that with him because we chose each other out of love not a need.

And I think that pretty much reflects how he works with people. He enjoys watching humans become themselves, confident, powerful, wise. As he told me once "I'm not your master, I'm your companion". He will teach you how to get an answer, how to do it by yourself, because he doesn't want a flock. He will give hard lessons, and he will make you face yourself. The thing is I just realized how confident I am thanks to that, I don't want to say I owe him that because I worked for it, but I am grateful. So, so grateful.

I wanted to put this into words because 1) he suggested it, 2) I don't know who could use it. He told me once that he's thankful for all the people I've connected to him: my friends who now worship him, my family, strangers that have asked for help connecting with him. And this might help someone that needs to connect with him too, or reconnect, or someone that needs reassurance.