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dear lost god,

i'm feeling lazy today. and the next day. and the one after that… the heat does that to you, you know. maybe i should read a comic. i haven't done that in a while. i wanted to write but i don’t know, you know? theres nothing i want to say—or really there's too much i want to say and no more energy to say it. i'm really not sure. part of me wants to create some tunes which i haven't done in quite a while. renaissance man and all that. pick a struggle? i think reading is a good option. all of elf quests won't read themselves. i need to find somewhere to read in this house, that’s not my bedroom which i still need to clean and clean good—and clean my study while i'm at it.

i have all these clothes that don’t fit me because of pcos and i don’t know what i should do with them. donate them or pray i'll be eighty kilograms again? i'm doing those savory breakfasts and all, it's just hard to exercise when you're born with a fucked up heart. i'm tyring, i really am. i think the reading is a good idea, to be honest. i want to not care about being fat and on some logical level i don’t, but being the chubby greek wog through all primary school and high school is just something i can't forget. if you know, you know. also being fat just makes my chest larger. its harder to bind—plus the open heart surgery scar isn't helping. i just want to fit into my greek-mother-bargained designer trench coat again.

i wish i was more alone. i need more boubis and me time—i think my cat would agree. should i stay with yiayia on sunday? probably. what am i even going to do? go out? to get more uncurable migraines? plus, boubis loves it there. so, yeah, i guess i should. i'll probs be tired from saturday and i need the greek lessons. i don’t know how hot it's going to be, thirty, thirty-five degrees?

i need to read more and i need a new belt—well not any new belt, a need another pappou belt. one fat greek to another. i think that’s what i need to do in my life, read a lot more. it’s not been a good reading year. too much youtube and not enough of anything else. i have the time. though to be fair, i've been so tired the last year and what do i even do?

i want to read more art magazines like a lot more art magazines, you know. my library has them all on libby. that’s where the contemporary art world happens. i just want to be up to date and know more, you know. less art instagram which makes me so miserable. it's just so fleeting but no matter how many galleries close, it won't end your career. oil paintings are just better in person than on little black screens. i have been a lot better about this the last two years, since starting art school. it can just be hard with all this pain. so i think i need to read more art books. i really do need to go through my instagram follows and follow people i want to and not just because i liked a painting i saw for five seconds.

i want to go to canberra again. it’s a ghost town but it has massive galleries—for australian standards anyway—  that are also ghost towns. just how i like seeing art.

yours,

nektari

post script: 4/06/2025.

i think that i must write you letters more directly. only sometimes, though, don't worry, the ravings will come back soon. i don’t know it feels right to write this. i keep a journal that no one will ever read—well, actually maybe you can and all. i don’t know what (lost)god powers you have, if any but maybe it's just you and me and the post-deathies. but its not the same. i think i'm falling in love with the backspace key.

this is something new for both of us.

written: 6/02/2025.

Mp3 Offset & Lost God – Power Moves

Mp3 Offset & Lost God Power Moves

Mp3 Offset & Lost God Power Moves. Offset has been putting continuous effort this week. Offset has a new one titled “Power Moves” collaborating with Lost God.

Mp3 Offset & Lost God Power Moves

Offset whom dropped “Too Easy” with Lil Baby earlier is out with a new one “Power Moves” this one with Lost God.

Offset & Lost God Power Moves Lyrics:

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