#learningpoly

I'm wearing my love necklace again - I missed this. It's a rose quartz heart my dad got me 10+ years ago and the polyamory charm I won in a giveaway from @learningpoly three and a half years ago (December 2014, I had to look it up!) It feels good to wear it again. Freedom hated when I wore necklaces because I would forget to take them off and they’d bop him in the face, so I stopped wearing them. Today has been a lot about finding things that help me feel safe and settled without reaching out to him. I can be sad and take care of myself instead of relying on him for anything. I’m wearing the pretty pink nature bracelet my sister gave me for Christmas a few years ago, I’ve been holding amethysts for a while because doing so helps me feel a bit calmer. I’ve been listening to the Greatest Showman soundtrack because it’s energizing and relaxing and makes me happy. I’m aching but I’m not checking WhatsApp constantly (I have notifications turned off) and I’m not fretting over what Freedom might have to say.

Thank you, that's exactly how we feel! -S,J,B

I got a Tumblr notification that I've been blogging about polyamory for an entire year. (My first blog was a secondary blog linked to my main, but a couple months later I made a full account just for this). Wow! A year is both a very long time, and also a very little amount of time. I'm no closer to finding answers. I'm no closer to really knowing what to do with my life. I'm no closer to figuring out if polyamory is right for me as a person. I'm still very monogamous in a polyamorous relationship. Some days I'll be fine and everything is dandy, and some days I struggle with it *so much*. For the most part, things are great. :) But there's still a part of me that wishes I didn't have to deal with both the normal relationship bumps AND the poly problems. I'm grateful for everyone who's stuck around for the past year, for everyone writing a poly blog who gives me inspiration and courage to keep moving forward. Thank you for your love and support. Thank you for sharing your own experiences and insights. <3

Oh my! I just got my 501st follower to this little polyamory blog! :D Sorry there's no cute photo to commemorate the occasion like last time, but it's a housework day. Love you all!! xoxoxo

Thanks for your understanding!