#levi talks

i might be trippin or something and i cannot sufficiently explain why but linguistics, maths, computer science and philosophy are all the same thing

Making some stuff for Captoper and Writeober at the moment 😁 also planning to draw another OC

Last night I went onto insta and came out as Non-Binary, having spent a while with the overwhelming question regarding several years of identifying as transgender.  Today I feel exactly as I did last night, alien, like a foreigner in an unknown land or on an unknown planet. I feel other. Single. Like an essence but not so much a person.  I  made this choice for the betterment of understanding myself.  I would rather identify as nothing than try to be some THING.  I don’t feel happier or sadder because overall, nothing has changed, and frankly, with my autism, the doubt it ever will looms over me like a heavy, grey cloud.  With this disorder, I’m accepting the fact I will always be an alien presence to myself, perhaps not to others, but to my own being, my reflection will feel unfamiliar and regardless of what changes, it will remain as such because I am the one with the tinted lenses, always slightly off focus so regardless of what I become, the result will never feel just right.  --- But, that is okay, and I would rather identify as nothing if it means I can feel as close to something as my disability allows.  I’ll be okay. And even if nobody else is with my choice, well, that for them to deal with.