#livejournal?

they pop in from time to time! Last I heard they had a lot going on in their life and were working on getting back into school etc. 

It's 12:05. I'm drinking. I haven't written in a while. 

Ok. 

I've been living in New York for 138 days. When I was in the elementary grades, we always celebrated the 100th day of school. It came in late November and it called for candies and legos and paper flowers in a hundred count. In the scheme of a 7 year old's life, 100 days represents a significant hunk of existence. 

These 100 days passed without remark, and 38 more were able to join them before I sat down to reflect on them. I am doing so only at the insistence of my university, because as I may have forgotten to mention, I am in the city participating in an internship for school credit. And for the record 'forgetting to mention' was 'intentionally misleading' because, lets be real for a moment, the internet is where the events of one's life are recorded with the hazy, beautifying glow of a daytime television.

And now, while trying to reflect on an experience of 138 days, I can only recall the experience of 1. Like the one day I woke up two hours late and could only hold back tears with the crushing fear of being fired. Or the one day I was at the studio until 6 in the morning because I was determined not to leave if there was anything else that could be done. 

Or the one day I felt incredibly ill out of no where and threw up in the restroom only to return to work without mentioning it to anyone, until just now (you may be the very first person I've told this to, lucky internet stranger!) 

And on this same day happened to be the one time I met Beyonce at a party and felt so awash with guilt at the notion of celebrity that I drank myself into a stupor and swore that I'd never talk about it on the internet (once again, you're the first to hear of this, congrats!) 

Or the one day I cried. Briefly. Out by the water.

Question: If I were to write a fanfiction for Arashi (with Perfume in it, just cuz I love those two groups~), would people even be interested? Because I feel like the only one that ship them. (It's just a personal ship, plz don't hate!)

So many new things are coming up soon.  Attempting to run my first half marathon.  Graduating law school.  Studying for and taking the bar exam.  Being the closest approximation to a grown up that I have been yet.