#lifics

Buck and I have been dating for a while, I met him when I was with a friend who took her nephew to the Fire House for the fair day. 

"Oh, hey there!" Buck spoke so smoothly, it's as if he took a degree in how to woo anyone with a heartbeat.

My friend looks at me from the corner of their eye as I smile and respond to the firefighter. We ended up chatting a bit more throughout the fair, and I left having swapped numbers. 

After texting for a while, we began to plan for our first date - which was difficult because our schedules would always clash, but we would still manage to text and even call each other. It took a month from meeting to having our first date. 

In the month that we waited to meet each other, we would send each other pictures and texts that would sometimes get a bit... Hot! The first time it happened, I explained that I hadn't actually been with anyone before. I wasn't embarrassed although I was nervous about what Buck would say, but he was more than okay with it and made me feel really comfortable. 

When the day finally came, and Evan picked me up for a date and we instantly made out in his car started chatting and joking, it felt like I had known Evan for as long as I could remember. He was so kind and welcoming, and one of the most gorgeous men I have ever seen. 

We ended up going to a funfair, and we competed on almost all the games, I didn't win a thing, but he won one small beaver plushie which he handed to me. We went on most of the less scary rides, and before we knew it, we were holding hands as we walked along the pier in the dim moonlight. 

When he dropped me off at home, he walked me to my door and kissed me before I had a chance to say how much I enjoyed the date. We agreed that we should have another one soon. 

And we did, we were able to have a date every Friday for a month. We visited museums, watch hockey, and I even met his sister and her partner - which wasn't nervewracking... not at all. We did a double date once with my friend, and they're boyfriend, and I love how comfortable I was around Evan; usually, my anxiety would take over when meeting new people but it didn't as much when I was with Evan. Although half of me thought breaking up with him would be the best solution, so I didn't have to meet more people.

I don't think I could ever actually break up with Buck, it hurt too much whenever we would have to say goodbye. 

One weekend, a month and a half after our first date, he invited me over for the whole weekend - to which I, of course, said yes. When he picked me up that night I was so excited to spend some more time with him, we had spent nights together before were we just made out while pretending to watch a film, and I always enjoyed spending time with him. I felt safer with him. 

As we made our way into his home, after being out having a meal and bowling with his best friends, we made our way upstairs, we kissed and cuddled as we watched a film I can't remember the name of, just that the actor received a hickey. 

"huh, I've never had one of them" I muttered aloud. 

You and Nik had been together for years, so many in fact that hat you have lost count but to give an example of how long, you were born the same year the Miklesons had been turned.

For some reason, Klaus kept your relationship a secret, he told his family, and you all spoke to often with one another even when one avoided the other, but other than that nobody knew. You guessed it was because he wanted to keep you safe since he's been making enemies from the day he was born.

Since you had been with Klaus for so long, there were a few things that you had become desensitised to, slight torture, killing etc. - you were a vampire, yes, but you never killed anybody - There was one thing that you could never get over, Klaus cheating.

You had caught them, Klaus and this girl, one night and you had left there and then, cut all ties with him. Elijah and Rebekah had been there to pick up the pieces of your broken heart, and you promised yourself that you would never be tricked by Klaus again.

Eventually, Nik found you and begged for you to come back to him, be his again, he slowly got you to doubt yourself and your options using that silver tongue of his. He would so easily manipulate those thoughts and memories that you had made, and you ended up taking him back after 20 years of him giving you gifts every other day.

It's easy to say you loved Klaus with everything you had, and you used all the patience you had with him too.

You had both decided to take a business trip to Paris while Klaus had been lead to somewhere in America, you said your "goodbyes and See you soon" and headed off in your different directions. It was easier to be separated for such a short period of time when you've lived several hundred years; it isn't ideal to be away from the person you love. Still, it's more manageable for the lifeless vampires that live on throughout time.

Throughout your trip you had been excited for it to end, despite enjoying it so much, to be able to see Klaus again, it was one of those trips for Klaus were he was so busy and so caught up down the rabbit hole that he couldn't message, so this whole trip there's was barely anything from him, or his siblings who accompanied him to Mystic Falls, somewhere with a lot of vampire action that apparently was not going under the radar.

The last day of your trip you receive a text, a sentence which you had read multiple times from Klaus before, although this time it was from an unrecognisable number - "Meet me in New Orleans, we have much to discuss."

On your way to a place you had once fled, and when you did, it had broken your heart, you only hope it goes better this time.

You walk through the large house that you once called home, admiring the decor that you remember as you move through the house.

You can hear talking through the house and can pinpoint that it is coming from the office - Klaus' voice is coming from Klaus' office.

As you make your way to your love, happiness fades, and sorrow hits you like a train as you overhear what Klaus and his siblings are talking about.

"She's having your child, Nicklaus, you need to do something to protect her and the child."

"Really Nik? you had to have a rebound, from Caroline, who -"

"Don't you ever mention her name to me again!"

Now here you are, standing in the corridor refusing to breathe as you were listening in to Klause and Elijah as they spoke about how it was possible for Klaus to bear a child.

A woman, with a hand over her stomach protectively despite her even showing, walked up to you. She could see the sadness in your eyes as she asked you if you were okay and introduced herself as Haley.

Haley, you had learnt a moment earlier was the woman who was having Klaus' child... So this was her, not only that but there was two of them: Haley and a Caroline.

Haley looked at you with slight concern, that innocent girl- you could have killed her there and then and end it all - but no, you were never evil, maybe a little desensitised.

You boss and begin to walk away only for you to hear the door of the old house creak open.

"Y/N?" Klaus, the person you had dedicated most of your life to loving unconditionally, asks as if you weren't even invited to the party.

You turn, holding your feelings down but refusing to flick that switch, the switch that is just there - just beginning for the rage that has been waiting to be unleashed for decades.

"Oh sorry, am I interrupting you and your family matters?" You reply with a snark.

"It's dangerous, you being here."

"Yeah, I was just leaving."

"Is that all you have to say? You know I committed infidelity and you don't have anything else to say? Do you even care anymore? There's nothing left for you to say... After all this time?" Klaus says, trying to get a rise in you or seeing how far he can push you before you break.