#learningtoliveagain

Thank you Mr Barnum (and Hugh Jackman et al) for bringing true ‘joy’ back into my life. I’d almost forgotten what it felt like to feel this 'alive’. All it took was six 'dates’ with the greatest showman on earth.

“As I trust my heart more and more every day, the path I must follow reveals itself”. Sometimes, when we talk about the heart, we think love can only be felt for the person we call our partner. But our heart centre and heart energy are for much more than that. Our heart speaks of what makes us happy, of the passion we feel when we plan to do something, of the excitement of embarking on a new adventure, of the love for life. Our hearts are our compass in life. Many times ignored, our hearts become bored, closed, forgotten. A broken heart not only comes from a failed relationship but also from the constant shut down of its energy. When we engage in activities that don't excite our heart, it breaks a little bit. When we do stuff just for the sake of doing it or out of responsibility, our heart breaks a little bit. When we ask our heart to keep quiet because what it is asking is just not doable, our heart breaks a little bit. In a mind-based society like ours, our hearts are at the risk of shutting down completely. A broken heart, whether injured by heartbreak or lack of excitement, causes more damage in our lives than any other injuries we might sustain. Opening up your heart to love means more than letting a person into your life. It means finding the courage to live. Art by @artbymushka . . #healingabrokenheart #learningtoliveagain #liveagain #lovelife #heartcentre #heartspace #heartchakra #heartwisdom #followyourheart #heartenergy #heartwisdom #letyourheartleadtheway #creatingfromtheheart #letyourheartspeak #divinefemenine #excitment #livinginthenow #livinginthepresentmoment #heartbasedsociety (at My Hearth) https://www.instagram.com/p/CNK3mOQHZEn/?igshid=yqprpbtdujpt

Here I hope to work through my feeling and hopefully find others that are trying to heal from this sort of abuse, along with trying to find myself again and build a life for myself. It seems common to lose yourself in a relationship with a narcissist along with losing your way. I feel so lost and hurt that there are many days that I pray I will not wake up because the pain I feel when I do is so unbearable that I cant get myself to do anything and then I feel worse because I know he is out living his best life with someone new, traveling and working his dream job. All things that he ended up with due to my encouragement and ideas that I would give him to get ahead and heal. He basically killed me in order to become his best and then left me behind. Are there any others out there going through anything like this or maybe have found their way through it and can give me advice on how to heal?

As I am missing the buns I thought while in Ireland, visit the Irish cousins @thedonkeysanctuaryireland and have some bun kisses and bum scratches. I am in love with them all, as would have been Tim. Heavy heart but such an incredible day. #learningtoliveagain #peace #love #donkeydays #innerpeace (at County Cork) https://www.instagram.com/philminns/p/Bw2Owy_HTPJ/?igshid=1rr2ngg5ispl8

I opened up my instagram last night and the quote said “Date the person who tells you to be safe when you go out, not the one that gets mad. Partnership, not ownership.” It struck me hard mostly because I realized I am this person. I am the person that wishes people safety as they leave and greets them openly when they arrive. I am the one who holds doors open, goes out of my way to make sure other’s are okay (when I am able) and is always willing to meet people on whatever level they are at. I worked excruciatingly hard to make sure I was this person for YEARS after I got out of my mother’s house and my first short relationship to make sure I did not fall into bitterness out of pain, or coldness out of fear. Yesterday, for the first time, I realized I had won that battle and didn’t even know it. I have always been a happy person. My mother used to tell me how I used to just walk up to anyone and bring a smile to their face- I still do that. It’s around me all the time. It brings me joy when I brighten other people’s life and no one will ever take that from me again. I refuse to be a product of my circumstances any longer. So today I challenge you to genuinely smile- regardless of what else is going on because you deserve to be happy and not have your surrounding rule you. There are 365 days in a year, 24 hours in a day, and 60 minutes in each hour- I hope you spend this time wisely my friends. #feelings #nature #hiking #learningtoliveagain #cantstopwontstop #bendbutneverbreak #sticksandstones #strongasyggdrasil #hillcountry #texas #texashillcountry #restandrecovery #gettingbacktobasics #selflove #selfrespect https://www.instagram.com/p/BwMybX2He-uHyVSdcOW5VQ-Jot3FNzzztskJI80/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1ery7zv78cojh

I'm not the most beautiful woman in the world, but I am me. I eat junk food. Sometimes more than I should. I have scars on my body because I have a history. Some people love me, some hate me. I have done good. I have done bad. I sometimes go without make up and I don't always do my hair. I'm random and silly. I don't pretend to be someone I'm not. I am who I am, you can love me or not. And if I love you, I do it with all my heart!! I make no apologies for the way I am. ❤️ 🌹Ladies, I dare you to put this on your status and share a picture of yourself if you're proud of who you are 😉 #Unapologetic #bruisednotbroken #learningtolovemyself #learningtoliveagain

Getting better everyday. 🙂 #healing #learningtoliveagain #thistooshallpass