i need to see him punching Kahmunrah square in the face in the middle of one of his insane monologues. i need to see him take the hourglass and empty it with trembling hands and touch Jed with barely the tip of his fingers to make sure he's okay,with more gentleness than ever, and idk maybe even help him get rid of the sand by softly blowing on him and carrying him up to his face because he's so rattled he needs to feel his little cowboy leaning against his forehead I DON'T KNOW