#low point

hey guys,,, so this is genuinely one of the hardest things i've had to come to terms with... i'm not good at asking for help, never have been. truth is, i was raised to be independent and as great of a quality that can be, it's also one of my greatest flaws... i would say. for a few months now i've been REALLY struggling. i was going to school and working, but work got to be so stressful, i kind of set school aside because i felt like i really needed to give work my 200%... and well i did just that. so during this time, i unfortunately lost my grandmother and i'm not going to pretend it's not one of the greatest tragedies i've ever had to face. she was such a big part of me, and losing her as been-- yeah. i still can't listen to marjorie by taylor swift. so, two week after i lost my grandmother, the job that i sacrificed so much for laid off all of it's employees with no notice. i've never felt so dispensable before, it really triggered something in me... all while also dealing with my loss and unemployment. flash forward to another 2 weeks- i got into a car accident. and well, the one thing i had paid off- i lost. now it's been 4 months, i'm unemployed, drowning in bills, unable to go back to school because i can't afford to- and i just kind of feel like the more i try to dig myself out of this hole i'm in, the deeper i fall in.

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