#lizz.e

Joel def has some internalized homophobia, letting his wife peg him was fine cause it was his wife! He's still straight, yeah? It's just a bit of experimentation. He's completely fine with his friends being queer (hell his wife is bi) but he just can't shake the weird gross feeling that bubbles up in the back of his throat when his mind wanders while thinking about his guy friends. Joel feeling like really weird about the dare, but he just wants to make his wife happy and his inhibitions are completely shot at this point. I'd say Jimmy is either sober or at least less drunk, trying to guide Joel through the kiss, "Open your mouth a little, your teeth are in the way." Words murmured against Joel's lips that go straight to his head, it feels so nice too. Jimmy is really slow with him, an arm gently wrapped around his waist, the other cupping Joel's face to better maneuver him around. Joel is desperately grabbing onto Jimmy's shirt, he all but whines when Jimmy pulls away because it's clear Joel isn't going to do so. Lizzie laughing a little, making a comment that Jimmy broke Joel with a simple kiss. Joel's body just feels so heavy and Jimmy is so warm, the gears in the little rational part of his brain that's still left makes him aware his pants have definitely tented and he manages to force himself up and stumble to the bathroom. He's gripping onto everything to hold himself upright, his fingers fumble to turn the faucet on and splash some cold water on his face. In the mirror he can clearly see the fact his chin is red, a little irritated from Jimmy's beard scratching at his face. He really just did that. Joel expects that horrible, bile like feeling to rise up in his throat, but it doesn't. That's what scares him, deep down, is that he liked that. And he did it in front of his wife.