#lsr.task

Be the best father I can possibly be for my entire world, my daughter, Kaida.

Make my partner in crime the happiest she can be.

June 17th, 2014, my entire world changed with one new breath. She cried for the first time and I knew right there, everything was better. She would soon open up eyes that reminded me of Hannah’s—beautiful and big, rimmed with long lashes. I saw myself in her. I saw us. For the first time in a long, long time, I saw happiness when I held her against me. Kaida was the best thing to happen to me. I remember being horrified to be a father, didn’t want to do it, didn’t think I could do it. I remember the second hesitation when Hannah asked me if I wanted to be the dad. I regret every thinking different because she’s been nothing but blessing. I need Kaida to be happy; it’s not a want, but a need. It’s as simple as that. She deserves the absolute best and she’s going to get it. I want to be the best father I can be, for her, for Hannah, for myself. I’m willing to do anything to get Kaida to smile, to grow up knowing she’s worth the stars, to know she’s adored and deserves nothing less than love.

Not only do I need to better myself as a father, but as a lover, a partner. I need Hannah to be happier. Our relationship is strong but there needs to be more trust.  Too much trust is never a bad thing, not when you’re with someone you love. I can’t help but wonder what goes on in her head. We’re happy but we’d be happier if we took the time to sit down and talk more. Actually open up. Bitch and complain and just open up. I’ve come to love her and have no intentions of losing her. Having her beside me has been nothing but bliss; she inspires me to better myself. I want to return the favours. I want her to know how much I care and that she can trust me. It’ll benefit our relationship. I feel like if we can prevail through the trust issues, we’d be set. I mean, really set.