#ln 15

Curiously, despite Emilia’s hatred of this person she’s talking to (perhaps Pandora?) Emilia is shedding a tear when expressing the notion they should’ve never met. What makes this line extra weird is this line of lead up into such a statement.

“I’ve thought this many times, and I’ve denied it many times… but the nightmare has truly come, so I will say it.”

This implies Emilia about whomever she “hated most in that world” was in denial about having not regretted meeting them up until this moment.

If it were someone like Pandora, surely Emilia would have unequivocally negative feelings towards them and not be in denial about having regretted meeting them? She even sheds a tear at her own words of musing they should’ve never met, which I don’t think fits how Emilia would react to Pandora.

Before I get into trying to guess who the heck Emilia is talking to, I’d like to discuss the scenery itself. For starters, everything looks like it got wasted which ain’t a great scene buuuut. That’s not the extremely concerning bit.

The scenery of destruction is described to be “bathed directly in the scarlet sunlight” - and scarlet sunlight was a backdrop to Volcanica’s entrance in Battle Ballad. Perhaps it’s a coincidence and it’s maybe representative of Priscilla in this instance or something, but I am doubtful. Maybe Volcanica destroys the location of wherever this is.

Anyways. Unto guessing who Emilia is speaking to and…

I think it might actually be Subaru.

Now, that sounds bizarre at first, I’m aware. Afterall, why would Emilia say she’d hated Subaru from the moment she 1st met him & that she couldn’t stand the sight of him?

However, Emilia has had a trend of saying things she doesn’t really mean to Subaru in an effort to push him away. Would such harsh language not fit such a trend for her? Especially if Emilia wants to push him away from her once she’s learned of RBD?

The plot had me so stressed out for Maomao and the medical team, I couldn't help but to read until the end. And of course I didn't want the emperor to die for Jinshi's sake. This man does not want to be emperor and honestly I can't blame him.

I also loved Maomao calling out/destroying Tianyu during the surgery scene. I can't stand him, and I can't stand Hulan!! I don't blame her for wanting to kick their shins.

And ofc I loved the few Jinmao moments we got in this LN. Them eating dinner together at the end warmed my heart! Both of them honestly need a damn vacation after the events in these past few LNs. But this is the Apothecary Diaries. Maomao and Jinshi can't get a break any time soon.

I'm so mad at myself though! I only have one LN left to read. I mean I'll be happy to be finally caught up on the LNs and maybe interact more with fans. But on the flip side, I will now be waiting for the next LN to come out whenever.