Mayim received the scritp for the next episode. As always she didn’t know anything about the plot, nor even the name of the episode. She opened the package excited and started reading the script.

It started, as usual, with a regular scene where they were all gathered in the living room having dinner. Maim kept reading, and laughing with the jokes written. During the episode, Sheldon and Amy had a date night and they were discussing Sheldon’s problem regarding a visit he had with the dentist. As she kept reading about the date, she knew that maybe a kiss was coming. She got excited and she couldn’t stop reading, looking forward for that scene where she would have to kiss Jim. Since Sheldon and Amy had never kissed on a passionate way, she was just expecting a little pick on the lips, but she was always glad to do that; Jim’s lips were so soft and sweet.

To her surprise, the kiss wasn’t as chaste as usual, it was different, something she wasn’t expecting at all.

INT. AMY’S LIVING ROOM- NIGHT

Sheldon and Amy kissing on the couch. Amy’s arms wrapped around Sheldon’s shoulders, Sheldon’s right arm wrapped around Amy’s waist. His left hand resting on her tight. He slowly slides his hand under her skirt. Sheldon moans against Amy’s lips.

Mayim felt her mouth getting dry. It was describe on a simple way in the script but it sounded like a hot kiss. It kinda looked like the kiss they had shared on the last episode of the previous season, but it ended up looking really simple. The position was the same one, but they didn’t get any more action that just the liplock the last time. She wondered if this time they were actually gonna get some action, and, she felt guilty for wishing they would.

The scene didn’t go beyond that. By the middle of the season, Sheldon and Amy were sort of getting “there”, so they were just exploring different physical activities. Nevertheless, neither Jim nor Mayim were used to kiss that way. She felt nervous, but excited yet. What if the kiss went out of hand and they ended up having a sexier scene that it was meant to in front of the whole audience? She knew she had to be a professional, but kissing Jim was her weakness; she didn’t feel her legs, she felt tickles on her stomach and her heart raced fast every time. Kaley and Johnny must have been the best actors in the world, because they had been actually romantically involved and even so, they had to kiss once in a while in front of the camera. What was she going to do? Should she ask Kaley for an advice or something?

She had start to bite her nail out of the anxiety she was feeling when her phone rang, and who else could that be but Jim?

 “Hello?”Mayim answered, hesitating.

“Hi, Mayim!! Did you get the script? Did you get it?” Jim asked excited.

“Yes, I’m actually reading it but I haven’t finished it yet” she lied. “Is it good?”

“Oh, it is good. We have a kiss scene again, page 32”. Jim answered.

“Really? Another one?” Mayim asked. They usually always call the other one when they had a kiss scene or something big, like when Sheldon asked Amy to be his girlfriend.

“Yes, and it is really hot” he added.

“Oh, let me read it” Mayim said and she kept quiet for a couple of minutes pretending to be reading the line.

“Oh. Seems like Sheldon and Amy are finally going to have coitus” she joked.

“I wish” Jim joked too. “But it is just a kissing scene. Hope you don’t mind” he teased her.

“You know I love kissing you, Jim” she said with a chuckle.

“Aw, I love kissing you, too. Anyway, we’ve got a table reading tomorrow. Are you going?” Jim asked.

 “Yes. I am. Are you?”

“Of course. I’ll see you there then” Jim said.

“See you” she said.

“Bye bye, then”

“Bye” and they both hung up.

Kaley and Kunal joked about the kissing scene the next day at the reading table. Jim joked as well and Mayim tried to do that too, but the truth was that she was feeling really anxious and nervous about it. Even more after the producers and writers told them this time they had to kiss more passionately, and that they needed to show Sheldon was a little turned on. At this point, there was no problem with Amy being turned on by Sheldon. Of course, it was a comedy, Mayim always found amusing those lines and all they said were jokes about it, but this time, they were getting serious.

The following day was going to be the first rehearsal and they had to learn almost all their lines. Mayim kept saying all her lines wrong and forgetting them during the day. Jim already knew almost the entire script by then, as usual. He was so intelligent and that was one of the things Mayim admired most of him. Mayim rarely made mistakes during rehearsals or tapings, as long as she didn’t laugh, so Jim thought that was certainly unusual on her.

“Are you alright?” Jim asked her while Melissa and Simon were practicing their scene at Mrs. Wolowitz’s place.

“Yeah, yeah” She lied again.

“Are you sure? Is something bothering you?” Jim asked.

“No. Eveything’s fine.” She answered, Jim stared at her. “Okay, I’m a little nervous” she confessed.

“About what?” He asked.

“Our kiss scene”.

“But, why? We’ve done this before” Jim said, disconcerted.

“I know, but we’ve never kissed, you know, this way before” she explained.

“Oh, I see” Jim said, confused. He didn’t know if he should feel offended or if flattered. “Hum, maybe, if you don’t feel comfortable, we can skip the scene today and do it tomorrow, or perhaps even on Tuesday” he suggested.

“Oh no. I don’t want to do it in front of the audience without rehearsing before” She said.

“Well, would you feel more comfortable doing it if we were alone?” Jim asked.

Mayim took a few seconds to think about it; she was definitely going to feel more comfortable if they kissed while they were alone instead of in front of the whole crew. And, if something else happened, well, at least no one would ever know about that.

“Okay. Fair enough” she accepted, amused all the sudden. Jim smiled at her and then, both went to talk to Bill (Prady) to let him know that Mayim didn’t feel comfortable enough and that they were going to the scene later. Fortunately, he agreed. They already knew Mayim was really professional and, once she got into her comfort zone, everything will be fine.

Jim suggested stay on the set a little longer that night, so they could rehears on Amy’s couch.

The day was over and everybody started to go, except form Jim and Mayim. They turned the lights off in the entire set, but the one placed in Amy’s living room.

“Okay, let’s get this over with” Jim said. He sat on Amy’s couch and so did Mayim. “The scene starts with us kissing. So, whenever you’re ready” he added.

“Okay. I’m ready” Mayim said. She never understood why the hell she had gotten all nervous about it. Jim just leaned slowly towards her face and he pressed his lips against hers. It was a soft kiss and it lasted no more than 7 seconds because Mayim pulled herself back.

“Sorry, I know it has to be more than” she apologized.

“Oh, yeah. Well actually, I have to put my right hand here” Jim said wrapping of his arms around Mayim’s waist. “And the other one, in here” he said and he places his left hand on Mayim’s lap. She looked at him. “Hum, maybe we should keep our hands out for now” he said.

“No. It’s okay, Jim, really. It’s just that I believe your hand goes in here” Mayim said as she took his hand again and placed it on her tight. “And my hands go here” she added and then she wrapped her arms around Jim’s shoulders.

“Very well. I’m gonna kiss you again, then” Jim said.

“Okay” Mayim said in a whisper and then Jim kissed her again as she had said. Mayim always felt as if thousands of butterflies were flying around her stomach; kissing Jim was something like, from another planet. It was something sweet, adorable, tender and so overwhelming for her. She could smell his delicious perfume filling her lungs and then, she felt his lips sucking on hers with more enthusiasm than usual. Jim slowly slid his hand under her skirt, just like it said on the script, but, Mayim never knew is he was doing  as part of the scene or because he wanted to.

“Ooooh” she moaned. Jim broke the kiss and their gazes met.

“I thought Sheldon was the one that moaned” he said, amused.

“We’re not Sheldon and Amy right now, are we?” Mayim asked, still trying to get her feet on the ground again.

“No, we’re not” Jim said with a wide smile on his lips and he kissed her again. They kissed longer this time; it might have been some seconds, but they both felt like if they had been kissing for ages.

Jim licked his lips when they broke the kiss.

“Are you feeling more comfortable with this?” he asked.

“Yes, I am. That was… hum, really helpful” she said, blushing. Jim did not skip this.

“You’re blushing!” he pointed out amused.

“Am I? I’m sorry, I’ll try not to when we’re taping the scene” Mayim said with a chuckle, but embarrassed at the same time.

“Maybe we should go now. Our job is done here” Jim said, with a flirty smile on his face.

“Yeah, maybe we should” Mayim agreed.

They gathered their things and they left the stage, not without sharing a friendly hug.

By the time they had to do the scene in front of an audience, Mayim felt so much comfortable and she did enjoy kissing Jim again, and so did he.

If Sheldon and Amy were going to have more scenes like that, it was better if they were just getting used to it. Fortunately, both already knew what the answer was if they were feeling nervous about it.

Sheldon went out of the shower to get ready for his day.  He wrapped a towel around his waist and stood in front of the mirror. It looked like he was going to have a great day: Amy was already making breakfast in the kitchen, and they were going to spend the day out. They had planned to go to a museum, have lunch, going to the movies and have dinner at some fancy restaurant. Now that their oldest daughter had going to study abroad and their son had going to camp, they finally had time to be together as a couple again.

He brushed his teeth and headed to his room to pick up his clothes and get dressed. He came back to the bathroom and stood in front of the mirror again. He had started to comb his hair when something caught his eye; was it? Could it be a? Really? That soon? But he was still way too…

“Amy!!!!!!!!!!” Sheldon shouted upset. He threw the comb away and ran to the kitchen.

“Amy! Amy! Amy!” Sheldon said.

“What? What? Are you okay? What happened?” Amy asked him worried.

“I just, I just saw something horrible as I was combing my hair” he explained.

“What was it? Was it a spider? You want me to kill it?” Amy asked.

“It wasn’t a spider! Look!” Sheldon said. He leaned his head down and pointed at it with his index finger.

“What am I suppose to be looking at?” Amy asked, confused.

“Look!” Sheldon repeated.

“Is it your head? Your skull? Your hair? Oh!” She said when she finally saw what Sheldon was referring to. “Your first white hair!” she said surprised.

“You see it now?” Sheldon asked.

“I do! Oh my God, Sheldon! I can’t believe you just got your first white hair!” She repeated with a giggle.

“Why are you laughing? This isn’t funny! I’m getting old! Don’t you see? That’s the first sign! Oh, this is just the first step to the graveyard” Sheldon said all freaked out.

“Sheldon, relax! It’s just a stupid hair, you’re not going to die” Amy said trying to call him down.

“We all are going to die” Sheldon corrected her.

“Well, yes, but not right now. Stop panicking” She said.

“Easy for you to say, you’re still young a beautiful” Sheldon said frustrated.

“I appreciate the compliment, but I’m as old as you and sooner or later I’m going to find my first white hair as well” she added as she served the French toast on a couple of plates.

“And this doesn’t bother you?” Sheldon asked her.

“Not really” she answered.

“How come? This is the first sign that elderly is coming. Aren’t you worried that soon you might start getting sick? You know Alzheimer and Parkinson disease are very common these days” he said.

“Yes, I know, but, Sheldon, those are common diseases between people who are 70 years old or even 80, if you will; we’re not even 50 yet.  Besides, we have a pretty healthy life and we still work hard every day, which decreases the possibility of getting one of those diseases because we still exercise our brains and our motor skills” Amy pointed out. Sheldon looked at her. She was right, she had always been right since the day they met. However, Sheldon couldn’t help to feel old. He had always thought of himself as a young man, capable to do so many things, including raising two exceptional smart kids, which seemed the hardest task on earth since day one. He didn’t feel as an adult man, or as an old man yet.

He sat down on his chair, weary, and took his French toasts. Amy stared at him.

“Oh, Sheldon. Don’t tell me this makes you feel bad. This doesn’t make you feel bad, does it?” Amy asked concerned.

“No, I mean, you’re right; we’re still young to get sick and everything. It’s just that this is hard, I mean, we’re getting old. And that’s scary”. Sheldon said with a sad look on his face.

“I know it’s scary, but this is part of life. And if you think about, it’s exciting” Amy said.

“How is this exciting?” he asked her.

“The older, the wiser. You have an idea how many amazing things you still have to learn? By the time you’re 70, you’re gonna me even smarter than you are now. And we still have a lot of things to live, Sheldon; when our children get married, our first grandchild. We’ll get to be the wise grandparents who give kids amazing life advices and knowledge” Amy said.

“Oh, I can be like Dumbledore, or Gandalf” Sheldon said excited.

“See? That would be awesome! And, It’s gonna be even better because we’re gonna be together” Amy said as she sat down in front of him.

“Oh, you’re right. We’re gonna do it together, aren’t we?” Sheldon said tenderly as Amy took his hands between hers.

“We’re actually doing it right now. We’re already growing old together” Amy said and she kissed him on his forehead.

“I know. And, you know what? I’m gonna keep this white hair. I’ll keep them all in fact. I’m gonna embrace my age and anything that comes along with the years” Sheldon said proudly. 

“Do you want me to take the tweezers and just pull it off for you?” Amy asked. She already knew Sheldon too well to actually believe he was willing to keep a white hair between his always perfectly combed baby hair.

“Yes, please” Sheldon said and Amy went to get the tweezers.

It had been a though summer for everybody; Penny and Leonard had gone to Las Vegas to get married but, on their way, Leonard confessed he had kissed another woman about two years before and, even when Penny didn’t make a big deal out of it, they both weren’t in the mood to get married at the end, so they came back to Pasadena. Howard and Bernadette were dealing with Stuart living with them at Mrs. Wolowitz’s place. It was really annoying to have him there, but neither of them had the courage to ask him to leave, because every time they tried to do it, something came up, like his birthday, the loss of his health insurance and more stuff. Raj was still trying to figure out if it was healthy for him to remain in a relationship with Emily. He really liked her, but he wasn’t sure she was the right person for him.

As for Sheldon and Amy, they seemed to be having the worst summer of all; it had been almost two months since they decided to take a break and neither of them was taking it really well. Sheldon wasn’t depressed but he looked sad most of the time, he was having trouble at work because he couldn’t concentrate and Amy was still dealing with her own thoughts. But something was sure between the two of them; they missed each other so much. Even when they didn’t date every night, they used to spend a lot of time together and enjoyed each other’s company.

Amy didn’t know what to do. She had had time to think about her relationship with Sheldon. She loved him so much, she was so in love with him and she knew he felt the same way about her. She had to acknowledge Sheldon had made a huge progress ever since he came back from his train trip; he was more open to do all kind of things like buying a turtle, taking her to prom dance, built a fort on his living room and even sleeping with her, literally, sleeping with her.  However, she knew they weren’t on the same page; they had never been on the same page. Maybe at first, when they were just friends and neither of them felt the need to be on a relationship. However, that changed eventually and Amy started to feel attracted to him. Since that moment, she had always been the one craving for intimacy, wanting to become something more, until Sheldon finally asked her to be his girlfriend, under his own conditions, of course. Amy was always the one trying to entice him into romantic activities or just nice gestures of physical bonding, like holding hands or hugging. It had never been easy for Amy to control her desire to hug him, to kiss him, or just caress his cheek, but she had gotten used to it.

After 5 years, even when Sheldon had to admit, to accept and finally enjoyed the physical contact with Amy, she was exhausted. She needed time to think and revaluate if she was happy with Sheldon or if she was better by herself, or maybe, eventually, with someone else. The problem was that Amy didn’t want to be happy with someone else, she wanted to be happy with Sheldon. She loved him for who he was, that was for sure, but sometimes she wanted him to be more affectionate, she needed to feel that Sheldon loved her as much as she loved him.

Penny and Bernadette knew how hard it was for Amy to struggle with this, and they all knew how hard it was being for Sheldon as well. Penny wanted to help them both, but she knew she couldn’t do anything this time, Sheldon had to figure out by himself what was wrong in his relationship with Amy and she had to make a decision without any help. However, it didn’t mean that their friends couldn’t do anything to make them talk. So, they all came up with a plan.

“Hey, buddy, where have you been?” Leonard asked one night when they were all having dinner at 4a apartment. Amy wasn’t there.

“I decided to walk back home from work” Sheldon said, as he took his windbreaker off.

“Why is that?” Penny asked.

“I needed a walk” Sheldon responded, sadly.

“Want some Tai food? I brought you some” Leonard said.

“No thanks. I think I’m gonna go to bed now” Sheldon said. He looked tired.

“But your bed time is not until about an hour” Howard pointed out.

“Yeah, well. I don’t feel like being up” Sheldon said shrugging. “Well, good night” he said as he made his way to his bedroom.

“Oh, poor thing” Bernadette said.

“I know. I’m kinda worried about him” Penny said.

“You guys think we should do something for them?” Raj asked.

“I don’t think so. Let’s just let them reorganize their own thoughts” Leonard answered.

“But they both look so miserable. Just this morning, Penny and I went to visit Amy at her lab to take her to lunch and she was trying to put on a Green Lantern t-shirt on one of the monkeys she was testing” Bernadette said.

“At least maybe we can make them talk. You know? A good communication with your partner is the key to a long relationship” Howard said.

“Oh, Howie, you’ve been reading the book I left on the bathroom, haven’t you?” Bernadette asked.

“Hey, I’ve got an idea. How about if we all make a trip to the beach, we leave them alone so they can talk?” Raj suggested.

“That’s actually not a bad idea” Leonard said.

“Except for the part of the beach where you get sunburned and eaten by the peacocks” Penny said, joking.

“Hey, I can wear sun block. And a shield for the peacocks” Leonard said.

“So, is that a yes? Are we all going to beach?” Raj asked.

“I guess I’m in” Penny agreed.

“Yeah, me too” said Leonard, Bernadette and Howard at the same time.

“Oh, this is so great! I’ll make snacks for everybody and we all can be barefoot and take long walks on the beach” Raj said excited, clapping his hands together.

“Or, maybe we can all drink beers and buy some hotdogs” Penny suggested.

“Oh, screw you guys, I’ll bring the snacks” Raj said.

-

Leonard had to convince Sheldon to go to the beach; he refused as much as he could but he had to accept when Leonard said that maybe he could practice his cetacean skills. Sheldon thought that made a good sense, since whales like to be in warm waters and California had a hot weather. Leonard had to tell him that Amy was going too, and, even when Sheldon pretended he didn’t care, he thought that could be an opportunity to talk to her and ask her some questions he had.

Unfortunately, Amy didn’t think the same thing. She was really excited to go the beach, but she knew Sheldon was going to be there and that he was going to ask her a lot of things, complained and practically, ruin the whole trip. And she wasn’t ready to talk about that issue yet. She knew she was weak and that she could fall for him again. That’s why she decided to make some ground rules up front.

“Hello” Sheldon answered his phone the night before the trip, surprised that Amy would call him after almost two months.

“Hey, Sheldon. How are you?” She dared to ask.

“I’m fine. Thanks for asking. How are you?” he asked. His hands started to sweat all of the sudden. He felt something weird in is stomach at the moment he heard her voice on the phone.

“I’m okay. Thanks. Hum, are you going tomorrow?” she asked, nervous.

“I am. I didn’t want to, but Leonard said I could practice my cetacean” he explained. Amy giggled.

“Oh, right, your cetacean skills. Very impressive” she said sarcastically. Sheldon had never been good at it, but Amy remembered when she had to put up with his practice lessons in front of his computer, trying to imitate whale’s sounds.

“So, are you going?” Sheldon asked.

“Oh, yes. I’m going, too. Which brings me to the point. Sheldon, look,  I just wanna say that even when I was the one who asked for this break we’re taking, I’m not ready to talk about it, so, I wanna ask you to keep your comments and questions to yourself while we’re there with our friends, you know? I just wanna have a good time, enjoy and let our friends enjoy as well” Amy finally said.

“Oh” Sheldon said, disappointed. It was almost as if she knew his plan and she had totally ruined it.

“Does it seem like something you could do?” Amy asked.

“Yes, yes. Of course. I’m a grown man, Amy, and I know how to behave myself. Besides, I have nothing to tell our regarding our current relationship status” Sheldon said, pretending to be all cool.

“Oh, okay. Thanks” Amy said.

“Yeah, well, and also, I must ask you the same thing, Amy. I don’t want you crying, alright? It won’t matter how much you beg me, we won’t get back together” he said, trying to sound strong.

“Don’t worry, I won’t” Amy said bitterly. “Well, then I guess I’ll see you tomorrow”.

“Yes, indeed. Good night Dr. Fowler” Sheldon said upset.

“Good night, Sheldon” Amy said and they both hung up. Why it had been so hard to keep things cool between them? Amy had actually laughed with him, of course as she remembered the good memories she had with Sheldon. But, he had gotten mad. If Amy was being that cruel to him, then he was going to be as cruel the next day.

-

The next morning, Sheldon got up really early, he packed all the things he needed for the beach, including is Emergency kit.

Penny and Leonard had agreed to go and pick up Amy, so they could save some gas, as for the others; they were going on Howard’s car.

“Hey, Sheldon” Amy greeted as he saw him waiting on the front sit.

“Hello” Sheldon said politely, as he looked away through the window on the front seat. Leonard and Penny shared a look. It was going to be a long way.

Once they were at the beach, they all sat on the sand and Raj took the basket with the snacks he had prepared for the day.

Penny spent a whole hour trying to help Leonard to put his sun block on. As for Sheldon, he had to do it himself for almost two hours. Amy just decided to build random sand figures with Raj and Howard. Bernadette lay down to read a book she had brought. They were all having a good time, excepting Sheldon, who was still upset that Amy refused to talk to him about the things he was concerned about. He had brought a book as well, and he tried to concentrate on his reading, but he couldn’t stop thinking about Amy and he just kept staring at her every time he could. Amy had sensed Sheldon had been keeping an eye on her the whole morning and that made her feel uncomfortable but flattered at the same time.

“Sheldon can we talk?” Amy dared to say to him before lunch, hoping no one could hear.

“About what?” Sheldon asked.

“About what we talked last night” she said.

“I have nothing to say to you” Sheldon snapped at her.

“But I do have something to say” Amy said, and upset, she took him by his arm and dragged him down to a big tree shadow.

“Please, stop staring at me if you’re going to pretend you’re ignoring me” Amy said.

“I am not pretending. I am ignoring you, in fact”. Sheldon said.

“Well, then at least do it well; you keep looking at me and that makes me feel uncomfortable. I asked you last night to behave yourself to avoid any kind of awkward situation. Please, can we just forget a moment about our agreement and just enjoy?” She asked him. Sheldon stared at her. Maybe she was right and he should just let things go as Penny had taught him once and enjoy, because, certainly he was having a really bad time.

“C’mon. I’ll help you practice your cetacean, and I’ll buy you a hot dog. What do you say?” Amy suggested.

“Fine. If that’s what you want, I’m willing to, forgive me again for doing this “have a good time”” he said, making the floating quote marks.

After that little argument they had, Sheldon let himself join the rest and have fun with his friends, including Amy. She had actually let him to teach her some tips to “speak cetacean” and she practiced with him as she promised. She also bought him a Captain America towel a hot dog, despite Raj’s complains, they played, they talked about random things and they laughed, just like the old times.

At the end of the evening, about the sunset, they gathered their things and went for a walk along the sea.

Penny and Leonard were holding hands, and eventually Howard took Bernadette’s hand as well. Raj didn’t mind, even when he was going by himself, he was glad to be alone for a while, maybe if Emily had come, she would have tried to catch a jellyfish and play with it or something. Amy was distracted, just feeling the warm breeze on her face, trying to relax. Sheldon had suddenly the urge to take her hand, but he knew she wouldn’t let him and he wouldn’t surrender to those urges. But in that moment, Amy took his hand between hers. She tangled her fingers into his and, even when she caught him by surprised, he squeezed her hand. Amy looked at him and smile. Sheldon didn’t smile back, he just stared at her and their hands together as they kept walking, remembering that one time when Amy had taken his hand after they had gone after Zach at a bar.

“What are you doing?” Sheldon had asked.

“An experiment…” Amy answered. They looked at each other.

“No. Never mind” Amy said as she let Sheldon’s hand go.

This time, it was different; Amy could’ve been doing an experiment as well, but the outcome was going to be different.

Sheldon pulled her to him by her arm. No one noticed a thing, fortunately; they just kept walking.

Amy’s gaze met his, and he leaned down to press his lips against hers. Amy’s knees got weak for a second, but she tried to stand up by wrapping her arms around his shoulders. Sheldon cupped her face between his hands, gently caressing her cheeks with his thumbs.

“Oh, Sheldon, we shouldn’t have, we shouldn´t’’ Amy said when they broke the kiss, resting their foreheads against each other’s.

“Please, Amy, let’s get back together, please” Sheldon begged, finally surrendering under the same rule he had imposed to her.

“Sheldon…” Amy whispered.

“Please, I miss you so much” he said.

“I know you do, and I miss you too, but…”

“But what? Please, tell me what I need to do to get you back” he asked.

“You don’t need to get me back, I’m still yours, we never broke up” Amy explained.

“Then, why is this that we’re doing? This break-thing?” Sheldon asked.

“I just needed to take a break, get some rest…” Amy murmured.

“Some rest? Were you tired of me?” Sheldon asked, afraid to know the answer.

“It’s not like that”.

“I’ll be a better boyfriend, I promise. I’ll hold your hand anytime you want and I’ll kiss you even when is not date night if that’s what it takes” Sheldon said.

“See? That’s the problem; I know you won’t do those things because you want to, you’d be doing them just to get me back. I need to know you want the same things I want. Also, sometimes I think you don’t appreciate me as much as I do, or as much as you say you do…”

“Amy, I love you, and I assure you I want the same things that you want” Sheldon said.

“How can I be sure?” Amy asked him.

“Because I want to marry you” Sheldon confessed.

“What? You want to marry me?” Amy asked, astonished.

“I do, I do want to marry you, I want to spend the rest of my long life with you, and believe me, it’s going to be long based on my diet and my hygiene habits” Sheldon said.

“Oh, Sheldon” Amy whispered.

“I would give you the ring if I had it with myself, but I left it on my drawer” he said.

“You have a ring? When did you, why would you…?” Amy asked, still in shock.

“I bought it a few months ago. I was going to propose, but you said you wanted to take a break so I had to keep it safe until we were together again. But it doesn’t matter anymore, I’ll give you the ring later. I just want to know if you want to marry me” Sheldon said, nervous. If Amy was still trying to figure out if she was going to be his girlfriend again, there were more possibilities that she could rejected his marriage proposal. Amy was speechless; trying to process all the information she was receiving.

“Amy, please, marry me” Sheldon said, taking her hands and placed them on his heart.

“I will” Amy finally said.

“You will?” Sheldon asked in disbelief.

“I will marry you” Amy said happily.

“Oh, Amy, I love you so much” Sheldon shouted as he hugged her tightly. That made all their friends turn back just on time to witness the scene.

“OHMYGOD!!!!! I THINK SHELDON JUST PROPOSED!!!” Penny shouted excited.

“Whaaaaat?” Raj, Howard and Bernadette asked, surprised.

“Yes, he just proposed! He wanted to do it for a long time now. He got the ring and everything” Leonard said.

“You knew and you didn’t tell us! I CAN’T BELIEVE YOU GUYS!” Raj said upset.

In that moment, Amy screamed from where they she and Sheldon were standing.

“WE’RE ENGAGED!, WE’RE GETTING MARRIED!” She said and she gave little hops holding Sheldon’s hand. They both had a big smile on their face.

All their friends gathered there with them, to celebrate that their Shamy was together again and that they will be together for a long time now.

That Thursday night, Sheldon woke up feeling nervous and anxious. It was date night, but he wasn't sure if he was going to see Amy that night. They haven't talked since their horrible skype talk they had had a couple of weeks ago when Amy told him she needed some time.  

Sheldon was still confused and he needed answers, but he was capable to give Amy some time to think, whatever she had to think.

Penny had told him that she had some issues that she needed to care of, but that was the only thing Amy had told them. No one really knew what was going on inside Amy's head. 

Of course Penny and Bernadette understood; they were aware of the make out session her friend and Sheldon had had and what happened next, so, it was pretty clear that Amy was trying to figure out what to do next with her relationship with him.

Amy loved Sheldon really much, and she knew he loved her, but there were times, like that one when he asked if he should watch the Flash while kissing her, that made her believe that Sheldon wasn't attracted to her on a sexual way. Amy knew sex wasn't everything on the relationship, it was more than that, but it wouldn't hurt if once in a while, Sheldon made her feel good about herself, not only as a neurobiologist, (he was actually really proud on her and he accomplishments on her field) but as girl as well. Sometimes she needed to hear she looked pretty, that she was attractive and good looking. She had never really cared about her looks because she had never cared about what other people would think about her, in fact, she already believed that she was pretty hot, and of course she was, she was the exactly combination of Madonna and a whore and there were some guys that went behind her, like Bert, from Caltech and Stuart. And now, she had a boyfriend and friends who loved her for who she really was, so she didn't care anymore her looks.

However, now that her relationship with Sheldon was getting more intimate, she kept herself wondering if they were ever going to be more intimate because it was something they both wanted or if it was something Sheldon would do to just to make her happy, or even worse, just to keep her silent for a while.

She didn't want to break up with him, she would never do that, but, if she was willing to remain on a relationship where her boyfriend didn't find her attractive, she needed to think and consider if the best thing for her was to keep going. 

As girls, Penny and Bernadette totally got it and neither of them asked her any questions, but they were a little concerned about her and about Sheldon as well. He wasn't a mess and thankfully, this time he didn't get any cats, but he seemed worried and sad all the time, he wasn't the arrogant pain in the ass he usually was, and even when that was annoying, they missed him. 

Sheldon got up from bed and opened the drawer next to him to take his ring. He thought he was ready to marry Amy and it was really crushing that he never got to tell her. Leonard had made him feel a little bit better when he pointed out that it was better that way than actually proposing and getting rejected. Leonard was hardly right, but in this case, Sheldon had to admit his friend had a very good point. 

He placed the ring back on his drawer and got ready for work.  

"Wanna play a game?" Leonard asked him on their way to work. Even when he had his own problems with Penny and he ended up not marrying her in Las Vegas, he always felt like Sheldon was a little kid who still needed protection, so, he was always trying to cheer him up. 

"Not really. I'm not in the mood, Leonard".

"Okay. Hum, did you start watching Daredevil? It's on Netflix and Ben Affleck is not Matt Murdock this time" Leonard said.

"Yes. I know" Sheldon asked.

"And...?" Leonard asked.

"I love it. Now, let's move on" Sheldon said staring at the window.

"Do you want to talk about something else?" Leonard asked. He was running out of topics.

"About what?" Sheldon asked.

"I don't know, you pick. Don't you have an interesting fact about something I don't know?" Leonard asked.

"No" Sheldon answered.

"Really? Come on, Sheldon. I know that this break you and Amy are taking is hard, but it isn't like she had broken up with you" Leonard said.

"How you do know? For all I know, this "break" could last forever! It’s been almost three weeks since he last time we spoke" Sheldon said exasperated looking at him.

"Why don't you just go talk to her?" Leonard suggested.

"Because she said she needed time and I'm giving her all the time she needs" Sheldon explained.

"Really? Well, that's really mature of you. However, I think at least you should go and talk to her. You deserve to know what's happening. Don't you think?" Leonard said. Even when he knew how much Amy had to put up with a boyfriend like Sheldon, he thought she was being a little harsh for breaking up with his with such short notice and with no explanation. Sheldon was going to reply, but he let Leonard's opinion sink in for a second.

"Maybe you're right. I've got a lot of questions, they do need an answer and Amy knows I need closure." Sheldon said, deciding that it was time to talk.

Sheldon couldn't concentrate all day thinking about Amy. He wanted to go and talk to her, but he was afraid of the outcome. An hour before lunch, he thought about what Spiderman would do. He figured maybe Peter Parker wasn't a good inspiration figure because he was always awkward around girls; he would've never asked Gwen Stacey or Mary Jane. Well, at least Tobey Maguire's Peter wouldn't. Then he thought about Iron Man. Of course he would go over to Pepper and ask her what was going on. So, thinking about Tony Stark, he got the courage he needed and went to Amy's lab. He started to get nervous as he walked over the Caltech corridors. Was she going to get upset? Was she going to break up officially with him or to answer his questions? Were they ever going to get back together? How long did she need to think? What did she need to think about anyway?

Knock, knock, knock. Dr. Fowler

Knock, knock, knock. Dr. Fowler

Knock, knock, knock. Dr. Fowler

Amy got caught up in surprise; she wasn't expecting Sheldon, like, at all.

"It's open. Come in" She dared to say taking a deep breath.

"Hello" Sheldon greeted awkwardly.

"Hi" Amy said looking at him. "Um, what are you doing here?" She asked.

"Well, tonight is date night and I was wondering if you wanted to go out with me" Sheldon answered, nervous.

"Oh" Amy said looking at her computer. Suddenly, the paper she was reading got even more interesting.

"So?" Sheldon murmured.

"Oh, I don't think we should date tonight" Amy finally said. 

"Why? Why? Why not?" Sheldon stuttered.

"I just don't think it's the right moment" Amy said.

"But, why? I don't understand. We're not going to have dates anymore? You're not longer my girlfriend?" Sheldon said.

"No. Look, I didn't break up with you, Sheldon"

"Well, then why are you doing this? Explain yourself. You just said you needed some time and then you said goodbye, just like that. I need answers" Sheldon said exasperated.

"Okay, yes. I think you're right. And I'm sorry I didn't explain anything. I guess I was a little overwhelmed when we talked" Amy said. Sheldon waited for her.

"Right now, I'm going through some issues I need to take care of. Don't worry, it's not about you, well, yes, it is about you, but it's more about me. This is something personal, you know? We've been together for so long and I feel like I need to focus on me right now. The best thing we can do is to be apart for a while" Amy explained.

"Oh" Sheldon said. It wasn't the kind on answer he was expecting but he didn't dare to ask more. And Amy didn't felt like explain it all at the moment.

"Don't worry, Sheldon. I told you, I'm not breaking up with you; we're just taking a break. And you know what? I can go to your apartment tonight and have dinner with you, Leonard and Penny, if you want to" Amy suggested. She figured it was a good idea.

"Okay. Sounds good" Sheldon agreed. 

"Fine. Then I guess I'll see you tonight" Amy said.

"Good, good. I'll see you, then" Sheldon said a little happier now and he waved at Amy before leaving.

Amy went to visit and have dinner as she promised, but since Leonard and Penny were mad at each other too, it ended up being awkward and uncomfortable.

Later that night, lying on her bed, she thought about Sheldon and how much she missed him despite everything that was going on. She loved Sheldon more than anything, she wanted to be with him, marry him if he wanted to, but she had to get used to the fact that her boyfriend didn't find her attractive or beautiful and that hurt her. She remembered when Sheldon told her that he loved her: he had also said that he thought she was pretty, she was totally smitten by him, but that wasn't enough. Amy knew Sheldon wasn't the kind of man that gets turned on by a girl really easily, in fact, she believed he had never gotten turned on by anyone, but she had to understand that and accept it if she was willing to remain in the same relationship. She needed more time, but she also missed him really much.

She decided to go out with him, just the two of them, but as friends. That would take the pressure off of both of them and it could be something good.

She waited at least a couple of weeks before asking him. Sheldon agreed but he just tried to look as if it was something he didn't want to. 

They agreed that Sheldon would go to her apartment and they'd watch a movie. Since that wasn't a date, there was no the need of kissing, cuddling, or holding hands, they were just gonna hang out as friends. Amy didn't even care to cook something; they just ordered a pizza and some sodas. 

Everything was going well and Sheldon and Amy were actually having a good time; they talked, they told each other jokes, they played games and they laughed a lot. Just like they used to. 

Once the movie was over, Sheldon decided it was time for him to go home.

"I can take you home, if you want to" Amy offered. 

"That won't be necessary, I can take the bus. But thank you" Sheldon said as he put his windbreaker on.

"Ok, then" Amy said looking at him. After the evening they had had, now she found kind of hard to see him leave. To tell the truth, sometimes she wished they weren’t taking a break.

"Well, since we both agreed this wasn't going to be a date, then we don't have to kiss" Sheldon pointed out.

"Right, right" Amy said as she nodded with her head. Sheldon stared at her.

"Hum, well, I gotta go now" he said. Amy looked at him.

"Okay" She whispered.

"Good night" Sheldon said walking to the door. He felt disappointed, he wanted to kiss Amy and he knew Amy wanted to kiss him as well, but probably, that wasn’t going to happen, until…

"Hum, you know..." Amy started to say before he could open the door. Sheldon turned to face her. "We didn’t actually break up. Neither of us signed anything on the Relationship Agreement, hence, technically we're still on a break, so I guess one little kiss wouldn't be that bad" she said. A smile appeared on Sheldon's mouth.

"Oh good" he said and he walked towards Amy is a rush. He took her face between his hands and he just kissed her.  Amy hugged him as she felt Sheldon smiling against her lips. She was smiling too. They kissed for a long time, they both wanted to do it, so they were really enjoying it. Sheldon stared kissing her with more intensity than usual, Amy noticed this but she didn't stop kissing him. He had never kissed her like that; maybe the time they had spent apart helped him.

Sheldon had missed her kisses so much, even when they didn’t kiss really often, he kept thinking and remembering the taste of her lips, and it felt like heaven itself kissing them again.

Was that was Amy really wanted? A passionate kiss that could show her that he was really interested in her? She couldn't tell for sure, her mind was someplace else, but she wasn't complaining either.

As they deepened the kiss, they lay down on Amy's couch. Sheldon then began to roam his hands up and down her body and to build a trail of kisses from her lips to her neck.

“Hooo" Amy whispered. 

"I know" Sheldon said against her skin as he remembered what that sound meant.

They had to stop to get some air and they looked at each other.

"I think I wanna make love to you" he said.

"Oh" Amy murmured. She didn't know what to say; she couldn't feel her legs for a brief moment. Before she could think of anything else to say, Sheldon went back in the business and kissed her. Amy let him do it and she kissed him back, deciding that she was just gonna let happen what was about to happen.

It didn’t felt like Sheldon was joking, or that he was doing it because he wanted to get her back, he was really into it this time. His mind had stop working and that was allowing him to enjoy even more. It felt like everything was quiet all of the sudden around them. Nothing matter at that moment, not PS4 controllers or The Flash walking around Sheldon’s mind this time, only Amy and nothing more.

"Let's go to my bedroom" she said and she took his hand, leading him and walking through the Tardis she had in the doorframe. 

As soon as they get there, they just started to take each other’s clothes. It took them a while; Sheldon wore so many layers but not as much as Amy.

Once they were both naked, Sheldon pulled off a condom out of his wallet and Amy looked at him.

“What the…? How come you have one? Did you know this was going to happen?” She asked.

“Oh not at all; I’ve been carrying it ever since the prom. Penny said that coitus was part of the prom protocol and I bought some just in case. But, well you remember what happened next” Sheldon answered.

“Of course I remember. You said that you loved me” Amy said on a whisper.

“I did. And I still do; I love you, Amy” Sheldon said as he took her glasses off her face to placed them on her nightstand.

“I love you, too, Sheldon” Amy said. Sheldon looked at her eyes, being able to appreciate how beautiful they were without the crystal of her glasses usually blocking them. He smiled and he leaned to kiss her one more time…

-

“Amy…” Sheldon said once they were done. Amy’s head was resting on his bare chest and he had an arm wrapped around her.

“Yes?”

“Um, does this mean that we are, um, getting back together?” he asked.

“No. We’re still on a break” Amy said.

“What?” Sheldon said exasperated as he looked at her with wide open eyes.

 “I’m kidding” Amy said laughing and kissing him on the nose. “I’m kidding” she repeated.

“Oh, sweet Lord. That was really mean, little lady” he said.

“I know. I’m sorry”. Amy said placing her head back on his chest.

“But, we’re okay now, aren’t we?” Sheldon asked again.

“Of course” Amy said.

“So, all you wanted was sex?” Sheldon asked.

“No” Amy said. “Not really. I mean, a big part of me wanted this. You know I’ve always wanted this, but that wasn’t it”. Amy tried to explain.

“I know I’m really smart, but you will have to explain yourself a little bit more” Sheldon asked her. Amy rolled over so she could face him.

“Okay. You know how we’ve been together for so many years, right?” Sheldon nodded. “Well, even when I knew and I agreed to be with you and to put up with your non-romantic habits and stuff, sometimes I get tired of waiting for you to make a move, or to be romantic with me. For instance; I’m always hoping for you to take my hand without me asking you or at least without complaining about it. When I got mad on our anniversary it was because you were thinking about something else when we were making out. I felt as if I still came last on your priority list and I think that, as your girlfriend, I need to be a little higher on the list, don’t you think? I need to feel that you appreciate me as much as I do…”

“But I do appreciate you. I love you” Sheldon said, interrupting her.

“I know, I know. It’s just that sometimes it doesn’t seem like it” Amy said.

“Okay. I’m sorry if I hurt your feelings, but sometimes I think about a lot of things, I can’t help it. It’s just the way my mind works. But that doesn’t mean I don’t appreciate you or that I don’t care about you. I do” Sheldon said.

“I understand but it’s exhausting” Amy said.

“Forgive me for still being such a bad boyfriend. I thought we were doing great, with the fort and then our video to go to Mars, and the turtle we were getting…”

“We were, and I appreciate all those sacrifices you made, but I guess I got scared. You were being so open to do all those things that I got scared, waiting for you to change your mind about the things we were doing and everything. I know sometimes I push you really hard and I’m sorry for that too”.

“Okay, first of all, those weren’t sacrifices” Sheldon said.

“They weren’t?” Amy asked.

“They were at first, but then, you kinda get used to it, and then you like it and even you enjoy it. Kissing you, hugging you and holding hands with you are not sacrifices anymore; I like to do it. Second of all, you don’t have to apologize for pushing me. I’m actually glad that you push me, because I know that’s what I need to get things done. Look at us, if you hadn’t pushed me, we would’ve never reached this point. I just made love to a girl, me, Dr. Sheldon Lee Cooper”. Amy giggled a bit after the last comment.

“Aw, Sheldon. Thank you for telling me this” Amy said. “And, um, sorry if I hurt you. I just needed some time” she added.

“Indeed, you hurt my feelings. But I guess I hurt yours, too” Sheldon sad.

“You guess?” Amy asked raising her eyebrow.

“Well, it might be…” Sheldon continued but after the look Amy gave him, he added: “Ok, I did hurt you. I’m sorry” he added biting his low lip.

“Here’s your tea” Sheldon said as he placed the blue mug with chamomile tea on the desk where Amy was working on.

“Thank you” she said typing really fast on the laptop. Sheldon stared at her.

“So, I assume you’ll be going to bed a little late tonight” he said.

“Yes. I’, sorry, Sheldon but I have to get this paper done by the end of the week and I’m running out time” Amy said without looking at him.

“You do want me to wait for you?” he asked.

“Oh, no, I don’t think that’ll be necessary. Thank you. Go to bed and get some sleep” Amy said and she finally looked at him, then she gave him a smile.

“Okay. Well, goodnight” he said and Amy nodded. Sheldon leaned to kiss her on the lips and went to his bedroom.

He placed his own tea on the bedside table and took his “Lord of the rings” book from his bookcase to read it. He sneaked into the bed and pulled the blankets, ready to enjoy the adventures of Frodo and Sam in the Shire.

After some minutes, Amy went to the room to get her nightgown from her drawer and headed to the bathroom to put it on.

“Are you done with your work?” Sheldon asked her.

“No yet. But I figured I’d be more comfortable wearing this than my regular clothes” she said referring to her nightgown.

“Do you need some help?” Sheldon offered.

“Not really, but thanks for the offer” she said before going back to work.  Sheldon then proceed with his reading for half an hour.

Amy was yawning a couple of hours later, she was getting tired and her work didn’t seem to end anytime soon.  She looked at the clock and it was almost 2 o’clock in the morning. She decided to go to bed and wake up really early to keep working.  She went back to the bedroom and found Sheldon sleeping sitting on the bed, his book was open in his hands and his head was resting on his shoulder, on an uncomfortable position.

“Aw” Amy said with tenderness as she walked towards him and sat at the edge of the bed besides him. She took the book from his hands and put it on the bedside table. She stared at Sheldon for a few seconds; she thought that Sheldon sleeping had to be the cutest thing on Earth. His eyes were closed and he was deeply breathing and Amy thought his lips looked really kissable at that time. She wondered if it was wrong if she kissed him. It wouldn’t be that wrong since he was sleeping. She dared then to give him a pick on his lips. She looked at him, expecting him to move or open his eyes, but he didn’t notice a thing. So, she kissed him again, hoping he wouldn’t wake in that moment because he could get upset. Amy kept kissing him cautiously when she felt his lips kissing her back. She pulled her face away a few inches but she couldn’t move the rest her body in the position she was, she opened her eyes and she saw Sheldon had opened his eyes too. She wanted to apologize and excuse for what she had done but Sheldon had something on his gaze that didn’t allow her. He didn’t look upset or angry at all, he looked at her tenderly and the he leaned towards her. Amy thought he was going to kiss her again, but instead he just stayed there, so close to make the tip of their noses touch and barely brushing his lips against hers. Amy could smell the mint of his toothpaste on his breath and his usual baby powder smell. Sheldon then kissed her and Amy kissed him back too. Sheldon slowly placed his hand on Amy’s head, burying his fingers into her hair, he didn’t touch her that often, but Amy felt really glad everytime he did. Amy took him by his shoulders as they deepened the kiss. Afterwards, Sheldon rolled over, forcing Amy to lie on the bed. Amy wasn’t sure about what she was doing, she just let herself go and it seemed that Sheldon was letting himself go too, since he didn’t show any kind of opposition when Amy’s fingers started to unbuttoned his pajamas. Once that was removed, Amy started caressing Sheldon’s bare chest and back. She had dreamed so much about the day when she could actually touch Sheldon as much as she wanted, and even though he had changed a lot in the past months. She pulled away to take some air and she looked at him.

“Are you sure about this?” she asked, concerned. Sheldon stared at her.

“I’m sure” he whispered before going down to kiss her again. Then, his hands went underneath her nightgown, roaming her legs all over and going up straight to her stomach and her bare breasts. Amy pulled away again to get rid of the nightgown. Sheldon looked at her as she did so and smiled; even when he wasn’t prepared, he knew he wanted to go all the way with her. She cupped his face between her hands.

“I love you, Sheldon” she said on a whisper.

“I love you, too, Amy” he said with a cute smile on his face before kissing her again.

Amy was just about to park on her spot in the parking lot of her building when she ran out of gas. She would have to go to the Gas Station the next day.  She took the elevator then and she came into her apartment. It was date night and she was supposed to drive Sheldon out to eat dinner but their plans had to be changed a little. She texted him and asked him to come to her place instead.  About an hour later, Sheldon knocked on Amy’s door. Three times, as usual.

“Hello” he greeted.

“Hi. I’m making pasta. I’m almost done” Amy said as she returned to the kitchen.

Once the pasta was done, they sat at the table and they started to talk about how their day had been. They really enjoyed spending time in each other’s company, just chatting and eating.  They were trying to decide what movie they should watch after dinner when it started to rain. Sheldon didn’t like storms at all, but he tried to calm himself down, he felt safe with Amy. They kept eating and then the light went off.

“Oh great, this is why I hate storms. Stupid blackouts” Sheldon said pissed.

“Let me get some candles” Amy said as she stood up to find some candles. Sheldon got up and helped her to place them all over the place.

“Well, I guess our date is ruined” Sheldon said grumpily.

“Don’t worry. I’m sure we can find something to do” Amy said.

“Like what? There’s no electricity, hence, no internet, and it’s dark outside”. Sheldon complained.

“What if we play a game?” Amy suggested.

“Like what?” Sheldon asked.

“Hum, Jenga?” Amy said.

“We can’t play jenga just with the light of the candles, I need to see the bricks clearly so I can move them in the right angle” he said.

“How about Pictionary?” Amy said.

“Really? One vs. one? That’s just silly” Sheldon said.

“Alright, poker?” Amy said upset.

“I don’t like gambling games” Sheldon said.

“We are not going to bet money, Sheldon” Amy said.

“Then what’s the point of the game?” Sheldon said. It was really hard to find something to do and Sheldon wasn’t making the blackout any easier.

“We can just talk” Amy said.

“We’re already talking” Sheldon pointed out.

“I know, but maybe we can share stuff, you know? Like you and Penny did it the other day” Amy said remembering the experiment Sheldon and Penny had done.

“ For what?  See if we can in love? I´m already in love with you” Sheldon said.

“No. I mean, we can talk about other things, not necessarily answer the questions of that experiment. For instance, maybe you can tell me some secret you have” Amy said. She regretted it because she understood maybe she was being too cocky. Sheldon stared at her.

“I did that once with Penny too and when I told her a secret, she blew me off” Sheldon said.

“What do you mean? What did you tell her?” Amy asked as they went to the couch to sit.

“I told her that I didn’t like youtube’s new rating system, they changed it from stars to thumbs up and I hated it” Sheldon explained.

“Oh, I understand. I was okay with the youtube thing, but I get really upset when they change something on facebook, or tumblr” Amy said.

“See? It’s awful. Why would they do that?” Sheldon said. Amy shook her head in sign of ignorance. “Oh, that was fun. I liked it. Now it’s your turn, Amy. Tell me something”

“Okay, let me see… Oh, I used to have a crush on Prince Eric, from The little mermaid” Amy said.

“You know that’s a cartoon character, don’t you?” Sheldon said.

“I know, that’s why this is embarrassing” Amy said. “Now, your turn”

“Once…” he started to say “I tried to learn how to swim in the internet and I did all the moves on the living room floor, but Leonard pointed out how ridiculous that was and I stopped” Sheldon said.

“Really?”  She asked with a giggle.

“Yes, and Howard and Raj made fun of me too. And now you’re doing it too”. Sheldon said.

“I’m sorry” Amy said, trying to calm down but the picture of Sheldon lying on the floor trying to swim seemed hilarious.

“Amy, stop laughing at me” Sheldon said. Amy couldn’t help it and she kept laughing. Sheldon felt embarrassed but he thought Amy looked so cute and then he started to laugh too. They laughed for a few minutes until their abdomens hurt.

“I haven’t laughed like that in a long time” Amy said with tears on her eyes.

“Me neither” Sheldon said with a chuckle. They spent an hour sharing and laughing out of embarrassing moments from their childhood, adolescence and even from some weeks ago.

“Okay. Now, tell me a secret I don’t know” Sheldon dared to ask Amy.

“Something you don’t know?” Amy asked. Sheldon nodded. “Okay. But, please, don’t get mad at me. I stole one of your shirts and I put it on a pillow with a lot of baby powder, so I can feel like you’re with me when I go to sleep” Amy said. She could feel her cheeks getting blushed; thank God there was no light but just a few candles on the room.

“Which one did you steal?” Sheldon asked in surprise.

“The 73 blue shirt” Amy said.

“Oh, that explains a lot. I had to order a new one on Amazon when I thought someone had stolen it from the laundry room” Sheldon said.

“Are you mad at me?” Amy asked. Sheldon looked at her.

“I’m not mad, but I’m disappointed” he said.

“Why?”

“Why didn’t you just ask me for a t shirt? I could have given you one” Sheldon said.

“Really? Even if I told you why I wanted it?” Amy asked.

“Well, I have to say, it’s a little weird but I feel flattered” Sheldon said with a smile.

“Okay. I’m sorry I stole your shirt” Amy apologized.

“That’s okay” Sheldon said. “Now, I guess is my turn to tell you something you don’t know” he said as he got close to Amy on the couch. It took a while to think of something; Amy knew almost everything about him.

“The other day, I was at work, and I spent one hour and forty five minutes thinking about you. I realized until it was time for lunch” he said, looking at Amy into her eyes.

“Oh, are you serious?” Amy asked, moved.

“Yes. I could show you my notebook if you want to, I wrote Sheldon and Amy all over 45 pages. I know; this is silly and juvenile” Sheldon said.

“Aw, Sheldon, I don’t think it’s silly. It’s a little juvenile, but not silly” Amy said tenderly.

“It isn’t?”

“No, that only shows that you’re really in love with me” Amy said.

“You’re right.  It shows how much I love you” Sheldon said. He didn’t realize he was leaning towards Amy until he felt her lips on his. They kissed softly at first, as they usually did, but there was something else that night, maybe it was the rain, maybe it was the light of the candles, maybe the fact they had been sharing personal stuff, whatever it might be, it led them to a make out session, with Amy laying down on the couch and Sheldon caressing her face with his fingers.

Sheldon loved kissing Amy, but it was certainly a dangerous weapon; whenever they kissed, Sheldon felt as if his mental faculties were getting turned off one by one, and that scared him. That’s why he always kissed Amy only for a few seconds without deepening the kiss. That time, he had lost control of his faculties. He started to slide his hands down Amy’s body, from her shoulders to her hips, he really liked touching her. Amy was totally overwhelmed as she felt Sheldon’s breath against her cheeks and then her neck, she could feel his hands on her body, intoxicated by the smell of Sheldon’s perfume and the baby powder she loved so much. They were so into the moment that neither of them realized when the lights went back on. Sheldon was about to place his hands on her breasts, something he never thought he would ever do, when suddenly, his phone rang.  That sound totally brought them to reality and they stopped what they were doing. Sheldon didn’t want to, but he had to get the call.

“Hello” he said upset, taking his phone.

“Hey, buddy, are you still with Amy?” Leonard asked. Amy could hear his voice from the other line, although she wasn’t paying attention, she was in the same position on the couch, heavily breathing, and trying to recover from the moment she had just had with Sheldon.

“Yes, I am. What do you want, Leonard?” Sheldon asked upset.

“Well, I went out with Penny and we’re on the way home, I can pick you up if you want to before it starts to rain again and there’s another blackout” Leonard said. Sheldon looked at Amy, who was getting up and sitting next to him.

“Yes, I suppose you can pick me up. Amy can’t drive me home tonight, she has no gas” he said disappointed.

“Al right, I’ll call you when I get there” Leonard said before he hung up.

Amy had heard the conversation and she stood up. Now that the light was back on, she could clean the table and wash the dishes.

“Do you want some help?” Sheldon offered.

“Now, that’s fine, I’ll do it” Amy said without looking at him. She seemed upset.

“Hum” Sheldon said hesitating and walking towards Amy awkwardly “I haven’t quite finished the book of facial expressions I bought the other day, but I feel as if you were upset. Is something wrong?” he said.

“No, Sheldon. There’s nothing wrong” Amy said, still avoiding him.

“Are you sure, because it doesn’t seem like it” he said innocently. Amy finally turned her face to look at him but she remained in silence.

“Was it the kiss?” Sheldon asked.

“Yes, it was the kiss!” Amy said bitterly.

“Why? I thought you found my kisses pleasant. And you seemed to be enjoying what we were doing” he said gesturing the couch.

“It’s not that, Sheldon…It’s just that…” Amy said. “I’m really stupid” she said. Sheldon took a couple of steps towards her in the middle on the kitchen.

“You’re not stupid” he said.

“Yes, I am. I thought that… I thought that maybe tonight, would be… you know… the night” she said. Sheldon kept looking at her. “I don’t know, you felt so different, your kisses felt different, and I imagined that finally, maybe you wanted…” she continued.

“Make love to you?” Sheldon whispered, understanding what Amy was trying to say. She nodded and looked down to her shoes, ashamed.

“I wanted to” he confessed. Amy looked at him.

“You did?” she asked. “Then why did you say to Leonard that he could pick you up? You could spend the night here”.

“I know, but, I think that might have been a mistake” he said. “Amy, I’ve been thinking a lot about this, and believe me when I say that I want to do it, I want to be with you, but I’m not ready yet. Tonight, for a moment, I thought I was ready for it, but I’m really not. When Leonard called, I realize about what I was doing and I decided to stop and get the call. I don’t want us to have coitus just because, I want to be prepared, I want it to be special” he said. Amy stared at him.

“I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have let this happen” she apologize.

“Don’t be sorry. It was good and I enjoyed it” he said taking her hands between his. He was going to kiss her when he got a text from Leonard.

“I’m downstairs” the text said.

“What the hell does he want now?” Amy asked upset after the phone rang. Sheldon giggled and then he kissed her.

“We’ll get to that. I promise” Sheldon said.

5. Piercings I have: I have none

6. Favorite band: Of Monsters and Men, Panic! At The Disco, Imagine Dragons, OneRepublic

7. One place that you'd love to go: Paris

8. How many twitter accs do you have: I have none

9. Tattoos I want: I don't think I want any

10: Is there anyone that made u smile today: do the cast of Friends count?: because I just watched them ._.

11. What are you excited about?: one of my newest OTPs are having moments soon and I'm so excited to see it.

12. Ideas of a perfect date: watch a movie, I think? Idk I've never dated anyone ;__;

13. Life goal(s): I just wanna have my dream job, be successful, make my Dad proud, have a family one day

14. Piercings I want: I don't think I want any (I blame my Mom :v)

15. Relationship status: single ;__;

16. Favorite movie: atm The Hunger Games: Catching Fire

17. A fact about my life: I'm an introvert, I like listening to music/reading books/watching movies

18. Phobia: trypophobia