LOONA Hyunjin Drabble

a/n: this was a repost.

One time, Heejin invited Hyunjin to join an online meeting together with her crush, Y/N. The two, Heejin and Y/N, are originally planning their group project but Heejin wants to tease Hyunjin a little bit.

"What should we listen to?" The puppy-looking girl asked when they agreed to listen to some music. "Softly by Clairo." Hyunjin suggests that her best friend replies with the "national hymn of the gaes.". Y/n laughs at Heejin's remark. While on the other hand, Hyunjin wants to smack her best friend.

The song ended and it auto-played 'Sofia' also by Clairo.

"Next song, please. That song is bad." Hyunjin blurted out.

"Do you think it is bad?" Her crush asked her about the song. She honestly doesn't know to reply, hence, she gathered her thoughts.

"Ahh... well. It's not that bad but I prefer 'Softly' than 'Sofia'. I like it better." Hyunjin said. Her voice is slightly shaky.

"Ohh, I see. I actually listen to Sofia every time." Y/N shared with them. Heejin chuckled when she heard nothing from Hyunjin's mic.

After a few seconds, a small "Okay." left Hyunjin's lips.

Feeling a little bit embarrassed.

But she is Hyunjin, so she doesn't accept defeat. "Softly is much better," she thought.

After that night, Hyunjin listens to Sofia and then to Softly nonstop. She will play these whenever she has spare time to listen to a song. She plays them alternately to compare one another.

Heejin knows this because of Hyunjin's activity on Spotify. She listens to it all day and all night.

Hyunjin didn't stop there. She asks everyone in their circle of friends which song is better. She even asked her mother about it too.

This girl is pretty-funny and crazy in terms of these things. She didn't even notice that she was lowkey-loving 'Sofia'.

Heejin and her best friend are in her room. The latter is still busy comparing the two songs. Suddenly, Heejin remembered the time Hyunjin searched for the lyrics of 'Sofia'.

Loona Olivia Hye x Gowon

The place where she calls home is the place where she’s not alone.

author’s note: Hello everyone, It’s been a while since I posted a work, so I hope you guys will like this. The songs of Dreane inspire it. Please check them out—Credit to my friends who helped and motivated me to write this story.

warning: angst

One thing Hyeju did growing up was barely show her emotions to the people surrounding her, making them misunderstand and have no idea what her true feelings were all the time.

But of course, her family and closest friends are excluded from those people.

She is often taken for granted whenever she tries to express her feelings. For her, it wasn't hard to act like this

This misunderstanding causes them to make decisions ahead without asking her opinions. "It's very out of your character." or "Because I thought you were like this." Those are the things she often hears from other people. It's a shame they'll jump to conclusions and do things they thought she was "unable" to do.

 She badly wants to grow out of this character.

Hyeju went home to their home country to continue her studies. 

“Finally, Home” she murmured.

“The place that gives me comfort. 

It is a place where I can be the real me.

And brings the best out of me.”

Time passed by pretty quickly

Days became a week, and weeks became months

Indeed, many things have taken place since Chaewon happened.

Hyeju still remembers the first interaction between the two of them. She seems like a calm person. Everything that Chaewon loves to do is also Hyeju's interest. They always vibe together, thus the start of their friendship. It's not surprising that they both start showing their love for each other; it is a slow burn. There's a saying, "slow burn love takes time to grow," but theirs did not. Maybe because they were meant to be together, but they did it wrong. Neither of them dared to talk about their growing love for each other, which made the other one to move on about it.

Hyeju still cannot believe that she's gone this far. These past few weeks got out of hand, especially Chaewon. She didn't know what and how it happened, but one thing was for sure, it was not the same as before. What made Hyeju pissed a lot was that Chaewon was silent about what was going on, which made her suffocated in her thoughts and confused for weeks until the present day.

The real thing is that she is aware.

Hyeju isn’t dumb not realize what is happening. She is just afraid to admit it to herself. 

Because of her old habit, Hyeju struggles to admit her true feelings to other people. It’s hard for her to show her genuine side, so she chooses to do it slowly. However, in the process of her doing it, she lost her.

She lost Chaewon

That’s when she realized everything she never wanted before to be lost again. 

Hyeju only wanted someone once Chaewon came. She made her realize that she needed those things that Chaewon did to her.

Maybe too late to save the "something" between them

But not too late to save herself from her own suffocating thoughts

Hyeju drove three hours away from the town on her motorcycle. Looking at the calmness of the sea made her thoughts subside for a minute. She admires the sunrise that she doesn’t want to see again.

She brought a cigarette to her lips and lit it up, a perfect breakfast during these times.

That day Hyeju couldn't function at all. After she went home from her ride, she didn’t do anything the whole morning. 

The silence in her room can make an average person deaf, but not for Hyeju. Her thoughts are deafening. She threw the box of cigarettes in her bin before opening another box. Her anxiety was displayed on the number of cigarettes she consumed that morning.

After taking one last hit on a cigarette, Hyeju messaged Chaewon if they could meet in the nearby park. Not long after, Chaewon replied.

 "Sure"

She confessed. 

Hyeju said all of the things she wanted to say, from her confusions to her feelings towards Chaewon without expecting her to reciprocate it. 

Because she knew.  She knew that Chaewon likes someone else now, and it's not her.

And also, they both knew they were not like they were before. They may not say it, but a lot has changed. Chaewon changed.

After that, Hyeju felt at ease. A peace of mind is suddenly served to her.

A peace of mind that even a ton of cigarettes and long drives cannot match.

Hyeju gave her a regretful smirk, as Chaewon spoke to her with a whiff of sadness in her voice. These feelings were evident in her voice when Chaewon said she had previously liked Hyeju

Nodding her head, Hyeju told her it was fine. 

which is obviously not.

A week after what happened in the park, many things had changed. Hyeju slowly distances herself to Chaewon to give her space and also she is afraid to make the latter uncomfy.

That week, Hyeju caught a flu. She visited the hospital, where the doctor examined her and gave her prescription medication to help her feel better. But soon after, she started to develop bruises on various parts of her body. She also gets tired quickly.

It's 3 am, and Hyeju's head is killing her. She can't move because of this pain. Her cousin, her roommate, was awakened by her grunts and the pain escaping her lips. Minutes go by, and Hyeju can't seem to notice that she's falling asleep. The rage and regret radiate in their room, cold and empty, just like what she feels right now.

That morning, she woke up in the white room surrounded by her family. By their expression, Hyeju knows something is up and serious.

She was diagnosed with leukemia.

One thing’s for sure; she doesn’t want to undergo therapy. However, her family is persistent.

Hyeju stopped studying after discharge from the hospital and returned to her family's home, where she locked herself in her chilly room. The only times Hyeju was spotted in their home were at lunch and dinner. 

Her mother has been highly concerned about Hyeju's recent behavior. Her daughter requires immediate medical attention, but she consistently refuses. Hyeju has already informed her family that she does not want anyone to know about her condition. Still, due to Hyeju's stubborn nature, her mother has asked Chaewon for help persuading her to seek treatment.

As soon as Chaewon learned that Hyeju had leukemia, she texted the taller girl immediately to receive nothing, neither on read. She tried to call her nonstop, but it appeared that Hyeju's phone was turned off. 

Chaewon left with no other choice than to go to Hyeju's house. 

A knock on Hyeju's door one afternoon startled her out of sleep. Since her parents and siblings were at work that day, she was unsure who it was. The unexpected guest pushed Hyeju to freeze as she opened the door.“C-chaewon? Why are you here?” Hyeju questioned, her tone indicating her surprise.

Instead of receiving a reply, she received a warm and tight hug from the other girl. She almost lost her balance by this sudden action, hence she hugged her back. 

Hyeju misses this moment. She misses having her close by.

Where she felt safe and sound.

“You lost a lot of weight, Hyeju.” Chaewon started after they settled down in Hyeju’s bed. 

“Yeah, I know.” The other girl responded in a mellow tone. 

Chaewon looked at her and studied her face. Hyeju’s lips are dry and her face is very pale.

“You should get a treatment, Hyeju.” the girl started, trying to persuade Hyeju. 

Chaewon didn’t stop until Hyeju agreed to have chemotherapy. Hyeju listened to her carefully and began to consider treatment.

She wants to do it not because of herself, but because of Chaewon. 

She understands that, even as a friend, she still wants to be with her. She still desires to see her and speak with her. Because Chaewon is her peace, she becomes her will to survive in this chaotic world.

After hours of talking and persuading, It’s time for Chaewon to go home. 

“I’ll send you home.” Hyeju used to say things like this regularly, but due to the current circumstances, Chaewon is worried about the other girl.

“You don’t have to, Hyeju. It’s better if you stay at home and rest.” Chaewon said in her soft voice.

“Chaewon, please. After this, I promised that I will start my chemotherapy.” persistence is visible in Hyeju's voice.

Chaewon simply regarded the woman's gaze and nodded in agreement to send her home. 

Not so long after, they both got into the car and took their way to Chaewon’s house.

Hyeju opened the door of her car for Chaewon and she hugged her for the last time.

“Keep your promise, Hyeju. We have to see each other again.” Chaewon smiled at her bitterly after removing her arms around the taller girl. 

“Don’t worry, I will.” Hyeju smiled one last time before nodding her head and driving away to Chaewon’s house. 

She felt more motivated now after she met her. 

Hyeju is all by herself again on this cold night.

She discovers while lost in thought that she is still interested in Chaewon. The only medication or treatment she requires right now is Chaewon.

A new motivation to keep going is served to her. 

“I am not late, right?” she murmur to herself

A deep sigh left her lips before she felt a huge impact making her car thrown meters away. 

Hyeju got struck by the truck she failed to see coming her way.

She grunts as she tries to open her eyes. Hyeju realized she and her car were upside down. 

A sudden pain on her head and body made her close her eyes. 

For the last time, Hyeju didn’t seem to notice that she’s falling asleep. 

Falling asleep without assurance of waking up tomorrow.

Sadly, She’s late. 

Late to turn things around

Late to realize things could’ve been fixed sooner

Late to realize she was running out of time