#lightfeedback

All I see is walls

and darkness is comforting The never ending halls are covered in holes and mountains

I've searched for a door but I found walls they keep me staying still while they steal my hope

Years go by staying still the walls are my only friend the walls know me

But why be friends with the one who steals the light? Could it be because I’ve been taught not to fight?

I look left, right, up and down and each direction is the same Why is it that this never seems to change?

I’m unaware of the fact that I’m beginning to fade faster and faster each day

And then… the walls win

If he gave me the chance.

His smell is a safety blanket Like hugging mom after a bad night His masculinity wraps around you A dream you don’t want to let go of

His kindness the rain of a real Prince Charming A kindness that warms you A kindness that makes you kind

His touch is absolutely magical It sends butterflies rushing through your veins Posing for a picture with his hand gripping you side is always the best few seconds Breathing him in Making us one

For those mere moments, life was complete.

I don’t know if he sees it Maybe he likes noticing I need him Maybe he laughs Maybe he likes leading me on I don’t know if he realizes he’s killing me

I hope I’m not right I hope he wants me like I want him I hope he thinks of me as he falls asleep I hope he talks about me to his friends, making them promise to keep it on the low

I hope for a lot of things.

But those hopes are only for him.

i still see you standing there in the tall grass with your face held down now bittered by the cold

i remember how trees left the fall of their own lives and how the breaths of hundreds could never keep you warm

i dreaded each day woke up with hope that maybe one day you’d see a light in your own eyes but you never did you never could you never would admit that this wasn’t all so bad

i laid there breathless too many words already left me i laid there motionless afraid to make a move everything i’ve done i know could have been painted brighter

but it’s you and there’s nothing i can do please don’t take your own life let both suns lay on their own to build each day past the worry and let the sun in through the blinds

i can’t promise you but i know just what you want these days are cold and lifeless and empty veins sprawl down your arms

but the trees, they do come back to follow her up the hilltop to bring each day new light to bring a chance this year to be more than what they are