levi’s hands are dirty. he’s done things he’s not exactly proud of. he’s had to fight, hurt, kill to stay alive. violence barely even takes a toll on him anymore, at least not the way it used to. it’s hard to feel anything at all when you’ve caused as much destruction as he has, when your value to others is reduced to the strength you bring to a fight.
levi knows that he is lethal — and he’s come to terms with it. after all, he’s been taught since he was a boy that whoever hits harder, whoever moves faster is the one who survives. what began as fighting for his survival in the underground became fighting for the survival of humanity alongside the Scouts. over time, levi learned it’s not that different, the underground and the survey corps; blood must be spilt, and if you are strong enough, you have some say in who’s it is. that alone is enough of a reason for people to keep you around.
it’s hard for levi not to become too detached from himself with all the violence that’s surrounded him, with all the violence he’s created. but, there are moments, however rare, when levi can forget all the wrongs he’s committed. when levi is reminded that he is more than just “humanity’s strongest”. when levi realizes that he is still levi. in these moments, levi experiences a warming hum of peace in his chest. it’s small and gentle and if he blinks he’ll miss it — but it’s there. it’s in a hot, bracing cup of tea resting on his desk. it’s in the warmth of the sun on his face, a luxury he never had in the underground. it’s in clean sheets that smell gently of soap. it’s in the clicking and whirring of his ODM gear as he weaves in and out of the trees. it’s in hange’s crazed smile every time she discovers something new about the titans. it’s in erwin’s speech of encouragement leading up to a fight, urging him to dedicate his heart. it’s in the wide eyes of the each new cadet, who knows only to hope. it’s in the memories of isabel, and furlan, and his mother.
it may not seem like much to others, but to him? these moments are everything. levi was bred as a weapon with a specific purpose. no one was there to care about levi beyond if he was performing well enough, staying strong enough, killing fast enough — and he always was. but small moments like these are enough to show levi that there is still a beating heart underneath his uniform. that’s he’s still levi. and that is worth more to him than all the glory in the world.
for all the destruction levi has seen — for all the destruction he’s caused — it would be easy for him to disconnect entirely from his heart. but that’s just not who he is. levi may not feel all the time, but the fact that he can even feel at all?
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Characters: Post war!Levi x Survey Corps fem!reader
Genre: SNK!canonverse
Warnings: SFW, fluff. Reader insert (y/n). SNK final season spoilers!!!! Some references to the canon events of snk (slight mentions of depressive episodes, mentions of death etc).
Word count: 3.6k
A/N: Thank you very much to my dear anon Victoria for the request!! I actually have two very similar spring time date requests, as such I decided to tweak this up a little. There will be mentions and references to canon events, but nothing angsty at all!!
I'm sorry this took so long to complete, and I'm still going through a bad writer's block lol but thank you to everyone for being so patient! I hope you all like this <3
Read the original request here.
"Levi Heichou!" You called out, excited to see your lover appear before you.
"Tch, I told you so many times before to drop the shitty title, we're no longer in the Corps anymore," Levi rolled his eye—his good one—as he approached you. His hair was neatly combed back, his fedora in his lap. Levi was wearing a simple white button shirt with black long pants. His hair had grown longer; his fringe now growing past his eye. You missed how he used to keep his hair short, but you loved how nice Levi looked with longer hair too.
You looked hard at Levi, studying every line and wrinkle you see, and the barely visible strands of grey on his ebony hair. Years of fighting on the front line had taken a toll on his body more than you liked, even though he claimed it didn't really affect him much since he had the Ackerman bloodline.
Although the war ended, you knew Levi still wasn't at peace. You could tell he was restless, he didn't like being cooped up at home. His eyes didn't seem to have life in them like they used to, and he just seemed so sluggish all the time. You knew Levi wasn't sleeping well too; sometimes the ache in his knee woke him up, and sometimes, it was the demons Levi were fighting in his head. Levi didn't say it, but you knew he missed the old life, the one where he spent half his life fighting for a cause he believed in, and now that he fulfilled his mission, his life felt aimless; he didn't know what to do, and what to continue living for.
It took you a long while to convince Levi to even agree to step out of the house and go on this picnic date, and deep down, you knew you had to make every minute out with him worthwhile.
"What are you staring at?" Levi's voice brought you back to the present, "thinking of something?"
"Nah, I'm just thinking of asking Mikasa to send me some of those pearl eye cream from Hizuru. You know, the one Lady Kiyomi sent her for her birthday?" you answered, bringing a pair of shoes and putting them on for Levi, "I heard they're good for reducing wrinkles, especially around the eyes."
Levi's eye narrowed. "Oi. Are you saying—"
"Did Big Sister y/n just call Uncle Levi old?!" A high pitched voice came from the kitchen, and you felt an impact around your midsection. A few moments later, a head of blonde hair appeared by your side too. "Big Sister y/n just said Uncle Levi has wri—"
"Gabi! Shush—" Falco covered Gabi's mouth while she tried to wiggle herself free. You giggled and glanced at Levi who was eyeing the three of you, and quickly tried to separate the younger ones.
"Oi. You brats. Ganging up on me now?" Levi crossed his arms, looking utterly displeased. Falco continued covering Gabi's mouth while she tried to stomp on his foot.
"Of course not, Levi, we wouldn't dare to offend our elders do we, kids?" You joked, earning another stare from Levi. Before he could say anything, you quickly ran into the kitchen with Gabi and Falco.
"Big Sister y/n!!! Did you see Uncle Levi's face when you talked about wrinkles?" Gabi laughed while Falco appeared with a picnic basket in tow.
"Shut up, Gabi! Uncle Levi and Big Sister are late for their date already, stop disturbing them!" Falco sighed and tried to pull Gabi away, "here, Big Sister, I hope you and Uncle Levi have lots of fun today!"
You nodded and waved the kids goodbye and went outside, looking again at Levi who still had his arms across his chest. Onyankopon was right behind Levi, giving you a smile.
"Come on brat, let's go." Levi rolled his eye again as you passed the picnic basket to Onyankopon. Pushing Levi's wheelchair, Onyankopon told you to wait by the pavement as he went to drive the car over.
"... do I really have wrinkles?" Levi muttered once Onyankopon left. You snorted and tried to hide it with a small cough.
"Hmm… well… I mean, uh… your crow's feet do seem to be… uh—"
"Fine. Enough." Onyankopon arrived and Levi dismissed you, clearly knowing the answer in his heart. You giggled as he came out to help Levi up into the car while you kept his wheelchair in the boot.
"The weather today is lovely," Onyankopon smiled as he began driving, "it's a good day to be out in the sun."
"And yet, she still does not want to tell me what we're doing today."
"You'll find out later." You chuckled again holding Levi's hand, watching the scenery outside pass by. You sought help from Onyankopon and the kids weeks ago to look for nice picnic spots in Marley. With the spring breeze flowing and the flowers blooming, you thought it would be a perfect opportunity to spend undisturbed time with Levi. You thought a change of scenery might do him some good too; to help him out of this depressive state. After another quarter, Onyankopon stopped the car near the park and went to take Levi's wheelchair out.
"I'll pick you two up at eight, is that okay, y/n?" You checked your watch and it was a little past four. You nodded your head and thanked Onyankopon before taking the picnic basket and another bag from the front seat. Placing the picnic basket on Levi's lap, you helped him put on his fedora and his eye patch before wheeling him ahead.
"So, are you going to tell me why we are here in this godforsaken place?" Levi questioned you again as you began pushing him on a stony path.
"I'm taking you out on a date, obviously." You teased him again as you suddenly pushed him faster, causing his fedora to nearly fly away. Levi tutted angrily and said you should never be allowed to push his wheelchair again.
A few moments later, you and Levi arrived at a shop offering bicycles for rent. You paid the shopkeeper some money and then he rode a quadricycle over. You took the picnic basket and bag from Levi's lap and placed it in the front seats of the quadricycle. Once more, Levi gave you a look of confusion.
"Well, up now, I rented this for the day," you gestured. Levi awkwardly looked away, subconsciously placing his hand on his bad knee and grimaced, knowing that you of all people should know how he wasn't like before. What were you thinking, making him cycle when you knew it was going to be hard for him?
"Come on, Levi, stop depending on that wheelchair. You have to prevent your knee from becoming worse, right?" You smiled encouragingly, offering your hand out. You had expected that Levi would be unhappy, but you likewise knew that you shouldn't treat him differently from before. Whether or not he was Levi Heichou of the Survey Corps, or now as Levi the war veteran, he was still Levi—the Levi you loved. Whether he had physical disabilities or not, Levi was still the man you want to spend the rest of eternity with. You didn't want to push him, you wanted Levi to get out of this self-pitying state himself. After a long while, Levi held your hand and pushed himself up from the wheelchair. Slowly but steadily, you guided Levi up on the seat of the quadricycle, placing his feet on the pedals.
"W-wait. What about the wheel—"
"Don't worry, sir, your item will be safely kept here." The shopkeeper kindly replied and Levi seemed to relax a little. It was hard trying to move around without the wheelchair, but maybe you were right. He should try to depend on it less. "We'll close at around 10pm, so please remember to come by before then." The both of you nodded and you took your seat on the left. Looking at Levi, you gave him another smile and asked if he was ready. You could see Levi massaging his knee again. Levi took a deep breath and sighed, telling you to start pedalling.
It was hard at first, but Levi gradually got used to the momentum again. The both of you kept your pace slow, taking your time to enjoy the scenery passing by, the sound of birds chirping, and the gentle rustling of leaves. The sun was obscured by the clouds and there wasn't much of a crowd as well. You saw Levi's face relax gradually, the crease on his forehead slowly disappearing. Levi seemed to be more at ease with paddling on the quadricycle as well. You smiled to yourself. Bringing Levi out was indeed doing him well.
"Are you doing okay?" You checked in with your lover, making sure he wasn't overexerting himself. After he gave you a nod, you pointed to a large shady tree about 200 metres away, telling Levi that it was the next stop. Reaching the tree, you told Levi to remain seated first.
"Are you up for a walk?"
"... Hah?"
"A walk, Levi. Let's go for a walk."
"N-no, I don't think I can—"
"We'll walk slowly. Forget about the walking stick. You don't need it, I'm here."
Levi looked hard at you, face remaining emotionless. The frown on Levi's face became more and more evident as the seconds passed. You continued to stare right into Levi's eye, your resolve unwavering. A few seconds later, Levi broke eye contact and sighed again before reaching out his hand towards your direction.
"You better not make me regret this," Levi muttered under his breath, "you're forcing a crippled man to walk when you jolly well know he can't." You rolled your eyes.
"First off, Levi"—you took his hand and slowly guided him down the quadricycle—"you're not crippled. Secondly, you walk fine. Thirdly, think of this as rehabilitation, hmm? And lastly, stop complaining like an old man." You stood on Levi's right side and interlocked your arm with his, making sure he wasn't putting too much pressure on his knee.
"Where are we going?"
"Not far. We're just going to that small pond over there," you pointed towards a pond just in front, "let's go and feed some ducks." Levi scoffed hearing you.
"As long as they keep their feathers and shit to themselves."
The walk to the small pond was slow but pleasant. The heat from the sun was warm against your skin, the scent of the earth was refreshing. Levi held on to his fedora as the wind blew gently, and the sound of the grass and gravel crunching underneath your feet was playing like a contrasting melody. Once you two reached the pond, you opened your sling bag and took out a slice of white bread. Levi raised his eyebrow slightly.
"These are stale bread from a week ago." You chuckled before tearing it into half, passing one to Levi. You further tore your half into more tiny pieces before throwing them little by little into the pond. Some of the ducks in the pond started waddling over. Several tortoises also popped their heads above the water. There were also fishes fighting amongst themselves for the last few pieces. Levi looked at you before tearing the bread in his hand, scattering them all across the pond. The fishes and ducks dispersed and finished all those pieces of bread within the next minute.
"Do you have more bread on you?" Levi asked as he finished scattering the last few pieces of bread in his hand. You laughed and took out a few more slices.
"Maybe we can go to the pier next time," you commented once those hungry birds finished all the bread in your bag, "we should try feeding the seagulls." Levi scoffed again and let you hold on to his elbow.
"Tch. And have them shit on our heads? No."
The both of you began walking back to the quadricycle. Reaching into another bag, you took out a small paper kite. Levi raised his eyebrow again.
"Do you like it? I had Gabi and Falco do it together with me." You smiled and flipped the kite over, letting Levi see the doodles they did. Levi smirked when he realised who the five blobs of colour drawn on the kite were. You held onto the string and passed Levi the kite, telling him to lift the kite above his head while you moved back.
"OKAY, LEVI, THROW THE KITE HIGH AFTER I COUNT TO THREE!" You shouted and Levi gave you the thumbs up. After counting to three, Levi threw the kite high and you jogged backwards, pulling the string up to get the kite into the sky. Releasing the string bit by bit, Levi slowly made his way to your side as the kite now started flying a short distance away. You gave Levi a smile and tied the string around the tree trunk before going to the quadricycle, taking out the picnic basket and setting the mat.
"Now… let's see what the kids made for our picnic." You rubbed your palms together excitedly and opened the basket. You took out a container of hot stew, some freshly baked sourdough bread, cheese, mushroom quiche, and a small container of fruits too. You arranged the food on the mat and took out the bowls, cutlery, and a few serviettes. Pouring some stew into the small bowl, you passed it to Levi's left before giving him the spoon.
"It seems pretty decent," Levi uttered as he took a spoonful of stew and eyed you, "are you sure they did it all on their own?" You ate some stew and nodded.
"Well, Onyankopon did give them pointers, and I was the one who gave them the recipes, but yeah. The kids made it all by themselves. Not bad, huh? Maybe we should let them open a small food stall along the streets." you took another few mouthfuls of stew, "it's time for them to contribute to the household finances." Levi tutted angrily instead.
"They're too young to be doing shit like that, you brat. Don't be ridiculous."
You giggled, cutting some mushroom quiche for Levi. "I'm joking. Of course I wouldn't let Falco and Gabi do something like that. " The crease on Levi's forehead disappeared again as he ate, passing you his bowl for more stew. Levi and you took your time savouring the good food prepared by the two kids. It was pretty decent, and indeed you were secretly thinking of letting them open a small food business once they are of age.
Once all the food was finished, you told Levi to pack everything fast. Bewildered, Levi didn't say anything, yet he wondered what you were up to again. You got Levi up onto the quadricycle again and told him that there was one place you wanted to bring him. Stopping the quadricycle, you helped Levi down and laced your arm around his again, walking him to some benches ahead. The park was located right next to the sea, and it was pretty empty, just the way you hoped.
"Come on," you muttered as you helped him down, walking towards the bench, "we're just in time."
"For what?"
"You'll see."
Taking your seats on the bench, you checked your watch before glancing ahead again, looking at the dispersing clouds. Before long, the sun started to set, painting the sky a beautiful hue of red, orange, and yellow. You could feel Levi let out a breath he didn't know he was holding, and you grabbed his hand, feeling your fingers interlock. The both of you continued to stare silently at the magnificent view ahead, watching the sun descend lower and lower, listening to the waves crashing on the shore, feeling the wind blowing against your skin. You could feel Levi's calloused fingers caressing your knuckles, and the familiarity tickled something in your memory.
"Brings back memories, huh, Heichou," you peeked at Levi, seeing him trying to hide a small smile as well, "we used to do this all the time." Levi hummed in agreement, keeping his eye on the sunset instead.
"I still think the view from the top of the walls were nicer though"—you let go of Levi's hand and stretched your hands—"it was higher, more windy, less obstruction, and more—"
"And more dangerous," Levi frowned as he interjected. You laughed once more, closing your eyes to feel the wind in your hair again. You thought back to the reason why you decided to bring Levi out today, and even though you knew it might make him unhappy, you also knew you had to talk to him about it. Minutes later, the sun had already gone below the horizon, and the sky was gradually getting darker as well. Soon, the lamps nearby slowly started lighting up.
"Say, Levi," you broke the silence once more and Levi hummed in acknowledgement again, "do you… miss the old days?"
"... why'd you ask?"
"I miss those days too, you know. I miss all our friends and comrades too. Every single one of them. Every day."
Levi didn't say a word. You guessed he was probably upset. Yet, you took a deep breath and decided to just tell him the words on your mind.
"I know it's not easy for you to, I don't know, adapt to a normal life again seeing how you've been in the Corps for nearly half your life. B-but, I just don't want to see you wallowing in self-pity, okay? It hurts me to see you like this.
"I don't care whether or not you have missing eyes and fingers, I don't care if you have to be in a wheelchair forever. I'll gladly feed your meals and bathe you, I'll wear your shoes for you and I'll push you wherever you want to go. We'll hunt around Marley to look for beautiful spots to watch the sunset and the stars. I love you for who you are, and that will never change. Falco and Gabi love their Uncle Levi too. So, j-just, don't give up, okay?"
"Who said anything about giving up?" Levi turned to you, a look of annoyance appeared on his face.
"W-well, I don't know, you're always looking so listless, and you're not eating and sleeping well. I haven't seen you smile in a long time. And once I saw you staring at the mirror looking like you're abo—"
"Hey, hey, stop it, okay? Stop worrying. I'm fine. Really." Levi held your hand and gave you a squeeze. "I'm fine. I'm dealing with it, okay? It's, it's j-just—I'm—"
"Shh. It's okay. I get it. I get you." you hushed him, gently holding him close. You didn't need to see Levi's face to know that he was probably going to tear up, a side of him that will never be seen by anyone else; anyone except you. "Everything will be alright, I promise you. I won't leave you. I'll be by your side."
The both of you remained in each other's embrace, letting your hug do the talking. Patting Levi's back rhythmically, you heard him let out a long sigh before pulling you even closer, tightening his grip around your waist as he buried his head in the crook of your shoulder. You didn't feel the need to ask Levi what he was thinking about, and likewise, Levi knew you wouldn't ask him about it. After a long while, Levi finally loosened his grip around you. The moon was hanging high in the sky and the wind was getting colder. The stars shone like little specks of glitter in the ink-coloured sky.
"Feeling better?"
"Y-yeah, better," Levi hastily wiped the remnants of tears from his cheek, "thank y-yo—
—you interrupted Levi mid-sentence with a soft kiss.
"I love you, Levi. Always remember that. Hmm? I mean it." you gave him another small smile before stroking his cheek, pressing another fleeting kiss on his chapped lips. Levi's larger hand cupped yours as he kissed you back, feeling like time around him stopped, and nothing else in the world mattered. The feeling of your lips on his, the coldness of your cheeks, the warmth from your body; they were real, and a reminder that he was still here, and he was still alive.
Levi broke the kiss first, struggling to find the right words to say while he looked at you. Chuckling, you gave him another smile and mouthed it's okay once more. Levi was never good with words and he was never a good talker, but it never bothered you anyway. Levi gave you an appreciative look while you looked at your watch.
"Come on, Levi. Let's get back to the bicycle shop."
Helping Levi on his feet, you guided him up the quadricycle and the both of you slowly cycled back to the shop. Thanking the shopkeeper for keeping Levi's wheelchair safe, you opened it and gestured to Levi to take his seat, yet Levi shook his head instead.
"Let's walk to the main entrance. There's still time, right?" Levi offered to hold the picnic basket and kite while another hand held your arm for support. You tried to hide your smile as you both walked, listening to the owls hooting in the far distance. Onyankopon's car was already waiting outside by the time you reached the entrance. Seeing Levi walking next to you, a wide smile broke across Onyankopon's face as well.
The journey back home was quiet, yet Levi felt like the weight had been finally lifted off his shoulders. You held on to Levi's hand as he laid on your shoulder, drifting somewhere between sleep and consciousness. Levi knew his road to recovery would not be an easy one. But with you by his side, it was like he found his wings of freedom once more. And for the first time in a long while, Levi went to sleep with a smile.
Disclaimer: This is my first time writing hurt/comfort so I understand if it sucks and there's no hurt or comfort at all LOL I prommie I'll do better for the rest of the requests 🥺
your first promises might be a bunch of bullshit but the next one isn't. you know that for sure.
+ pairings. levi ackerman x f!reader.
+ tags. heavy angst hehe
+ word count. 0.7k
+ notes. this is just a drabble cos i can't sleep, it's freaking 7 am in here already but im still wide awake might as well write what is on my mind, right? right. hshjdhsk hope u guys enjoy hiho <33
"I'll go with you." you heard him say, you let out your usual smile— the one that even though he doesn't say it out loud, it makes his day complete.
You gently sat on his lap, like you usually do, caressing his raven hair softly as you plant a small kiss on the crook of his neck, "Silly, Captain. Next time, you will but not now."
He sighed as he adjust on his seat, staring at your face. You stare at him with the beautiful irises that he adores.
"Why do you have to be so stubborn? It's stupid, really."
"You love me anyways." you chuckled as you lean on his body. Levi didn't say anything, instead, he lets out a deep breath as he close his eyes. You look at him as you cup his cheeks.
"Levi." you said softly, "What's wrong?"
He didn't answer, he just keep his eyes closed. You smiled and cupped his soft cheeks, "You look so tired, my love."
The unfamiliar silence filled the room, it was unfamiliar because you weren't used to this kind of soundlessness, it was gloomy yet it was comforting because the love of your life is within your reach.
"Levi, say something."
Levi may be aloof and cold on the outside but you can still feel his warmth. His mouth may be spewing not so nice things but he is good-natured. You know that because you can feel his comfort whenever he just stares at you with his loving eyes that adored every inch of your being.
"I can't."
"Levi..." you place a gentle kiss on his lips, touching him with your fingers, "It's okay, don't say anything."
You wipe the devastating tears that were falling from his eyes but somehow they keep on coming, it was flooding from his eyes and you can't do anything to keep it away from the serene surface of his porcelain complexion.
"I can't do this." he whispered.
"You can." you encouraged him, "Levi. You are strong. You are the strongest human being that I know. You can do this. Don't make me regret leaving you here."
He opened his eyes and stared at your face in the portrait on his desk. You want to say that you are there but you know well that he cannot hear you or see you.
He wanted to see you and touch you and you wanted him to feel you right now, you wanted him to feel you touching him but he can't.
"You fucking promised, why did I fall for your bullshit?" he said, trying to keep his voice from cracking. Still staring at the only paper that has your face on it. The piece of paper that keeps him holding on a thin string.
And maybe if he lost that one thing that has the woman he loved— maybe, maybe he would lost it too.
Maybe the humanity's strongest would falter if he lost that one thing.
But, you... you were the one thing.
Perhaps he was falling apart already.
You promised that you'd live but you didn't. You promised that you would grow old with him, but that's a bunch of bullshit for you now Levi, is it?
When he closes his eyes all he can see is your angelic face, filled with your own blood, the universe, the harsh and unforgiving universe took you from him too early.
He lost many people in his life and he thought that when he lost you it would be just the same level of pain because he was used to it, he was used to people leaving and dying because he witness that everyday.
Don't get him wrong, it hurts him but it doesn't hurt like this.
Like this right now.
"In the next life, what the fuck was that?" he muttered as he remembered your last words to him, even though in pain you still gave him your reassuring smile while uttering the words that he get to hear for the last time. It confused him, really. He thought that it confused him so much that he was talking to a drawing of you.
You smiled as you lean your face next to his ear, even though you know he wouldn't hear what you are about to say. You kissed the side of his head as your tears fall.
"It means..." you paused.
You stare at his face and smiled.
"I'd still love you in the next life, Levi. I promise." you whispered as you close your eyes, "Still you, Captain."
This is for @levi-supreme‘s Happy Birthday Levi Event
Summary: Levi’s story with A Christmas Carol twist
Word Count: ~4,000
A/N: I tried to stick to the story as best as I could, but obviously some things are different. Also, soft Levi 🥺
“Join us, Levi.” Erwin smiled, holding the door open for his friends. It was December twenty-fourth, Christmas Eve, the day before Levi’s birthday. For someone who was born on Christmas, Levi didn’t like the holiday that much. In fact, he detested it. Fake smiles, phony interest in other people’s lives, and a false sense of ‘home’ and ‘family’ had Levi groaning to himself more than usual.
“I’ll pass.” Levi raised his hand in a single wave as he passed by the open door and Erwin frowned.
“It’s almost Christmas, Levi. Surely you’re not going to spend it alone in the barracks.” Erwin called after his friend who continued walking away.
“You’re right about that.” Levi spun around, facing Erwin and walking backwards down the sidewalk. “I’ll be spending it alone in my office.”
“Levi!” Erwin pleaded once more, but gave up when Levi waved again, not turning around as he continued down the sidewalk and Erwin’s face dropped while he stepped into the pub, letting Levi walk home by himself.
It was a common occurrence for Levi to be invited out with his comrades and for him to refuse and spend the night home, by himself. He wasn’t ever bothered by being alone. On the contrary, he preferred it. He could eat what he wanted without having to worry about what others wanted to eat. He could do what he wanted without having to worry about what others wanted to do. He could sit in silence, the way he liked, without having to worry about someone feeling the need to talk to him.
“Hi, captain!” Petra called as Levi was about to walk into his bedroom. “We’re about to have some drinks. Do you want to join us?”
“No, thanks.” He mumbled, his hand on the doorknob to his room.
“Are you sure?” She asked, playing with her fingers. “I mean, it’s Christmas.”
“I’m sure.” He opened the door and Petra nodded, going back to the rest of the squad.
Levi stepped into his bedroom and worked a little at his desk before deciding to call it a night and sleep. Sleep wasn’t something that Levi felt the need to do for very long and if he made it to bed early enough, he could wake up and get started on the never-ending pile of work in his office.
The moment his eyes were closed as he pulled his blanket to sit under his chin, he heard a small knock and his eyes shot open. Scanning the room showed no sign of anyone and he tucked himself back under his covers, assuming it was Miche’s big feet bumping into the hall table as he usually did. Again, he closed his eyes and just as he almost fell asleep, another knock had him sitting up.
This time his room wasn’t empty.
“What the fuck are you doing in my room?” He narrowed his eyes, fully adjusted to the darkness, as he stared at the abnormally large man leaning against the wall.
“It’s where you are.” Miche shrugged.
“Yes, which is why I am asking why you are here.” Levi swung his legs over the side of the bed and stood.
“I came to see you.” Miche smiled, crossing his arms and stepping closer to Levi.
“And why would you need to see me now?” He spat, annoyed that his sleep was interrupted for seemingly no reason.
“I came to show you something.” Miche gestured for Levi to step forward. “Follow me.”
“Where are we going?”
“You’ll have to wait and see.” Miche gave a teasing smile.
“I swear, if you do this just to show me your dick again, I will kill you. I’ve gotten permission from Erwin.” Levi pulled on his robe and Miche laughed.
“Nah, where we’re going, the only dick is some punk kid.” He raised an eyebrow and waved his hand for Levi to follow. “Now come on.”
As Levi was tying his robe tightly around his waist, hoping to stave off the cold winter air, Miche took a step away from Levi’s bedroom door and straight through the wall behind him forcing Levi to stumble back at the sight.
“Whaaa—what the fuck is happening?” He spoke slowly, his eyes wide. Miche noticed Levi wasn’t following and popped his head back through the wall to see what was going on.
“You coming?” He smiled.
“You just walked through the wall.” Levi pointed, backing up until his legs hit his bed and he sat down.
“That, I did, my little friend.” Miche confidently stepped back into the bedroom and moved closer to Levi. “You can too.”
“Are you high? Maybe I’m high.” Levi’s eyes were unfocused as he thought about what could have happened. “I’m dreaming. Yeah, that’s it.”
“You’re not high.” Miche sat down next to him. “And you’re not dreaming.”
“Then…” Levi paused as he didn’t even have an alternate explanation.
“I’m the ghost of mother-fucking Christmas past!” Miche interjected, his arms stretched out in a gesture to complement his statement.
“The what?” Levi’s eyes were focused again and they narrowed as he turned to look at Miche.
“The ghost of Christmas past, dude.”
“Are you okay?”
“The question is are you okay because we are about to see some deep shit. Are you going to be ready?”
Was he ready? He wasn’t sure he believed Miche’s story entirely, or understood it, but he also just wanted to get back to sleep and knew the only way he would be able to do that was if he played along and he quickly decided that’s what he would do.
“Let’s just get this over with.”
A small smiled grew on Miche’s face and he grabbed Levi’s hand and they both flew through the wall and into the night.
“What the hell—now you can fly?” Levi clutched Miche’s arm tightly in his hands.
“You’re going to have to get used to the idea of some surprises tonight, my little dude.” Miche laughed, swerving slightly until they descended to the ground, landing in front of a familiar house.
Levi looked around the street, knowing that he knew the area, but not remembering exactly from where. It wasn’t familiar in the way you’d remember a friend’s house. It was familiar like it was a memory and the moment Levi knew where they were, he stopped following Miche.
“Why are we here?” He demanded.
“I told you.” Miche stopped walking forward and turned to Levi. “I’m here to show you—”
“Yes, yes. Show me something.” Levi interrupted. “I know that, but why here?”
Miche shook his head as he looked at his friend. It was very clear that he didn’t want to be there. Miche wouldn’t blame him for wanting to leave before he even saw anything.
“You don’t get it still, do you?” Miche stepped closer to Levi who was still refusing to walk forward. “I’m the ghost of Christmas past. Past. As in your past.”
As simply as it should have come together, the pieces of information that Miche provided back in Levi’s bedroom were enough to let Levi know what was happening and his mouth dropped open slightly enough for him to quietly gasp. They were standing in front of his home as a child and Miche was the ghost of Christmas past.
“Fuck.” He breathed.
“Now you get it!” Miche laughed cheerfully before quieting down, realizing his jubilance most likely wasn’t appreciated. He quickly switched his tone to understanding. “The faster we get in, the faster we can get out.”
“Let’s just get it over with.” Levi repeated the words he spoke in his bedroom and stepped forward through the door of the house he grew up in.
It was just as he remembered it, but so much smaller. The houses in the underground weren’t even houses and were as tiny as they could be. As a child, Levi didn’t know there existed rooms as big as his room was back at the barracks. Levi’s bedroom back at the barracks was bigger than his entire childhood home. But to little Levi, his home in the underground was huge.
Levi moved around his small house, remembering all the little places he used to hide, not only to hide himself, but to hide the things he collected. The door slammed loudly, causing Miche and Levi to both look towards the noise.
“Hey brat!” Kenny’s voice boomed through the tiny dwelling. “Get out here.”
Kenny quickly sat himself on the couch with a thud, his boots resting on the small box which was assumed to be a table. Levi couldn’t exactly remember when this was or what was happening as Kenny returned home in that way nearly every night.
“Yeah.” The small voice came from the doorway to the other room and little Levi’s eyes peeked around the corner at Kenny, jet-black hair in a puff around his little head.
“I said get out here.” Kenny sat up and rested his elbows on his knees as he kept his eyes on little Levi until he toddled out from the other room to stand in front of him. Kenny took off his hat and sighed. “I’m sorry about your tree.”
“It was a branch.” Little Levi corrected and Miche tried not to laugh at his boldness even as a child.
“Branch. Whatever.” Kenny sighed again, barely able to look little Levi in the eyes. “Anyway, I got you something.”
He pulled out a flat-shaped object from his jacket and Levi and Miche could see it was a gift. Based on the shape, it looked like a book, but with the wrapping covering everything, it was hard to tell. It didn’t matter what it was though because the look on little Levi’s face when he saw it was enough for all three adult men to smile.
“A tree!” Little Levi exclaimed after he tore off the wrapping paper. Miche leaned over and could see the cover of the picture book.
“Happy birthday, kid.” Kenny patted him on the back.
Levi could barely remember the details of this time, but never forgot how happy he was when he unwrapped that gift from his uncle.
Before any of them could enjoy the excitement of the memory, it quickly swirled away and soon Miche and Levi were standing outside the house, watching little Levi flipping the pages of his picture book happily. A small blonde boy came walking up the street with his friends and Miche could immediately see what was about to happen, looking to Levi to see his face also remembering this memory.
“What’s that you got there?” The blonde boy swiped the book from little Levi before he had the chance to hold onto it. “A book? Do you even know how to read?”
“Give it back!” Little Levi yelled and the boys just laughed.
“I don’t think I wanna.” The blonde boy thought for a moment and held the book above Levi’s head. “Why don’t you jump for it?”
Without even having to think about it, little Levi tried jumping for the book, but he was too small to reach it. After a little while of the boys teasing little Levi, the blonde boy dropped his hand, tearing the cover of the book and throwing it to the ground. The boys all laughed and left together as little Levi reached for his ruined book.
“That’s rough, dude.” Miche finally spoke, turning to Levi.
“Fuck this. And fuck you for bringing me here.” Levi’s features were all hardened and Miche took a step back.
“I’m just doing what I’m told.” Miche held his hands up.
“What’s the point of showing me this? Just to remind me that shitty lives only get shittier?”
“That’s not exactly the lesson—”
“Take me home.” Levi demanded and Miche opened his mouth to speak, but Levi cut him off, his voice becoming even more stern. “Now.”
As soon as they were back in Levi’s room, Levi returned to bed much angrier than he was earlier in the night. Miche left and Levi was finally able to try and sleep.
“Evening, Shorty!” A familiar voice rang out in the dark room.
“Damn it.” Levi mumbled under his breath before peeking out from the covers to see exactly who he knew it would be. Hange was leaning against his armoire in the corner of his room with a knowing smile on their face.
“Oh good, you’re awake.”
“I don’t know of a person that can sleep through your screeching voice.” Levi grumbled, sitting up in bed. Hange made their way over and sat next to him.
“Wanna know why I’m here?” They nudged his ribs, the smile still very much on their face. Levi almost wanted to laugh at the silvery reflection of the moon off their glasses making them look just as wacky as the smile on their face.
“If I let you tell me, will you leave me alone?”
“Not a chance!” Hange laughed, jumping up and pulling Levi with them.
“Can you at least warn me when you plan on pulling me outside.” Levi adjusted his shoulders, holding his stomach. “The flying made my stomach weird.”
“Aww baby Levi has a tummy ache.” Hange spoke in a baby voice pulling a glare from Levi which made them laugh. “No worries, shorty! We’re only going downstairs.”
“I see.” Levi nodded, satisfied that there wouldn’t be anymore flying.
He waited for Hange to lead the way, but when he looked up at them, they had a smile on their face as they stared at Levi. It was a look Levi knew all too well and he was not okay with it. Hange brought their finger to their lips and quietly went ‘shh’ which Levi was definitely not okay with.
“Hange, what are y—Ahhh!” Levi and Hange both fell through the floor all the way down to the offices below. Hange’s maniacal laughter was overpowering Levi’s scream and he gripped their arm tightly before he landed with a thud on the bottom floor. Levi stood up and brushed the imaginary dust from his pants before pointing to Hange. “Never do that again.”
“Sorry, shorty! I only take orders from the big man.” Hange gestured to the door behind them as if it somehow explained things. Though it forced Levi to look around the room and he recognized it as an extra office in the building. It was a room his squad liked to hang out in during downtime and just as he realized that, he heard Oluo’s screech come from the open doorway and Eld’s roaring laughter.
“Shall we go see what they’re up to?” Hange asked quietly, knowing Levi’s curiosity, but also knowing his hesitancy. Hange took a step forward, following Levi’s movement until they could see what was happening inside the room.
Eld had a small rock and was aiming to toss it across the room at a pinecone on the table. He took a deep breath, aiming once more before throwing it. The rock perfectly hit the pinecone and both objects fell to the floor. Everyone raised their hands and cheered except for Gunther, who was clearly losing the game.
“I know you’re cheating.” He accused, finishing the cup of alcohol that Petra poured for him.
“You don’t have to be a sore loser.” She complained, taking back the empty cup. “Eld grew up playing this game.”
“Who’s up next?” Eld cheered, excited for his next opponent.
“That’s me.” Petra hopped off her stool and Oluo lined up a row of pinecones back on the table. The game continued and Levi turned to Hange.
“Why are we looking at this?” He asked.
“Take a closer look.” Hange nudged towards the group. “What do you see?”
Levi turned back to look at his squad. They played games like this all the time. Not usually around him, but he knew they liked doing it. The only thing that he noticed was different was they were all laughing.
“They’re happy.” He pointed out. It wasn’t that they never smiled, but being out beyond the walls was never really a happy time. They were working to stay alive and it was never a time for joking and laughing. Levi had to admit, seeing them smiling and joking with each other was something he never even realized he had missed out on.
“Yes.” Hange agreed.
“So what?”
“So why didn’t you join them?” Hange turned to face Levi and he looked at them.
“I had other things to do—”
“Come on, Levi. I’m the ghost of Christmas present.” Hange gestured around them. “Kind of all-knowing.”
“Then why would you ask?”
Hange sighed, rolling their eyes at Levi’s persistence in being so difficult.
“You can spend time with people. You don’t have to be so lonely.” They reminded.
“Who says I’m lonely?” Levi spat out.
“Need I remind you. I’m the ghost of—”
“Are we done here?” Levi turned around to leave, realizing the door was the other way and cringing. He took a deep breath and turned around, knowing Hange was going to be giving him that smile he hated. “I’m going to bed.”
He passed them up and went to the stairs, going back up to his bedroom. There was a small part of him that actually thought Hange might follow and try to convince him that he should stay downstairs and watch his soldiers have their fun night, but when a couple minutes passed and his bedroom stayed silent, he realized he had managed to ditch Hange and closed his eyes.
“I don’t suppose you’d be interested in taking a short trip with me.” A deep, throaty voice carried in the quiet room and Levi sighed loudly.
“Let me guess—” Levi sat up angrily, “You’re going to show me my shitty life in the future.”
“Now that depends on you.” Erwin shrugged his shoulders lightly. “I’m merely showing you a ripple of the decisions you make.”
“A ripple?” Levi asked scornfully as he put on slippers, knowing that wherever they were going to go, it would be cold.
“Of course.” Erwin smiled. “Each decision you make is like a stone in a lake. Those ripples come from your own choices.”
“Let’s just get this over with.” Levi repeated for the third time that night.
“As you wish.” Erwin grabbed his hand and they walked through the wall, slowly dropping to the street below and Erwin continued forward, not looking back to make sure Levi was following.
“So where are we going then?” Levi asked, catching up to Erwin.
“You’ll see soon enough.”
After a couple minutes of walking, they reached the pub that his comrades were at earlier in the evening. Levi turned around and looked at the ground, wondering how they got there so quickly when he knew it was at least a fifteen-minute walk. There was a man standing outside the pub with his head down and Levi looked into the window after hearing the loud laughter coming from Miche.
Levi couldn’t know what they were laughing at, but Miche and Hange were always laughing about something while Erwin smiled at them from the side. The sight was quite normal. Whether in meetings or time together after work, it was always the same. Levi could also see that he wasn’t inside with them. Another thing that was quite typical.
“I don’t suppose you can tell me why we’re here?” Levi turned to Erwin who also leaned close to look inside.
“Why don’t you look a little longer?” Erwin urged and Levi looked back inside. He did notice some things that were slightly different about the pub and as he looked even closer, he could see that this was not the present. Though he already knew that, he could see the age in the faces of his friends. If he had to guess, it was ten, fifteen, maybe twenty years down the line.
The bartender made their way to the table and refilled all their drinks with a ‘Merry Christmas’ and went back to the bar.
“Merry Christmas!” Erwin repeated back to them. His eyebrows scrunched down together as he thought about it and turned to his friends. “Perhaps we should invite Levi? It is his birthday after all.”
“Who?” Hange made a face before the name rang a bell in their head. “Ah right. That guy. Nah, he always says no anyway.”
“So true!” Miche added and Erwin shrugged, going back to his time with his friends.
Levi backed away from the window in disbelief that his friends could nearly forget his existence. It wasn’t that he alwayssaid no to hanging around with them, but he had to admit that it was quite often that he did it.
The man hanging outside near the entrance moved from his spot, bumping into Levi as he made his way past them. He quickly apologized and Levi caught the smallest corner of the man’s face as the moonlight shone slightly under his hat. Even though it was dark and his face was covered, it was unmistakable that this man was himself, twenty years in the future.
It was obvious that this was some sort of dramatization, but whatever it was, it was working. Levi felt awful. It was one thing to want to be alone. It was something entirely different being forgotten. This was not the future he wanted for himself and if that’s where he was headed, he knew he needed to do something different.
“Have you seen enough?” Erwin’s voice came from behind him and Levi looked up and nodded.
It was the first time Levi was returned to his bedroom that night feeling something other than anger or annoyance. He was sure that no one else would be visiting him that night and he was also sure he wasn’t going to be getting much rest. Instead, he laid in bed worrying about the future until he did fall asleep.
While he slept, Levi dreamt of a lot of things. Different swirls of what he’d seen with his friends guiding him moved through his mind and when he woke the next morning, he somehow had a clearer mind than when he fell asleep.
It was light outside. Something Levi had never woken up to since by that time in the morning, he was usually already in his office. He could hear laughter coming from outside and Hange’s voice shrieking followed by Miche’s loud laugh. The familiar sounds had Levi running to his window to look outside before he quickly got dressed and made his way downstairs.
Erwin was the first to notice him stepping outside into the snowy courtyard and Hange didn’t miss the opportunity to throw a hefty snowball straight into his face.
“Never turn your back to your enemy!” Hange screeched and ducked behind their handmade fort.
“Since when have I been your enemy?” Erwin laughed, wiping his red cheek and turning back to Levi. “Levi, care to join us?”
“He’s just going to say n—” Miche began.
“YES!” Levi shouted and everyone fell silent with shock.” Yes, I’ll join you.”
Everyone’s eyes were wide with shock as he walked closer to Erwin, clearly choosing his side in the snowball fight.
“We just throw it at each other?” He asked, picking up a ball of snow and forming it in his hands.
“That’s right.” Erwin nodded, a smile on his face.
Everyone was still frozen with shock because Levi joined the game that no one even noticed him wind up and throw the ball, it landing perfectly against Miche’s forehead which shook him out of his daze.
“Hey!” Miche complained and they all turned to see Levi laughing. Again, they were shocked until they heard Hange yelling.
“This is war!” Erwin and Levi ducked down to avoid being hit by the other team.
“Happy birthday, Levi.” Erwin said quietly with a smile. “I’m glad you joined us.”
“It’s Christmas.” Levi responded. They all got into their places, launching snowballs over the field and Levi smiled to himself as he hit each one of his friends with the largest snowball he could make.
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baby love — you accidentally carried a pregnancy test while walking back to your table. levi thought it was yours.
cruel — after an exhausting week, your lover helps you relax.
daylight — a sneak peak of how your man provides for your needs.
detergent — you were left alone with laundry duties and levi suddenly arrives.
fate’s choice — you felt at ease with the officer you only met at one party.
fools — two fools, dancing until the sun goes down.
hoodie — levi notices how his hoodies are gradually disappearing from his closet.
i (still) want you around — you found yourself in front of an old flame while having fun at a party, things start to get a little hot.
jasmine — in which, captain levi ackerman has found himself falling for a cadet.
kiss my wounds — levi has always been fond of your lips, touching his broken skin, after a gruesome battle.
le quattro stagioni — you and your lover drifted apart, only to meet again on one high school reunion.
lie to me — you chose to spend the 31st of december with your soon-to-be ex.
paradox pt. 1
paradox pt. 2
pragma — because of war’s rage, the captain loses his lover.
so close — on valentine’s day, levi realizes how you both are too close yet still so far.
steinway & sons — after an argument, levi only knew one place you’d go to: the piano.
strange — after a shitty week, you found yourself in the arms of your lover.
sunsets & mishaps — an argument heated in between you and levi, hours before an important expedition. he tries to make it up to you after it.
the only exception — for all your life, you have doubted love. until you started feeling for a person who has been close to you for years.
us, a paradigm — you found yourself in a situation with no labels.
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Dark content ahead!!! Mean dom!Levi. Reader insert (y/n). Power imbalance/power play (Levi is reader's superior). Degradation/name-calling. Impact play. Slight dacryphilia. Stripping of clothing. Slight humiliation, dumbification, and begging. Use of the words 'master', 'pet', and 'pup'. Slight restraints (tied wrists). Oral sex (male receiving). Some praising. Levi becomes softer afterwards. Unprotected sex. Levi hits you from the rear while you watch yourself in the mirror.
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A/N: Here's my one contribution to Kinktober 2022 oops!!! Please read this little thirst drabble before reading this!! Also, istg I probably will never write such kinks and darker content again, so enjoy while you can haha.
[211022] Cross posted to AO3!! Read it on AO3 here.
You knew you were going to get it good when you chose to wear this figure-hugging dress to work today. You knew you were in for some punishment for flaunting your body in front of him like that. You knew the consequences of seducing your superior, yet you decided to went on ahead with it anyway. You knew your superior was a man of his words, and Levi Ackerman was a man of his words indeed.
The rough kissing earlier stole all your breath away, the harshness of his hold on you fuelled your want and need for him instead. With your dress bunched up by your waist and your hands pressed on his glass dining table, your ass was high in the air as Levi admired your beauty from behind.
"I want you to look at yourself as you get fucked, you dirty little slut," was all Levi said as he pulled you up by your hair like a master holding his pet dog by the leash. Your mouth stammered, words unable to be formed. Levi pulled your hair harder and you yelped in pain.
"Y-yes, Mr Ackerman!" You answered breathlessly, feeling a tingle down your spine and a weird twist of excitement forming in your belly. Levi harshly pulled your panties down to your ankles, using two fingers to pick up your sleek.
"What a fucking slut, so wet for me when I haven't even done anything."
"Mr Ack—" a resounding smack! echoed across the room, your ass cheeks painfully stinging.
"I don't remember giving you permission to open your mouth, filthy girl." Levi's hand squeezed your reddened ass cheek before slapping it again, your knees nearly giving out from the force.
"What would others say if they see MY secretary dressing like a common whore, hmm?" Levi gave your ass another slap, causing you to bite your lip and wince in silence, "who are you trying to seduce? Erwin Smith from the accounting department? Mike Zacharias from HR? Or that bearded Zeke Jaeger in IT?" Levi slapped your ass again and you let out a cry, tears threatening to fall.
"N-no! Mr Ackerman, I-I wasn't trying—"
"Then own up. Who were you trying to seduce?" Levi pulled you up by your hair again, forcing you to arch your back. Your voice was stuck at your throat. Levi growled and spoke close to your ear once more, staring at your teary face from your reflection in the mirror.
"Who did you want to seduce?"
"Y-you, Mr Ackerman," you answered, fear and thrill bubbling in your gut. You knew better than to lie to your CEO. You would rather hear him shame you for being truthful than to punish you for lying. "I-I wanted t-to seduce you, sir." Levi kept quiet for a while.
"Hmm, for me?" Levi stroked your cheek with a sinister grin, wiping some of your tears away. "Did my pretty secretary dress up like a slut to seduce me?" Levi returned to his office desk, pushing over his leather chair. Sitting back down, Levi ordered you to turn around, and you obeyed.
"Strip." Levi simply said, right leg crossed above the other as he leaned back on his chair, folding his arms across his muscular chest. You thought you heard Levi wrongly.
"... Mr Ackerman, sir?"
"I said strip. Do you need to be told twice?" Levi frowned as he leaned forward, a look of displeasure on his face. You nervously gulped before reaching your hands to the back, gingerly pulling down your zipper and letting your dress pool by your ankles. You looked at Levi's polished leather shoes, feeling utterly embarrassed and humiliated standing in front of him almost bare except for your bra still protecting the little amount of modesty you had left. You tried to cover yourself up with your arms, but it was just a pointless attempt. Levi still look unsatisfied.
"Take off the bra."
"Mr A-Ackerman?" You looked up at your CEO at a loss for words. You toyed with your fingers, digging your nails into your palm. Pleading silently with your eyes, your lower lip quivered when Levi spoke, tears threatening to spill.
"Are you disobeying orders now? I said, take off the bra." Levi's voice dropped an octave lower and you hurriedly reached back to your bra, unclasping it and dropping it on the floor. Now completely bare, you desperately wanted to hide somewhere, the shame and humiliation consuming you whole. You're naked and fully under Levi's control, the cold air from the aircon reminding you of your situation, the queasy feeling in your stomach and the wild beating of your heart making everything worse. Levi smirked and took a good look at you from head to toe, as though he was admiring a painting up for sale.
"Now, you need to be punished for prancing around my office building in such sexy clothing, don't you think?" You dumbly nodded, afraid of ruffling his feathers.
"Answer me."
"Y-yes, Mr Ackerman." A tear escaped your eye. Levi smiled, although it didn't reach his eyes at all.
"Naughty girls should be punished, am I correct?" Levi remained on his chair as he signalled you to turn around using his finger, gesturing for you to bend forward and lean on the glass table once more.
"Yes, Mr Ackerman."
"So, how should I punish you, hmm?" Levi rolled himself forward in his chair, looking at your reflection in the mirror. Your expression blank, gazing at Levi through the mirror. You knew the correct answer was to let him do whatever he wanted with you. At work, you took orders from Levi well, executing your role as his secretary perfectly. Now, you were a mere play thing for him and even though you were afraid of what's to come, heat blossomed throughout your body at the idea of being Levi's toy. Thrilled, even, when you imagined him manhandling you, forcing you into submission. The lingering sting on your ass cheeks was only the appetiser. Maybe you were meant to be obedient and to take orders from him and him only.
"Punish me however you like, Mr Ackerman," your voice sounded stronger with conviction, your eyes still looking straight at Levi through the mirror. This time, Levi smiled a genuine smile, laugh lines appearing on his face.
"What a horny slut, waiting to be punished like the naughty girl you are." With that, Levi made you seat on the glass table while he went looking for his necktie. Walking back to you with the black tie in his hand, Levi grabbed your hands behind your back and tied your wrists together. You shivered, unsure from the cold or from fear, or maybe it was from the excitement of not knowing what to expect.
Facing you, Levi unbuckled his belt and unzipped his pants, pulling down his black boxer briefs to reveal his erect cock standing proudly. A weird sense of pride erupted in you as you saw him stroking himself, pleased to know you were the one who made him like this. You licked your lips and this gesture didn't go unmissed by Levi who towered over you.
"Oh? Is my little pet hungry for her master's cock?" Levi stood before you and harshly shoved your mouth down on him without warning, grabbing fistfuls of your hair as he guided you on his cock, revelling in the warmth of your mouth around him. Levi closed his eyes and let out a satisfied moan, now using one hand to stroke your cheek while the other hand still had control over your head.
"You're mine, understand?"
It was hard for you to breathe, your saliva was dripping from the corner of your mouth yet you could not clean it up. Levi was moving you faster than you liked and you could not keep up. Moaning and choking on your spit and Levi's length in you, you tried to hint him, beg him to slow down, to show you mercy. Tears started forming in your eyes once more and you looked up at Levi while groaning and sobbing, hoping he would take pity on you and let you breathe.
As Levi continued shoving you harshly down on him, you gagged and started coughing. Levi's eyes flew open and stared down at you teary-eyed and drooling.
"Look at you, so utterly messy. Am I going too fast?" Levi's words were harsh, yet the way he held onto your cheek and caressed your skin was gentle, as though he was really worried about hurting you. You didn't dare reply, staying silent and letting Levi wipe your tears. Levi took a piece of tissue from his glass table and wiped your drool, throwing it on the ground.
"You look so pretty like this, little pet, makes me feel sorry for treating you so harshly." Levi bent down and kissed your forehead while you nearly melted under his touch. Just a while ago he was like a feral beast dominating over you, and now he's being so kind. He was so confusing. Does he really mean it or... "Do you want me to go slower?"
There was a tone of mocking in Levi's question which you caught on immediately. You looked back up at Levi wide-eyed, shaking your head.
"N-no, Mr Ackerman sir, I've been naughty, and I d-deserve to be punished." You replied, feeling his warm hand gently caressing your cheek once more. Levi looked at you before you noticed his frown slightly falter, his gaze on you somehow becoming kinder. Instead of harshly shoving your throat on his length, Levi cupped your head and guided you slowly, allowing you to use your tongue to gently lick the underside of his shaft and grazing the top with your teeth.
"I think you've gotten the punishment you deserve already, pretty thing." As you slowly went down on Levi's cock, he closed his eyes and gasped in pleasure, hot breaths escaping his luscious lips as you licked and sucked. It pleased you to see him enjoying himself with just your tongue. You wanted to make him happy, wanted to hear him praise you for doing good. You wanted him to reward you for listening to him well, you wanted more than just tasting his cock in your mouth. You closed your eyes as you sucked on his tip, hearing him grunt and feeling his knees buckle when you slid your tongue over his slit.
"Mmm, Mr Ackerman," you hummed in delight as you continued licking his shaft like a lollipop, "do you like it when I do this?" You teased him by sucking his tip again, watching him bite his lip and trying to control his moans.
"Tell me sir, do you feel good?" You licked the underside of his tip, watching Levi's face screw up with pleasure. Levi's grip on your head was slacking, his head thrown back and his knees about to give way.
"F-fuck, yes! Right th—" Levi let out a particularly loud moan when you sucked on his tip before going back down his length again. You groaned and licked the pearly beads of precum, saliva dripping past your lips.
"I want to make you feel good, Mr Ackerman, please?" You looked up at him once more with your hollowed cheeks and puffy lips, your eyes slightly reddened from your tears earlier and your perspiration casting a faint glow on your skin. Levi looked down at you and nearly came at the sight of you looking so pitiful yet beautiful while his cock was deep in your throat. Levi didn't say anything; he just supported your head down on his length, letting you take your time. You purred happily, contented with his gentler touches and slower pace.
"Fuck! Faster, mhmm, fuck, go fast—" Levi's breathing started becoming erratic, his hip thrusting into your aching jaw. You gladly complied and sucked on his length faster, not forgetting to make lewd noises every time your nose reached his neatly trimmed pubic hairs. "Yes—ahhhh, y-yes! Fuck yes! Shit, th—" inaudible words left Levi's lips as a final thrust in your mouth made him weak, holding your head down on his cock as hot semen flowed down your throat. You closed your eyes and hummed, savouring the taste of his slightly sweet semen.
Even after Levi emptied his load into you and you felt his cock slightly soften, you dared not move. Your jaw hung loose as Levi stepped away from you, looking at your dishevelled look. Some of Levi's cum was still in your mouth, you did not know if he would allow you swallow. You looked at Levi like a sad puppy being denied a treat.
"You can swallow it, my girl." At his command, you gulped down Levi's cum and looked at him expectantly, unsure of what he would do to you next. Maybe he will finally shove his cock into your aching and soaked pussy.
"Tch. You take my orders well, but you take my cock even better. What a good girl." Levi got you to stand up, seeing a tiny pool of sleek gathered on the spot where you were seating earlier. Levi smiled at you once more, fingers toying with your soaked entrance. You winced at the sudden intrusion, biting your lips in order to stop yourself from moaning.
"Does my good girl want her reward for taking her CEO's cock so well, hmm?" Once more, you dare not answer. Levi was knuckle-deep into your cunt, pumping his digits and enjoying the sound of your squelching noises and soft whimpering. "Go on, answer me. Do you want your reward?"
You shyly looked up at Levi, face hot from the close contact and the caring soft tone Levi was using towards you. You were getting lost in Levi's eyes the more you stared, you felt yourself falling for Levi. Were they feelings of admiration, or out of fear? You were confused, you didn't know how to answer him. Levi swiped your messy hair to a side, kissing you hard and fast with his fingers plunged deep in you. Using his free hand to tug your hair once more, Levi's kisses started getting more aggressive as time passed, latching on your neck to leave his bite marks.
"Tell me now, before I change my mind." You stuttered, not wanting to anger him once more.
"Yes, Mr Ackerman. P-please," you begged, feeling Levi's grip on your hair loosen. Levi reached back and untied his necktie, massaging your wrists and gently blowing on them.
"Good girl. Lean on the table. Don't forget what I told you earlier." You nodded, leaning on the table with your hands supporting your weight as you stuck your ass high up in the air, level with Levi's groin.
"I want you to look at yourself as you get fucked, you dirty little slut," Levi's words from the very start echoed in your mind. Levi stroked himself until his cock was standing at attention again before plunging straight into your soaking cunt without warning, letting out a loud groan when he was fully in you.
"So fucking wet for me, sucking my cock in so snugly," Levi gasped as he squeezed your ass cheeks, slapping them and admiring the reddened palm prints. You wanted to cry out loud at how fantastic you felt, and how submissive you looked right now with Levi holding on to your hips and controlling your every move while you stared helplessly at your own reflection in the mirror.
Levi continued ramming himself balls deep into your soaking cunt, kneading and slapping the meat of your thighs and ass, grunting and breathing out loud in pleasure. Your breasts jiggled with Levi's every move and your back arched with every thrust. The large office felt a few degrees hotter and your mind was starting to lose control.
"M-Mr Ackerman, s-sir," you whined, looking at him through the mirror. Levi paid no attention to you as he fingered your clit, driving your senses crazy and your blood pumping in your veins. Levi threw his unbuttoned shirt away, leaning forward on your sweaty back. Roughly grabbing and massaging your breast, you licked your lips once more, feeling your orgasm about to come soon. The sound of skin slapping skin was music to your ears, fuelling your dirty desire to cum on your CEO's cock.
"Mr A-Ackerman, I-I'm—" you tried getting his attention once more. You wanted, no, needed his permission to cum, to feel good, to cry out loud, to hear his praises. "S-sir," you begged, desperately asking for Levi's attention, whimpering and crying for permission. Levi stared at you from the mirror, knowing what you wanted and needed.
"Go on, cum for me, my little bitch." Levi's eyes were locked onto yours as he spoke close to your ear once more, feeling the goosebumps dance across your skin. At his command, your entire body vibrated and your pussy contracted on Levi hard, soon drawing long pants from Levi. Levi rammed harder into you while you were still enjoying the euphoria from your orgasm and he grabbed onto your hips, feeling himself ejaculate into your warm cavern. You moaned in pleasure, contented to feel Levi's warm cum filling your hole.
Pulling himself out of you, you quickly plugged your fingers into your cum-filled entrance, not wanting to dirty Levi's expensive carpeted floor. Dry cleaning would cost too much, and people might question the reason why. Levi cocked his eyebrow at your response, grinning as he shoved a few pieces of tissue into your hands.
"Here, clean yourself up, y/n," you nearly fell on your knees hearing Levi calling your name so casually. He never called you by your name before, it was always by your surname, or calling you 'brat'. You gladly accepted the tissues, carefully wiping yourself clean. You looked at your mixed juices on the tissue and sighed dejectedly, a little disappointed that Levi's cum had to go to waste.
"Is my little pup disappointed that her hole isn't filled?" Levi smirked, zipping up his pants after cleaning himself up. Levi walked over to a closet on the other side of his office and took out a light grey button shirt, putting it on while you collected the discarded pieces of tissue to throw them into the bin. You felt a slight embarrassment creeping up on you, not wanting to admit that whatever Levi said was right.
"You had your fill just now, haven't you? Your pretty mouth took everything in." Levi passed you your clothes and undergarments and went back to his chair, clearing his emails as though whatever happened earlier didn't occur at all. You quickly put on your clothes.
"Yes, Mr Ackerman." You replied in a tiny voice, unsure of how everything was going to be from now on. You've heard lots of stories of secretaries hooking up with their bosses, and you've also heard a fair share of them getting sacked out of a sudden. You did not know what your fate will be under the hands of Levi Ackerman. Levi suddenly took out a black card from his leather wallet and passed it to you and you took it with shaky hands.
"Get my blazer and shirt dry cleaned. I want them back here tomorrow."
"Yes, Mr Ackerman." You picked up the two articles of clothing he mentioned, walking back to his desk awaiting further instructions. Levi stood up and walked over to you, yanking his blazer out of your hands to wrap them around your shoulders.
"Go get yourself some new dresses, brat. I don't want my woman to be walking around my building looking like a slut." Levi nonchalantly walked back to his seat, paying no attention to you once more. 'My woman', you thought to yourself, a little smile appearing on your face.
"Yes, Mr Ackerman." You resisted the urge to giggle and instead, turned around and left Levi's office clutching his blazer and taking a sniff of his sweaty shirt. Maybe something good might come out from hooking up with your boss after all.
A/N: When I say I need to touch grass after writing this, I REALLY need to touch grass and drink water lol.
I hope you all liked this one!!! This is my second attempt in writing dark content and omg, istg I'll never write it ever again 🏃♀️ 🏃♀️ 🏃♀️ let me know how you all think of this!!
Warnings: Smut, minors and ageless blogs dni. Mentions of virginity and deflowering. Jealousy and insecurity from reader. Unprotected sex, first time, pull out game from Levi.
Word count: 5.9k
A/N: We are down to the single-digit countdown! It's D-9 to Levi's birthday!!! This idea had been with me for the longest time ever, and I'm so happy to finally be able to share it with you all!
Disclaimer: Reader is a virgin in this story. However, I did not specify if Levi is one too, so it is up to your interpretation whether or not you see Levi as a virgin in this.
[10/01/2022] Cross posted to AO3!! Read it here!
Summary: When you and Levi got into an argument about your relationship, and one thing lead to another.
“We need to talk. Come over to my office at 10:30 pm sharp, I do not accept ‘no’ as an answer.”
— Levi
You crushed up the slip of paper in your hands, feeling your anger and frustration increasing tenfold. Looking at your pocket watch, you still had a little over an hour before you had to meet with your squad leader. You decided to take a bath before meeting him, wondering just what the fuck Levi wanted with you after giving you the cold shoulder for the past week.
Unbeknown to others, you and Levi had actually been in a relationship for the past one and a half years. He had noticed your stellar performance when you were new in the Survey Corps on your first expedition out of the walls and took a liking to you. Levi was the one who asked you out first, and the both of you became an item after two months.
Six months later, Levi requested for you to be placed in his squad, and Commander Erwin approved his decision without a doubt; your precision with killing titans was something unmissed by Erwin as well. Levi, of course, had selfish reasons to put you in his squad. He couldn’t stand being apart from you for too long, he needed you by his side. He needed to be there with you while fighting the titans, he couldn’t stand second-guessing whether or not you’re still alive. Humanity's Strongest was only an ordinary man in front of you.
However, you had to keep your relationship a secret. Recruits aren’t allowed to date others in the same squad, and Levi Heichou was no exception. Couples had to declare their relationship and be placed in separate squads to prevent conflict of interests. As such, the both of you had to maintain the professional superior-subordinate relationship around others. You had to bear with all the flirtatious looks the female recruits gave to Levi whenever he walked past; the way they worship Levi like he was some kind of god, the way they all craved to be near him, or get his attention. You hated how everyone looked at Levi like he was a piece of meat for sale. You were pissed. You hated that ugly jealous monster growing bigger and bigger deep inside you. You wanted to scream and tell everyone that Levi was yours and yours only, but you can’t. You hated how possessive of Levi you have become.
And the one you hated most was Petra Ral, the only other female in Levi Squad alongside you. It was so painfully obvious that Petra had feelings for Levi; the way her eyes would follow wherever he went, the way she always called him ‘heichou’ in that disgustingly fake tone, and her overly pretentious behaviour around Levi. However, Levi seems to think differently.
“You think too much, brat. Petra’s just being nice,” Levi would always say the same thing whenever you brought up Petra’s behaviour. You were in his office after hours, the only time you both could meet without the scrutiny of the others. You were sitting on Levi’s lap, complaining to him about the flirtatious look Petra gave him earlier during dinner. Levi had an arm around your waist while writing his report on the recent expedition.
“Being nice, my ass,” you said scornfully. She wasn’t this gentle and nice and sweet around Gunther, Eld, and Oruo, was she? Petra’s just trying her luck to get Levi in her pants and you know it.
“Levi, she's thirsting for you, I know it! Her behaviour around you says everything! She’s not a day one recruit, why the fuck would she ask you to correct her grip on the controllers? Why the fuck did she pretend to ‘lose her pocket watch’ and ask you for the time when Oruo was next to her with his watch? And Petra’s not the only one, Levi. Open your eyes and look around you! Why the fu–”
“Enough,” Levi said coldly, eyes focused on writing his report. “If you have nothing constructive to say, I suggest you leave. I have work to do.” You gasped in disbelief.
“How dare you say something like that to me, Levi. I’m here feeling insecure as fuck and telling you how I feel, and you’re telling me to leave because of work?” You stood up from his lap.
“You know how I feel about Petra, and every other female recruit out there. This isn’t the first time I'm talking to you about this. Aren’t you going to at least put in the effort to listen to what I say? Or care about how I feel?” You were on the verge of tears, your frustration with Levi about to hit your threshold. It was already so tough trying to hide your relationship with him, and he’s not making it easier with that nonchalant attitude of his. Petra’s behaviour around Levi was your constant source of insecurity, and Levi never took that into consideration and tried distancing himself from her. Despite your outburst, Levi treated you invisible, and continued writing, flipping a page as he continued.
You hated arguing with Levi. With the others, he was never hesitant and always said what was on his mind. He was rude and often brutal, yet you know what he said will always be the truth. But with you, he’s silent and always letting you have the last word. You hated how avoidant he was whenever you both argued. You needed answers; a solution to the issue, but Levi never gave it to you.
“I’m talking to you, Levi, the least you can do is to look at me!” You shrieked and banged his table. Levi raised his eyebrow but continued to ignore you.
You couldn't take it any longer.
“I’m going to declare our relationship to Commander Erwin tomorrow. If being in a relationship with you is so improper that we have to keep pretending there’s nothing going on between us, then I would rather we be separated. At least we get to behave like how a normal couple should,” you turned and stormed out of his office without a thought. Levi growled and grabbed your arm.
“Don't you dare brat. This is not a child’s play,” Levi’s eyes were void of emotion. You tried prying his fingers off your arm, but his grip was tight. “Let me go, Levi.” You continued wiggling your arm, but Levi wasn’t letting go. On the contrary, his grip tightened.
“If you’re going to do something as idiotic as to declare our relationship, then I’m not letting go. Don’t you understand the implications behind this?” Levi’s voice dropped an octave lower. He was pissed, but you couldn’t care less.
“NO I DON’T! Is our relationship that shameful? Why the fuck must we hide it?! We can’t hold hands in public, we can’t even go on dates like how any other couple would, and I have to watch you behave like you’re single? Do I have to tolerate Petra and everyone else flirting with you? I had enough, Levi! If you’re not going to do something about it, then I will!” You shouted at Levi, using all your might to break free from his grip. Levi was not budging.
“If you tell Erwin anything, I’ll break up with you this very instance,” Levi let go of your arm and crossed his arms in front of his chest. “If you have nothing else to say, I suggest you leave, y/n,” Levi turned and went back to his table, continuing on with his report. His insensitive demeanour was the last straw, and the tears you tried so hard to hold back came falling without control.
Without looking back, you ran out of his office with a huge pang in your chest. This was the biggest argument you ever had with Levi, and it broke your heart. You let your insecurity get the better of you, you couldn’t control your temper and lash out at Levi. Your feelings were unappreciated, and you felt so misunderstood. Why can’t Levi understand that you’re not being sensitive, and you're not imagining things?
Ever since that outburst in his office, Levi avoided you like the plague. You hardly see him anymore, and your other squadmates couldn’t help but notice the awkward tension between you both.
“Are you and Levi Heichou alright, y/n?” Eld asked you in the kitchens. You both were assigned cleaning duties for the week and you were sweeping the floor while Eld was scrubbing the counters. “We’re fine, Eld-san, Heichou’s just being an ass,” you answered half-heartedly.
“Don't take his words to heart, eh? You know how insensitive he is when he scolds people,” Eld attempts to cheer you up. Tch, Levi’s insensitivity was the exact reason why you both even argued in the first place. You gave Eld a small smile. Eld finished scrubbing the counters and retreated back to his bunk for the night. As he left, you sighed and squatted next to the sink. It’s been a week since you talked to Levi.
You missed him.
You missed hearing his voice.
You missed hooking pinkies whenever you both walked near each other; those little touches that made your sensory system go overload, and the deliberate eye contact he would give you alongside that smirk on his face when he caught you staring at him.
You missed the late-night rendezvous in his office where you both would get really frisky; you sucking him dry under his desk while he tangled his fingers in your hair, or him experimenting with the number of times you reached your orgasm with just his fingers.
Although your relationship with Levi had gotten physical, you both never crossed the line. Levi wanted to take it slow; he didn’t want you to think that he's dating you for sex. You were comfortable with how things were going with Levi too. However, you couldn't help but wonder when that day will come. On occasions when things got heated and you wanted to have a taste of more, something in the back of your mind told you to stop. You were inexperienced and Levi was your first boyfriend. What if you didn't know what to do? What if you suck in bed and Levi hates you for that? What if Levi is experienced, and compared you to his previous lovers?
You slapped your cheeks. This wasn’t the time to think about losing your virginity. You and Levi were in a cold war. Sex was the last thing on your mind right now. As you stood up, you found a torn piece of parchment hidden in the bag of potatoes under the sink. Picking it up, you recognised that slightly cursive handwriting. It was Levi’s. Opening up the parchment, it only contained a few words:
“We need to talk. Come over to my office at 10:30 pm sharp, I do not accept ‘no’ as an answer.”
— Levi
You snorted in disbelief. This is all he could say after ignoring me for a week? You wanted to burn the parchment and pretend you didn’t see it. He’s probably going to say something mean, what’s the point of going?
However, at ten-twenty sharp, you wore a shawl over your nightgown and left your bunk towards Levi’s office, feeling butterflies in your stomach. Is he going to break up with me? Am I going to be transferred out of Levi Squad? You kept repeating the negative thoughts in your head. Although you and Levi had dated for some time already, you never really understood what was on his mind sometimes, and today was no exception. Before you knew it, you reached the door of Levi’s office. Hesitantly, you knocked thrice before entering.
Levi’s office was the same as you remembered; spotless and empty with a hint of tea lingering in the air. Levi was seated on his chair by the table, staring at you with his head resting on his palm. You stood by the door, unsure of what to do. Is he meeting you as Levi Heichou, leader of the Levi Squad, or is he meeting you as Levi, your boyfriend?
“What do you want from me at ten-thirty at night, Levi Heichou?” You broke the silence. “Aren’t you a busy man?”
“Shut up and sit down, brat,” Levi answered, gesturing to his couch with his head. Oh, so it's Levi then. You felt the wires holding your patience snap.
“What the fuck? After one whole week of ignoring me, the first thing you tell me is to shut up and sit down?” You let out an incredulous gasp and crossed your arms, refusing to sit down.
“Are you listening to me? I told you we need to talk,” Levi walked over to the couch and sat down.
“I was under the impression that Levi Heichou wanted to see me.”
“Are you going to stop being a brat, or should I throw you out of my office instead?”
“Fine,” you walked over to Levi's couch and plopped yourself down next to him. Your arms were still crossed tightly in front of your chest, and you refused to look at Levi. Levi spoke after moments of silence.
“Hey, look at me,” Levi's voice was surprisingly gentle, and he gave your arm a tap.
“Don’t touch me Heichou, who knows how many girls you touched with those hands before I came over,” you shifted slightly further away from him. You were throwing a tantrum, but you couldn’t help it.
“I touched no one,” Levi forcefully grabbed you and turned you around, trying to pull you to sit on his lap like how you normally do. You tried your hardest to resist, but you couldn’t win. You ended up straddling Levi’s waist, while Levi had his arms around you.
“I'm sorry for ignoring you, it was wrong of me,” Levi said earnestly as he handed you a pretty little box with a ribbon on top. You looked at him quizzically and he told you to open it. It was a box of your favourite chocolate.
“Are you trying to bribe me with food, Heichou?” Your voice was full of displeasure, yet you took a piece of chocolate and started munching.
“I'm not bribing you. I’m apologising. And why are you calling me ‘Heichou’ non-stop you shitty brat?” Levi glared at you.
“Petra loves calling you that, so why can’t I? Unless you’re telling me you prefer hearing Petra calling you ‘Heichou’ in that fake sweet voice of hers than mine,” you said as you took another piece. Levi was looking at you expectantly, waiting for you to feed him the chocolate, but it wasn’t happening.
“Shut up about Petra. I didn’t ask you here to quarrel with you.”
“Then why am I here? You said you wanted to talk right? So what do you have to say?”
“I wanted to apologise. I’m sorry for ignoring you. I knew you were right about those girls. I just didn’t want to admit it. I knew I shouldn’t let them get so close to me, but I didn’t want to risk exposing our relationship.”
“Well, that’s a start. For once you actually agree with me. Is that all you wanna say?” You said between mouthfuls of chocolate. Your fingers were sticky but you didn’t have your handkerchief. As such, you sucked and licked the melted chocolate off your fingers. Levi took a nervous gulp. He was getting turned on, and the smeared bits of chocolate on your lips weren’t helping. He wanted to be the one to lick chocolate off your fingers instead.
“I’m sorry, okay, forgive me? Please?” Levi held you closer to him and tightened his arms around your waist. You could feel his warm breath on your lips and felt him staring at them. Was there something on your lips?
“I’ll forgive you if you promise to always listen to me, especially when it comes to those thirsty hyenas,” you took the last piece of chocolate with your teeth and held it there. Levi gingerly reached forward and took a bite of the chocolate, his lips briefly touching yours. The contact sent electricity jolting right through you. It’s been a week since you two had any form of physical contact after all.
“I promise,” Levi replied, and without a pause, he captured your lips with his own.
The kiss was soft and slow as Levi took his time tasting you. Your lips were sticky, but you didn’t mind. The kiss was sweet and tasty, with melted chocolate coming in between. You snaked your hands up his chest and draped them over his shoulder, and you felt a tear escape your eye. You missed Levi so much, a kiss just wasn’t enough. Levi broke the kiss after tasting something salty.
“Why are you crying?” He softly said while kissing your eyelids.
“I... I just missed you so much,” you broke down in front of Levi and covered your face in embarrassment. “You didn’t speak to me for a week, and I felt so miserable. I couldn’t confide in anyone because I don’t want to expose us. It's been so hard…” Levi removed your hands and tilted your chin up. You looked at him through your teary eyes. “I cried myself to sleep so often, I was so afraid Petra would hear me. I missed you so much but you ignored me, and—”
“I'm so sorry for hurting you. I’ll make it up to you, okay?” Levi smiled and ruffled your hair. You wiped the tears with the back of your hands and nodded as you crashed your lips onto Levi’s.
The kiss was different from before; it was hungry and urgent. You wanted to get back a week’s worth of kisses and touches. You never felt so needy for Levi before. You bit his lower lip, and as Levi gasped, you slid your tongue into his warm cavern, engaging him in a battle for dominance.
Levi tightened his arms around you, pulling you even closer as you leaned against his firm chest. As you arched your back, Levi’s hands felt every curve and crevice of your body. Your hands found their way to Levi’s shirt and you removed the buttons one by one. Breaking the kiss, your tongue danced across his jaw and you harshly bit his neck, leaving a mark you know damn well will turn into a bruise tomorrow.
“This is for ignoring me,” you growled after sucking on the same spot you had bitten. “And this,” you said as you bit down on another spot on his neck, “is for failing to admit that I was right about Petra thirsting for you.”
As you continued marking Levi, his brows furrowed while he kept squirming on the couch. Levi was extremely sensitive around his neck after all, and this was the perfect comeback to his shitty treatment towards you. When you bit hard on a particularly sensitive spot near his earlobe, Levi let out a soft moan.
“You’re not allowed to wear your cravat tomorrow, you hear me?” You tapped his cheek, ordering him. With a dazed look, Levi nodded as you removed his shirt, roaming your fingers across his toned body. Oh, how much you missed this feeling, the warmth radiating from his body, the goosebumps rising where your fingers previously touched. Levi's hands followed suit and slowly removed your layers of clothing, leaving you in your lingerie. As your clothes piled up on the floor, Levi lowered you gently onto his couch as his lips continued assaulting yours, his fingers skilfully unclasped the hooks of your bra which joined the rest of your clothes.
“So beautiful, my love,” Levi marvelled upon seeing your heaving chest, dragging his lips across your jawline, past your clavicles and down your cleavage, before engulfing your nipple, already hard from his kisses and touches. You let out a breathy moan, rubbing your thighs together in a poor attempt to dissipate the heat gathering around your core. One knee accidentally brushed against Levi’s crotch and he let out a hiss, staring back at you with a devilish glint in his eyes. As you tangled your fingers in Levi’s dark locks, Levi’s free hand played with your soft mound while the other found its way to the waistband of your underwear, pulling it down with one smooth motion.
“Ahh, Levi…” your remaining sentence never found its way out as Levi silenced you with a flick of his tongue against your soaking core. His firm grip on your hip was grounding you, preventing you from thrusting into his mouth as he took you on a trip to paradise.
“Shh, my love,” Levi briefly disconnected from your dripping cunt, eyes meeting your hazy ones. “I said I’ll make it up to you. So let me make you feel good, alright?” He gave you another smile before bringing himself back to your sex, giving your lower lips the attention they lacked for the past week. Levi took his time with you, slowly licking from the bottom upwards, gently sucking on your clit as though there was no rush for time.
“Oh y-yeah, j-just like tha—” your pull on Levi’s hair got stronger as the pleasure you felt got higher. Between licks, Levi inserted a finger knuckle deep into your core, eliciting a dirty moan from you once more. You were a melting mess. The knot in your stomach was tightening, your brows were furrowed, and sweat dotted your forehead. Yet, you couldn’t help but smile; Levi always knows what to do to bring you closer to your high. Once you got used to the sensation, Levi inserted another finger, pumping a steady rhythm while massaging your breast. He loved seeing you so needy, squirming around on the couch with a look of desperation plastered on your face. He loved hearing you mutter his name, with your messy hair and sweaty body on display.
“L-levi, I’m... gonna…” you could feel your release approaching, bubbling deep within you waiting to erupt. You clamped your thighs around Levi hard, and he didn’t mind. Levi’s fingers did a final curl before you jerked violently, letting out another cry while gripping the soft covers of the couch to steady yourself. Levi extracted his fingers and licked your slick off, making sure that you were watching him do it. Seeing an obvious bulge in his pants, you let out a laugh before pulling Levi down to hug him while slowly recovering from your orgasm. Levi returned your smile and leaned his forehead against yours, staring deep into your beautiful irises.
“Hey,”
“Hmm?”
“... Do you want to do it… for the first time?” Levi’s eyes were locked on yours, sensing any hint of discomfort. Your eyes briefly flicked to his lips before returning to his mesmerising grey ones. Was today the day it finally happened? Were you sure you really wanted this? Did Levi really want this too, or is he just trying to make up for the past two weeks, making up for lost time?
For once you felt afraid of the unknown, unsure of what to expect. Does it hurt? Does it really feel as good as what people described it to be? However, you know you could trust Levi with your life. He would never hurt you, and never betray your trust. You were willing to go beyond the depths of hell for this man. Contemplating your choices, you knew the answer was just waiting to be said.
“Yes,” locking eyes with Levi, you gave him a nervous smile. As if on cue, Levi snapped up and pulled down his pants and underwear, throwing them on the floor. Your hand went forward and tugged on his erection hard. Heat crept up your cheeks, and you wondered why you were feeling nervous all of a sudden. You’ve seen each other naked countless times, why would this be any different?
Levi’s erection prodded your wet entrance and you squirmed at the foreign feeling. His eyes were locked on to yours, as though he not only wanted your bodies to connect but also both your souls. Slowly, Levi entered you bit by bit at the slowest pace he could manage. You wanted to scream and pull your hair. You've heard people saying that the first time would hurt, but you never expected it to be this bad.
“A-ah! OW!” You let out a shout as you felt like your cunt was being ripped apart. “Oi, shh, brat, do you want to wake the entire barrack up?” Levi groaned as well while he tried to distract you by kissing your sensitive spots. All he could think and try to focus on was how tight you were, and how you were squeezing every inch of him, sucking him whole. It felt exhilarating, the way your walls contracted around him. It felt good, too good, better than having your hand wrapped around his shaft, better than your mouth sucking him deep. Your warm cavern fit him perfectly, as though you were made for him. Levi felt like the happiest man in the world.
At long last, Levi was buried deep in you, he let out a grunt, feeling a strong urge to move. On the contrary, all you felt was still a stinging sensation and a burning rage.
Why the fuck do people enjoy sex when it hurt this bad?
You breathed in and out, trying to get used to being stretched this full. Levi looked down at you while you grimaced. Was he doing something wrong? Why do you look like you're in pain the whole time? Do you not enjoy it as much as he did?
“O-oi, y/n, can I move?” Levi spoke after a while. Your brows were still furrowed and your fists still tugged at the covers. Maybe you were too tense. You tried to relax, your back no longer arched but is now levelled with the couch. Strangely, it felt better. Your fingers loosened, your forehead no longer in a frown.
“Y-yeah, but slo-slowly,” you managed to mutter. Levi bent closer to you and placed his forearms by your head. Moving his hip, he slid out slowly, afraid of hurting you. You groaned at the weird feeling once more, and you furrowed your brows again. Seeing your pained expression, Levi kissed your brows each time he moved, trying to change the angle he entered you. You weren’t used to the stretch yet, but it gradually got better. Levi maintained his speed, keeping his eyes on you and making sure you weren’t in pain. As Levi kept on sliding in and out of your tight cunt, the pain and stretch were slowly overtaken by an odd sense of pleasure instead.
“A-ah, Levi—” you moaned, feeling a familiar tingle down south. “Oh?” Levi whispered and sat upright and continued thrusting steadily in you. Slowly but surely, you were beginning to feel your toes curl and your stomach tighten. Levi was feeling it too. You were unknowingly contracting and relaxing your cunt the whole time and although it was a slow buildup, Levi was definitely on Cloud Nine. Levi let out short moans of delight, grunting and panting each time he felt your walls contract.
“Oh my god Levi, wh—” you inhaled sharply as Levi’s dick kept rubbing against a particular spot. The more he rubbed, the better you felt. Your groans of pain became cries of pleasure, your hands that were clutching the couch covers started toying with your own breasts. Sensing you were no longer feeling discomfort, Levi gave you a helping hand by sucking on your nipple while his hip gradually went faster. You felt ecstatic, very stimulated, and eventually became a whiny mess.
Incoherent mumbling started spewing from your lips as you felt your stomach tighten even further, the itch in your cunt becoming stronger and stronger. You started rocking your hip, trying to match up to Levi’s pace. With the added motion, Levi gasped while sitting upright again, his hands grabbing and playing with your chest. Your moans became louder, you were embarrassed at how you sounded. You covered your mouth, trying your best to muffle your voice, afraid that someone really might hear something.
“Levi, I-I’m, oh my god—” you felt your stomach contract, your walls clamping down harder on Levi. You were so close, just a bit more and you know it. Levi continued to thrust deep into you, maintaining his pace to make you feel every inch of him. With one final thrust, you came undone, clamping Levi as you rode out your second orgasm of the night and your hip continued grinding down on Levi. Feeling your walls pulsate around his dick further drove his feral senses and with a harsh thrust, Levi let out a moan before quickly pulling out, hot sticky semen spilling out seconds later on your stomach, with a little drop flying to your cheek.
The both of you tried to catch your breath and you licked that droplet of Levi’s cum off your cheek. As you two slowly came down from your high, you looked at each other again and simultaneously you both broke out in a smile. Interlocking your arms around Levi’s neck, you pulled him down for a kiss, feeling your breathing slowly coming back to normal. Levi broke the kiss and leaned his forehead on yours again, arching his body to make sure he’s not in contact with the cum on your stomach. Looking into your eyes, he gave you another gentle kiss before stroking your cheek.
“You feeling okay?” You smiled and nodded, biting your lower lip. “Never felt better. You?”
“I’m fine. Relieved, actually,” Levi chuckled. “You have no idea how long I’ve been waiting for today.”
“Me too, actually. There were so many times I wanted to go further, but I was afraid it wasn't what you wanted.”
Silence soon took over, the only sound heard was the crickets outside and the gentle crackling of the fire. So what’s going to happen now that you both finally did have sex? Did Levi like it? Was it up to his expectations?
“Did you… feel good?” You questioned Levi, embarrassed to look him in the eye. It was your first time after all. You bit your lip again. Levi tch-ed and kissed your forehead. Lifting you up in a bridal carry, Levi slowly walked to the bathroom joined to his office. Sitting you on top of the toilet bowl, Levi took a towel from his cabinet and wetted it before wiping his cum off your stomach.
“I did, you silly girl, stop worrying,” Levi ruffled your hair before preparing the bath. As you watched Levi, you only had one thought in mind, something you needed to say out loud.
“I love you.” You blurted as Levi lowered you into the bathtub. Levi was caught by surprise, he wasn’t expecting that from you. Grabbing your hand, Levi looked at you in earnest. He took a deep breath before answering you.
“I love you too, okay? So trust me.” Levi gave you a small smile. “I'm serious about our relationship, and absolutely serious about you. I will never have feelings for any other woman. Every part of me belongs to you. My body, my heart, my soul. And for fuck’s sake, even my dick belongs to you.” You giggled hearing Levi's last sentence and got into the bath, pulling him in together with you. Once you were done, you both left the bathroom and dried yourselves up. Picking up your clothes from the floor, you wore your undergarments and was about to put on your nightgown when Levi hugged you from behind.
“Stay with me tonight, please?” Levi spoke in a soft voice and you felt heat creep up your cheeks. No matter how late it was, Levi never asked you to stay the night for the chances of being discovered was too damn high. Hange and Mike always visit him unannounced and Erwin also pops by sometimes. Levi didn't want to get you in trouble so he never dared to put you at risk. Yet, Levi was willing to put those risks aside for tonight, and probably from today on.
“Of course,” you gave Levi a smile and a kiss to his cheek before walking to bed together with him. Snuggling together, Levi pressed a kiss on your shoulder before whispering 'goodnight' to you. Although you and Levi cuddled before, it was never like this. This newfound intimacy was foreign to you, yet it had you feeling warm and biting your lip. This was something you could slowly get used to. Turning to face Levi, you kissed him goodnight and dozed off to sleep.
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“Heichou!” A shout came from outside, and there was frantic knocking on the door. You groggily rubbed your eyes, turning around to see Levi still sleeping next to you. Checking the clock, it was only seven in the morning. Who in the fucking world had business with Levi on a fucking Saturday morning? Putting on Levi's shirt, you got up and made your way to the office door.
“Heichou, wake up!” The knocking resumed, and you recognised the owner of that voice: Petra. “Heichou, wake up! We’ve got trouble! Y/n’s missing and—” you opened the door and stared angrily at Petra who in turn looked at you in horror.
“... y/n? Wha-what are you, no, w-why are you in—” Petra looked around, thinking that she might have knocked on the wrong office.
“Oi, brat, who’s making all that noise?” Levi’s muffled voice came from inside and Petra’s face turned as red as a pint of chilli sauce. She eyed you up and down and after looking at your angry face, Petra seemed to connect all the dots together and she ran away without a word. You rolled your eyes and went back to Levi’s bed.
“Who's outside?” Levi mumbled, pulling you close to him and burying himself in the crook of your shoulder. “Oh, it’s just Petra. She’s looking for me,” you nonchalantly told Levi, yet you couldn’t forget the look on Petra’s face when she realised your relationship with Levi. “I guess Petra and probably everyone else will stop flirting with you from today onwards.”
“Tch, let them. I don’t give a titan’s fart about it,” Levi opened his eyes and rubbed them sleepily. “Don’t wanna hide our relationship anymore.” You turned towards Levi, sweeping his fringe out of his eye. “But what if we get separated?”
“Then I’ll go threaten Eyebrows about quitting,” you playfully hit Levi’s shoulder, telling him off for joking about something serious. Levi pulled you close to him, the sleepiness long gone. “I’m serious. I thought about it the whole time we weren’t talking, and I realised that I don’t want to be without you.” You looked at Levi, feeling tears forming in your eyes again.
“I want you with me, always. I don’t care about what others say or think anymore. I want you by my side.” Levi gently held your hand. You could sense his sincerity in every word he said. He was willing to sacrifice so much for you, for this relationship, and you knew how much you meant to him. You pecked his cheek and squeezed his hands.
Rei's Birthday Event: A walk in the park with Levi
Characters: Levi x fem!reader
Genre: Modern!au
Warnings: SFW, fluff. Reader insert (y/n). Levi and reader are in their early 30s. Brief mentions of Erwin and Hange.
Word count: 3k
A/N: This request was made by my lovely sister-in-law @ack3rlady and oh boy, my heart was sooooooo soft while writing this!!! Thank you for sending this my way <3 this may have been fuelled by suit Levi hehe.
Also, there's one mention of a coffee place and I'm making one tiny reference to my own writing lol, and one tiny reference to a movie I love watching!!
Read the original request here.
It had been about five months since you and Levi started seeing each other, and there was no doubt in denying the feelings you had for him.
You got to know Levi through your colleague, Hange Zoe. They were supposed to attend a high school gathering with three others, but one of them couldn't make it last minute. Hange was fretting since they already booked dinner for four, and you told them you didn't mind joining.
In fact, you were glad you offered to join, because that was the day you got to know Levi. On the day of the dinner, you were introduced to Hange's two other friends: Erwin Smith, and Levi Ackerman. Erwin Smith was handsome and charismatic, his towering height and strong build were accented by his well-fit jacket and clothes, his chiseled jaw matched his powerful stare. Levi Ackerman on the other hand was below average in height and he had a permanent scowl on his face. There were dark shadows under his eyes, and he consistently gave off a really intimidating aura, speaking less than 10 sentences since you and Hange entered the restaurant. Yet, you found yourself being unable to take your eyes off Levi.
Despite his unfriendly demeanour, you took the first step and introduced yourself to Levi, offering your hand to him for a handshake. Levi was obviously taken aback by your act; he didn't expect anyone to pay attention to him when someone as charming as Erwin was in the room.
Hange and Erwin could somehow tell that Levi was interested in you too. In fact, anyone who could call themselves 'friends' with Hange would definitely pique Levi's interest; he never understood how people could tolerate someone as insufferable as Hange. What started as a high school gathering between friends ended with you and Levi exchanging contact details, and promising another opportunity to see each other again.
Indeed you felt a little intimidated by Levi's stern and emotionless face when you first got to know him, but soon you learnt that underneath his tough exterior was a man with a warm and pure heart.
Levi's face was always etched in a permanent scowl, yet you couldn't never forgot the look of kindness you once saw on his face. It was your second date with Levi, and while he was walking you home, he stopped in his tracks, saying he heard some cries. You followed Levi's footsteps and found a puppy abandoned by a rubbish dump; smelly, shivering, and whimpering in pain. Levi removed his scarf and protectively wrapped the puppy up, feeding the little guy some water while waiting along the roadside till the 24hr animal rescue staff took custody of the abandoned puppy. Levi had a small build, but he had such a big heart.
Levi always seemed to be stoic and nonchalant, yet you remember very clearly how he acted when he was flustered. The both of you were watching a midnight blockbuster during a date, and you shared a bucket of large popcorn. The accidental touches of both your fingertips left you feeling like you were constantly being shocked by electricity, the slight biting of your lower lip to hide your smile made you wonder if Levi was also feeling like this. The caramel popcorn suddenly didn't taste as sweet as it did. While inside the lift, both your hands grazed past each other again, and as you jumped in shock, Levi instead wrapped his hand around yours, fingers closing the gaps in between. While he didn't look at you, you could see a faint hint of red flooding his cheeks. You looked down at your feet and held Levi's hand a little tighter; you wanted this moment to last a little longer.
Levi was a man of little words, yet you remembered how safe you felt in his arms. On your eighth date with Levi, the both of you decided to go to a pub to unwind and celebrate a long weekend. You unfortunately got cat called outside the pub while you two were leaving. Levi instinctively held you close to him, throwing daggers at whoever was looking and hurling nasty comments towards you. A group of men, however, decided to try their luck. They cornered the both of you, yet Levi never backed down. He threatened the group of men who were twice his size, only to have them losing pathetically to Levi in a fist fight. And on that day, you learnt that despite his calm and collected demeanour, Levi would never hesitate to protect the people he cared about.
Perhaps, the day you realised you had undeniable feelings and attraction for Levi was after the third month of dating. It happened in late March, during a spring picnic with him. Under the light spring breeze, the both of you were enjoying a quiet afternoon under the sakura trees. As the wind blew, sakura petals started falling everywhere, landing on the picnic mat, the food you brought, and also in your hair. Gingerly, Levi reached closer and stretched his hand outwards. You froze in place, unsure of what to do as heat started flooding your being. Levi's fingers softly brushed past your hair, until you felt his fingertips gently grazed your ear. You touched your ear afterwards, and learnt that Levi tucked a fallen sakura flower in your hair. You could still feel the heat in your cheeks and the ghost of Levi's touch.
"You look better like this," Levi muttered after a while, and all you could manage was give him a nod and a small smile, feeling your heart about to leap out of your chest. It was like a thousand ants were crawling all over your skin, and suddenly, the air around the both of you felt sweeter than honey.
Through the daily exchange of 'good morning' and 'sweet dreams' texts, the promises of 'see you again', and wishing time would stop whenever you were together, you couldn't pinpoint exactly when, but perhaps, it was that fateful day when you realised that you had fallen head over heels for Levi Ackerman.
Five months time down the road, your feelings for Levi grew stronger and it was starting to consume you whole. You wake up every day in anticipation of seeing Levi's messages from the previous night, you go to bed with thoughts of Levi in your head. You were sure of how you felt about Levi, but what about him? You couldn't tell at all. Levi hasn't made any move, the both of you haven't even kissed yet. You often wondered if Levi felt the same way.
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It was a lovely Saturday night when Levi and you went for a dinner date. Levi told you dress up in something nice; it was to celebrate his promotion at work, and the company celebratory dinner was to be held at the high-end Rosé.
"I have to be in a damn suit, so, I don't know, maybe just wear a nice dress to match." Levi told you on the phone one day. You felt like a bundle of nerves. You've seen Levi in his work attire and casual clothing, but never in a formal suit before. You only hoped your outfit that day matched up to Levi.
Levi picked you up at 6pm sharp that evening, and when you saw Levi appearing by your doorstep looking absolutely exquisite in a charcoal coloured three-piece suit, you knew this man was a gem you had to keep. Levi's suit fit him to a T, the lines and edges of his outfit only emphasised his toned physique. His shoes were extra polished and his decision of wearing a fedora with his suit made him look like a nobleman in the 1920s.
Levi couldn't take his eyes off you the moment you opened the door as well. Your hairdo sleek and your makeup simple, the neckline of your dress accentuated your sharp collarbone. Your scent was alluring, and your skin was radiant. Levi was awestruck, he was enthralled.
"You look stunning." Levi simply said as he offered you his hand. With shaking fingers, you placed them in his palm as you exited and locked the doors, muttering a small word of 'thanks', not forgetting to tell Levi how handsome he looked as well.
"You look like you just finished shooting a scene from Kingsman," you joked and headed for the lift together. Levi merely shook hid head and sniggered, leading you to his car and driving to the restaurant.
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As dinner ended, Levi asked if you would like to join him on a walk at the nearby park. You gladly agreed, welcoming the idea of spending time with Levi under the cooling night breeze. Under the waning moonlight, the grey-blue in Levi's eyes looked brighter than the twinkling stars in the sky. Levi kept his hands in his pocket, walking silently by your side as you looked up above, enjoying the sounds of nature as the both of you walked.
"Achoo!" You let out a small sneeze, embarrassed that it ruined the serene moment between the both of you. You should've brought along a shawl or a cardigan, knowing how cold the night might get. As you took out a piece of tissue, Levi shrugged out of his blazer and gently wrapped it around your shoulders. The warmth of musk and something more enveloped you, causing a small rush of heat creeping up your cheeks. Wordlessly, Levi held out his hand and you stared at him for a while before passing your clutch bag to him and your hands slid into the larger sleeves of his blazer. Oh, how warm you felt the moment you buttoned his blazer up, how dizzy you got when you took a deep breath, inhaling the musky scent you knew solely belonged to Levi.
"I should've reminded you that it would be cold. My bad, y/n," Levi looked at you apologetically. You shook your head instead, giving him a small smile.
"I should've expected it to be cold. Don't worry, I'm f–achoo!" you sneezed again, pinching your nose and nearly falling. Levi hurried forward and held your waist, supporting you as you blew your nose again. You thanked him and hoped that you wouldn't sneeze again. Levi let out a sigh.
"Wait here."
Before you could say anything, Levi dashed off somewhere and left you under a street lamp. You took a seat on a nearby bench, wondering what Levi was up to. He seldom said what was on his mind, and even though you thought you had a good idea on how to read him sometimes, he still left you with many question marks.
While you waited by the bench, the seconds turned to minutes. You looked at your watch impatiently, hugging Levi's blazer around yourself tighter. Where was he?
As though he could read your mind, Levi appeared a distance away, holding on to a paper cup. He had another hand behind his back, and you couldn't tell what was he hiding. Levi gave you a small smile and he jogged towards you.
"Everywhere was closed, and I couldn't find anything hot," Levi placed the cup in your hands. As you opened the lid, it was a cup of steaming hot chamomile tea. "I hope you don't mind Starbucks." You giggled. Levi hated buying from chain coffee joints like Starbucks, and you could only imagine the disgusted look he had on his face while he was queuing up. Yet, even though you haven't had your drink yet, your heart already warmed up at the thought.
"Yeah, I don't," you took a sip of tea, letting out a satisfied sigh. "thanks a lot, Levi, you didn't have to do this." You gave him another smile and continued taking tiny sips of the hot beverage, trying to peak behind Levi to see what else was he hiding. Maybe an after-dinner snack, perhaps?
Levi merely grunted after hearing you, scratching his nose and he looked like he had something to say.
"U-uh, y/n."
"Hmm?" You glanced at Levi after hearing him call you, and what met your eyes was a bouquet of beautiful red tulips. Your eyes widened as Levi nervously bit his lip. The flowers were absolutely beautiful, and you were stunned. You never expected Levi to pull a stunt like this.
"W-wow, they're really gorgeous, I—" you hastily placed the cup of tea on the bench and accepted the bouquet from Levi. Your hands were shaky again, and you knew they weren't from the cold night wind. "thank you, Levi. You really didn't have to. It must have cost a lot."
"It's nothing. I, uh, I h-have something to, um, say to you and—" Levi let out a cough and loosened his necktie, avoiding your eye. You could tell. He was nervous about something. He never stuttered when he spoke. Levi's demeanour was making you feel anxious as well. He continued staring at his own feet.
"I know it hasn't been long since we knew each other, but this has been in my mind for a while, and if I don't say it now, I don't know when I will." Levi took a deep breath and looked at you.
"I love you."
Silence.
You thought you heard wrong. Levi continued looking at you with earnest, giving you a shy smile.
"You might think I sound like a creep right now, but what I said is true. I never expected myself to fall for you, or anyone else for the matter of fact, but somehow, I just did.
"In all honesty, I wasn't expecting anything, I'm not expecting you to even return my feelings. You would've heard the shit Hange told you about me. I believe in logic more than emotions, I trust myself more than anyone else. Yet, ever since I got to know you, it's like my head and my heart don't synchronise anymore.
"I didn't know what it was about you, but every encounter with you made me crave for more. Every moment with you never seemed enough, and every time we said 'goodbye', it only made me look forward to the next 'hello'. It took me a while to finally come to terms with what I was feeling, but I have to admit it. I-I think I've fallen in love with you, y/n."
You remained silent, you didn't know what to say. You were afraid that you would ruin the moment. No one said anything for a long while. The corner of Levi's lips started falling. Oh no. Say something, quick!
"L-Levi, I—"
"It's okay, y/n, you don't have to say anything," Levi cut you off with a sad smile. "It's probably just my wishful thinking." No. No! Levi, you've got it all wrong!
"No, wait, Levi, list—"
"Shh. It's fine. Don't apologise."
"Listen to me, Levi, I'm not—"
"I said it's fine. Just throw the flowers away or some—"
"Levi!" You raised your voice and Levi jumped, not expecting that huge of a reaction from you.
"I'm not throwing these flowers away, Levi. Red tulips represent feelings of love, don't they?" You gave Levi a smile and closed the distance between you and him. "They represent your feelings for me, and I am accepting them with my whole heart." Levi's eyes widened as your face became closer.
"I love you too, Levi," you told him shyly, feeling a rush of happiness flow through you after getting the words out of your chest. While Levi was least expecting it, you pressed a chaste kiss to his cold cheek. Levi touched the spot you just kissed and blinked dumbly.
"Oh." Levi realised how stupid he must have sounded moments ago, and his face turned into a fiery shade of scarlet.
"Fuck, y/n, I'm sorry for earlier. I th-I thought you were going to reject me or something," you grabbed his hand, giving him a reassuring squeeze and a little smile.
"You're so unpredictable sometimes, Levi, but I guess that's your charm point, huh?" You joked, turning back to the bench to take your now-cold chamomile tea. Suddenly, there was no need for it anymore. With one hand holding Levi's while the other hugged the tulip bouquet and the cup, you felt even warmer than before. Levi and you walked back to his car hand in hand, a soft smile hanging on your face.
The drive back to your place felt a little different from usual. Levi held your hand in his as he drove, the soft tunes from the radio played in the background as you both kept your conversation light-hearted. A lingering question in your head made you fidget around in your seat.
"So..." you changed the topic after Levi told you a funny story about Hange, Erwin, and their other high school friend Mike. "What are we?"
"Huh? What?"
"As in, what's our status now? Boyfriend-girlfriend, dating, partners, lovers, or, you know..."
"Tch," Levi scoffed hearing you. "We're a little too old to be using nicknames, aren't we?" You laughed along, realising how weird the terms sound.
"Maybe, yeah. Let's just be 'lovers' then," you uttered under your breath and quickly looked away bashfully, thoroughly aware of what you just said. 'Lovers', huh? Sounds kind of nice.
"Hmm. Yeah. I like that better." Levi glanced at you and squeezed your hand again, looking back in front with a satisfied grin. A moment later, Levi brought your hand close to his lip, and very briefly, he placed a featherlight kiss to the back of your hand. You felt your heart beating wildly against your chest, you suddenly didn't feel like going back home just like that.
As Levi walked you back to your doorstep, you unlocked the door and stepped inside, albeit a little unwilling. It was like you didn't want to say goodbye yet. Your hand clutched the bouquet of tulips and you took another deep breath, inhaling the musky scent from Levi's blazer. As you held onto the doorknob, you turned around and looked at Levi.
"Well?" Levi leaned against your doorframe. "Go on in. Good night, y/n." His eyes were twinkling, like he was anticipating something. You gripped the doorknob tighter, your voice quivered as you spoke.
"D-do you... w-would you like a drink?" Would you like to stay the night?
"Sure," Levi grinned and answered without hesitation. He walked himself into your unit and removed his shoes. Hanging his fedora by your coat stand, Levi unbuttoned his sleeves and rolled them up, taking the tulip bouquet away from your arm.
"I'd love to."
Yes it is implied that reader invited Levi up for drinks aka alcohol, so that Levi would stay the night since he can't drive after drinking alcohol. Also... it is up to you to imagine what happens at reader's place after they drink... hehe
