What you want me to say first
Want me to tell you everything I don’t like
You want to know all about my past life
Want to see if I got multiple people up in mind
Trying to still figure out the controls
Hey whoever’s up there! Figure it out! Read the manual !
Fuck this. No for real go fuck this.
So what if I just handed you some orange peels.
That’s about how much I care
When someone doesn’t give a fuck
Leaping from the shadows I’ll be there !
To throw a couple more fuck you’s
To dig deep in my pockets for I don’t cares
Shit. I just realized all the IOU’s I must owe to you for all the times I didn’t even give a fuck about you.
Peek in the box.
What did you find
Nothing. !
Not a single fuck this time
That’s how I feel on a real note. I know you use me as a scapegoat. I’ll never be Michale but damn I’ll try to be the GOAT. Living my life by every book Oprah televised on her reading list. So why does it seem that my life is still shit?
I do all the little things that you’d expect out of a partner in a relationship. Not gonna list them all I’ll save that shit. Not gonna go on a roll it would take a long time easier just to take the toll to save lines.
I’m asking about the extra. The didn’t need to’s of back rubs and you first that’s what I’m telling you.
All the surprises that you controlled all the way down to Christmas’s and me buying you coke... yes a drink. A coke. At a gas station. You in the car still waiting. Had to text me as I was browsing to make sure I remembered our previous conversation. That was literally three minutes ok when I asked if it was diet or no.
Where the hell should I take this. Which way do I want to go.
I am a one of a kind a only comes once but you gonna fuck it up so I’m gonna say bye bye. All you had to do was appreciate my time. I don’t need you to think you have do everything I do for you, legit you don’t even have to try. I like our life when you just don’t put me down at night. Don’t tell me I’m lazy and don’t do shit because I no longer work a 9-5. I guess I finally realize the struggles of a housewife.
Sorry you too late to enjoy hot food that I made you a text woulda worked just fine. Sorry you so tired that you fell asleep in the kids room. I was just trying to put him to sleep three hours ago but you told me no cause of the work guilt. I get it I don’t tilt. But when you decide to let him stay up till nearly midnight and then get mad at me then that’s some bullshit hold up let finish speaking. Let me finish thinking. Let me go ahead and put him back to sleep while you talk some shit under your breath about how it was my fault that ya back hurts ( pssst it’s not because of ya breast ) my fault I give you all that attention. Just sitting on the couch remodeling homes in the south that’s all you ever talk about if it’s not about work then we silent, feels like a drought. I don’t even know why I get so mad you showing me right now there’s no fuck I be giving
Damn. Why didn’t I pay some attention.
