best buddy she knows i love that colour, orange. and i know she loves that manga, one piece. we both love k-pop. we both like learning the choreography, we both love dancing to the songs, we both love singing to lyrics we don’t understand. we both like ‘em oppas and k-dramas (🤷🏻♀️) we weren’t as close yet, we were shy and awkward. but i felt it could have progressed if only i relaxed. but i never did. we were called “best buddies” but she was smart, i wasn’t. i was dumb. i am dumb. didn’t want her to realize i’ll be a burden. i fear that she’d find out how dumb and useless i was. and when the time came when we needed to choose, i am grateful she had options and decided to go with people she could grow with. people that actually had ambitions. she was ambitious, she was goal-oriented, she had plans, i was scared she will ask me to work as hard as she does, and that i will not be able to. and that i will disappoint her. i was lost, i was lazy, i was stuck. everyday i wish i didn’t cut ties with you, i only just realized maybe you were sincere and wouldn’t judge me the way i think you would. i was full of myself thinking i could find another soul that connects with mine, i was wrong. P.S. to the girls, i was at my happiest when we we’re together, all 10. believe it or not, i was the happiest, and most grateful. and i’m sorry.
