Sometimes I have to remind myself that living my life may very well disappoint others. Sometimes it is hard to be okay with this, as I don't aim to disappoint. A programmed conditioning to please and follow the steps or guides of another. Nothing is more exhausting than half-assed decisions or attempting to please everyone or saying yes when I mean no. Whenever I'm caught in this web of boundary testing, I will match myself to wrestle. It's not necessarily about the other party, rather it's about what I allow into my space. Many are often driven to be heard and seen, ones will even cause stir into dramatics. Actioning bypass or blast of the self righteous. Inviting you in to their complaints and feeding grounds of smallness, pointing at others firstly before ever themselves. It is important to surround yourself with people that stand big, strong, and soft. It is important that these people also encourage others in their bigness, strengthening, and softening ways. It takes time to understand this. I often believe it takes steep lows, knowing darkness intimately, and maybe a time felt defeat. This is how we flutter open into the light. Into a love so deep, no corruption to buyout. This love cannot be bought. It cannot return to smallness. It is here to disrupt a system kept unwell by conditioning. This is prioritizing love for self and bringing it forth unto others. Life is a priority, love is mandatory. Create. Live well. Love deep. Light on. You be you. I'll be me. In this land of we. Light on my toes, balancing reads atop my crown. Once this was a side-gig coaching others to stand tall and walk with purpose. A side-gig into a deeper life-gig. Away we walk, together. #lifeonpurpose
