#leora lorepost

I am. I... was friends with them. Jim and I have always had an on and off friendship but. that's not the fucking point. I fucking... Fuck. I've known Colt just as long as I've known them. Longer if I think about it. He's been my manager since I moved here. He's always had problems, I don't need to tell you that. But things are WAY worse with him then they've EVER been. I can't even look at his blog half the time with how he talks about Jim. It makes me fucking sick. ...I've seen how good of a person he can be though. He's brought his kids to work. I've watched them paint his nails, watched him hold them while he's on the phone, smiling ear to ear. Both of them are such fucking sweethearts... They love him. Hell I've seen Jane too and when things weren't bad they- ...Listen. It's not my place to talk about that. The point is that he hasn't always been this fucking awful of a person. It's easy to write people like him off. Curly and Jimmy absolutely should write him off and have nothing to do with him, and I'm also not saying that other people shouldn't, but people like him through all their fucking problems need someone around to help them. I dont' even know why I'm taking the time to try and justify this to you. I fucking hate to see him spiraling like this and I just want to help him, okay??

Not too long after that I caught them. I was asleep at Curly's and snuggled up behind him. He was on his phone jacking off with Jim. He "woke me up" to move so he could go get clean after they were done and had left the phone in there. I was bawling my fucking eyes out and Jim heard it all. We... "talked" for a moment before Curly came back in. Talked in quotations because I mean. You guys probably saw the post where he said it "wasn't his fault Curly couldn't keep his hands off of him." He had the same mindset then.

That was less than a month in and we dated for several. I ignored it because well... It really wouldn't have bothered me if he wanted to pursue Jim while we were dating. If he had just told me instead of... God. Either way I fucking opened the relationship a week later like a coward and never told him I saw. Jim was more than happy to keep quiet about it too. He was so fucking happy I couldn't stay mad at him about it.

I think Colton just broke into Jimmy’s apartment

You're fucking with me right?? Because that isn't a funny joke. ...No you aren't. Holy shit. How the fuck did he get his address???? He kept fucking pressing it for me but I wouldn't give it to him how the FUCK DID HE GET IT.

Yes, Okay. We slept together. Y'all finally got it out of me. I think I was more desperate for it than he was.

... I mean yeah, that's true. I am in fact his ex but uh. I really don't wanna be known as just his ex. I'm my own person just like he's his own, and he's my friend first and foremost.