Somedays it's hard to love yourself, you don't even like who you are. You think about how ugly you looked in that picture, how you said something really stupid to that one friend. You think about all the wrongs you have done to people, decisions that ripped you apart into so many pieces that you were never able to put it back all together like before. You think about that one thing that could have been different if you did it a little better. You think about that one person who could have stayed if you tried a little harder. You think about your flaws, scars, weaknesses, insecurities, literally every worst part of yourself. Every piece that you despise and just want to make it go away or somehow want to undo it. But it's alright to feel like this, we all do. It's important to acknowledge these emotions and think about them to bring you closer to yourself. Afterall these feelings are also a part of your soul, your life. But what is not right is to drown yourself in these thoughts and never be able to make peace with them.
So when you think about how ugly you looked think about all the times you have been the most beautiful both inside out. When you think about the wrong decisions, think about the right ones that changed your life forever. When you think about how harsh you have been to that one person, think about all the times you were so kind without expecting anything in return. When you think about the scars think about the struggles you got them through and fought like hell. And when you think about your flaws think about the perfections you have. Once you understand how everything is just about perspective, you change your own life.
You cannot change what you did in the past, your wrongs, your decisions, your harshness but what you can do is own them like you own your right doings, decisions, kindness and strive to be better than before. Start loving yourself for what you were and what you have become. Love yourself for all the times you made mistakes and regretted every second after it. Love yourself for that every moment when you were harsh on yourself and doubted your capabilities, your purpose and your entire existence. And at last love yourself for all the times you thought you won't be able to make it but still did. 💞
