Had an assessment call yesterday and although sheâs agreed to a face to face meeting Iâm not feeling very positive.
She was pushing the âtheyâre just personalities you put on because you like the way they help you copeâ
Then told me my homework is to write down what each of them do for me when theyâre at their strongest, like what is their purpose?
Some of these guys ainât got no purpose! Theyâre just there!
Is Ryanâs purpose to be an emo teen boy who plays games? Is that supposed to be âI like being Ryan because he helps me relaxâ? Ryanâs games are not relaxing! I donât like Ryanâs games, Ryan doesnât like the body. This is not a helpful personality to choose to be.
I donât know if we just fucked up in trying to explain to her, or if she just doesnât believe me, or maybe this is just the place she starts at and will hopefully branch out her thinking when we have more conversations. But I just feel so disoriented, depressed, and unheard.
I want trauma therapy, I donât want to have to yet again go through âwhy arenât you hearing meâ about another problem! đŞ
