#lead.rambling

i have literally not seen a singular person talk about this so I Will. Okay. Bear with me here.plea

art is based on this part of the episode right.right.

so TheDrill is able to be used to mention pin without mentioning her right. because she used it the most to harm people and things.right.

AND SO TH E FACT THAT THIS SYMBOLISM OF VIOLENCE AND EVIL AND SOMETIMES PIN iS BEING LOCKED AWAY!!BECAUSE THE PEOPLE ONLY SEE IT AS SOMETHING THAT CAN CAUSE HARM

EXCEPT. FOR. BOOK!!!!!

she KNOWS that TheDrill has harmed her,,and yet when she has no one else to go to (in this case for the cakeatstake stuff) SHE GOES TO IT FOR HELP!! SHE TREATS IT LIKE ANY OTHER OBJECT AS A LAST RESORT!!!

SHE KNOWS WHATS GOOD AND STILL GOES ASTRAY!!‼️‼️‼️I SWEAR IM NOT CRAZY WITH THIS PLEAS

TLDR: bfdia18 killed me.(made me a pin fan) and i will never thank it enough. I WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the reason why i LOVELVOELVOEEEE this episode so much is just because of how much it changed my life,my brain chemistry, EVERYTHING IF YOU WILL BEAR WITH ME… likie when the end scene happens with pin drilling in2 book it was like a CanonEvent. before that episode was released i never really had a “””favorite””” and was just watching bfdi as a fun pastime.

But That Episode. THAT EPISODE MADE ME STEP BACK AND THINK ABOUT THE CHARACTERS FOR ONCE!!!!!!!!! IT GAVE ME MORE EMOTIONS AFTER WATCHING IT THAN JUST “wow that was cool ig” AND THEN NEVER CARING ABOUT IT EVER AGAIN.

IT MADE ME CARE!!!!!! IT DID IT WAS LIKE THE FIRST TIME THAT I EVER HAD FOR BFDI.

AND IT WAS MAINLY ABOUT THAT PUSHPIN. OH MY PIN FACTORY. THAT PUSHPIN.

her entire arc through bfdia was one i think kind of interested me pre this episode?? like maybe cuz of the screentime she was getting was a LOT MORE in this season compared to others… great example is my GOATS OAT BFDIA 11-14. it definitely INTERESTED me into her arc but i never really looked into it other than the surface level stuff given and a bit of community stuff,,verylittle when i say that….

UNTIL BFDIA 18. LIKE A SWITCH GOING OFF IN MY BRAINLIKE IM NOT JOKING I BEGAN TO FOCUS ON PIN.IM

like i was SEARCHING THROUGH THE TRENCHES THAT IS OSCYT TO FIND ANY OTHER *MECH*PIN DEFENDERS WHICH COMPARED TO PIN HATERS @ THAT TIME IT WAS VERY LITTLE,I KEPT REWATCHING THAT END SCENE WITH EXCITEMENT… I FELT LIKE A LONELY LITTLE BUG,,RANTING TO MYSELF HOW THAT COINPIN SCENE WASNT REALLY A BETRAYAL IF THOUGHT LOGICALLY, HOW IT WAS DIFERENT THAN HOW IT LOOKED ON THE SURFACE AND WHY PIN DID IT!!! I FELT ALONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!/lh

and..i must confess because of how i didnt know where to go to find a pin analysis that made it understandable to me WHY i liked pin that episode..i…USED TO MISCHARACTERIZE HER AS A GIRLBOSS……*BOOING SFX*

but then,,the tumble. THE TUMBLE I FOUND PEOPLE WHO hastagGOT IT!!! (coughcough smalslovellovelypinanalysis THAT WAS REALLYREALLY GOOD FOR ME AT THAT TIME AND IT STILL HOLDS UP!!!!!) AND THAT.SEEING PEOPLE WHO FULLY uNDERSTOOD IT IN WRITTEN FORM HELPED ME TO NOT OONLY GROW AND BECOME A PIN FAN.BUT ALSO GO BACK TO HERE!!!!!!!!!ON THIS LOVELYWEBSITETUBLORDOTCOM. I CAN NEVER EVEREVEREVVEREVR THANK BFDIA18 AND PINNATION FOR MAKING ME UNDERSTAND A CHARACTER LIKE THIS. NO CHARACTER OR THING I THINK WILL *EVER* TOP MY FAVORITES OTHER THAN PIN BECAUSE OF ALL OF THIS COMBINED INTO MY LITTLE BRAIN.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

THANK YOU BFDIA 18!!!!

📌 OVERVIEW 📌

(also these are based on what i think would be EARLY idfb!! she slowly gets better over the season <33)

ok so instead of the "very little healings" idea,, im going with her technically being better. but just 1000 times more miserable <3

also this gonna be formatted the same as 14-23, but more shorter trust

the shirt is meant to be like one of those hospital shirtss,, her whole transformation was like one big surgery i am guessing

and the cropped sweater is so 1. she doesnt get her arm all cold and 2. so she can still "fit in" (HEAVY IN DENIAL LAALALAALAALA :D)

her point light thingys r off, some of her old features got removed to reduce amount of wires n stuff used in the future!!

XTRA LONG HAIRS!!!! also bleached because uhhh surgery went wacky idk

slight burn marks,, from bfdia 22 yr honor!!!

📌NEW LIMBS📌

new limbs babyeyyyyy wooohoooo

the new human ones are a bit mix-matched since theyve probably havent been on a body for a bit i would think????

also the robot leg is what used to be the left arm!! all the wirse in her body n stuff got rearranged!!!! so it uses as little of it as possible!!!

stitch marks are covered with bandages,, very fragile areas!!!

📌BACK/BATTERY📌

in order to keep her body working without the weight of a bajillion pounds on her back she gets batteries in her body now!!!

also two of here neck-wires get moved to the back to support said batteries

📌EXTRA📌

her crutch!! getting used to walking and balance n everything takes a bit so she gets one of em >:3

HEADCANONS!!!

MASKING HER EMOTIONS SERVELY!! THERE IS NO WAY SHES ACTUALLY THAT FUCKKINNG HAPPY AFTER BFDIA DUDUEUEIIEEEEE

almost all of her body is EXTREMELY SORE!!!! ibuprofen is her beloved <3

frequently zones out,, anytime anywheree

STILL has poor hygiene!! maybe worse than 14-23

^ and if she tries to shower she just stares at a showerwall with the water running or something

bedrotter

also poor sleep schedule,, who woudlve guessed sighhhh

SONGS!! (14-23 is the biggest song count(mech pin is very dear to me), do NOT expect that many for the rest of these parts oka)

HECK YAH!!! WEEVILDOING SONGS RETURN AGAIN!!!

THE THEMES OF ILLNESS!!!! THE HOPELESS TENFOLDS!!!!!

ALSO I WOULD LIKE TO CITE SOME OF THESE LYRICS AS BEING SO IDFB PIN HOLD ON

"and no, i know, its not like i died. but its hard to call what's left of me "alive""

"and now i go throughout life puppet-ing my own corpse"

" and i swallowed my pride, left my old self behind. but to say i survived, it just fells like a lie"

ALSO THE ENTIRE SECTION ABOUT BEING TIRED FITS OKA

"what about the suicidal parts??" DOES SHE LOOK LIKE SHE WANTS TO BE ALIVE YOUR HONOR??????

this is the new remix version but the original can also fit here too :3

THEMES OF TECHNOLOGY!!! FEELING AS IF YOUR SOMETHING ENTIRELY DIFFERENT!!! ("machine girl, something between computer and man")

AND THE PARTS OF CONFUSION ON WHAT YOU ARE!!! ("since when did i get like this?")

ALSO JUST THIS LYRIC: "a future that will never compute inside my mind, and a past i only wish i could leave behind"

lead... the stomach books are here..

guys hear me out with this idea!!! pin actually wanting change to herself even though it feels impossible to reach since shes always hated the physical changes she went through in bfdia.. is this hashtag cookig

also the questioning what life really is,, so beautiful idfb pin would think of this actually <3

AND the "i wanna feel alive, but nothing will ever satisfy" GUHHH STOMACHBOOK IS THE GOAT IF YOU DONT THINK SO YOU SHOULD TRY AGAI /LH

okay i KKNOW this doesnt make sense at first BUT LET ME EXPLAI

so the song is teto overtime getting very famous, and as a result she starts to get physically and mentally worse!!! and with her getting worse she starts to feel as if she is nothing, or not knowing what she truly is as she feels her life is only as a singer and nothing else.

now how2 make this about pin?

after her new-limb-operation (tm) she starts to question what she truly is, since all of her changes were ONLY because of bfdi/bfdia. because of this she doesnt feel like anything else BUT the game is important. but since her new limbs and stuff make her physically VERY weak she feels like she cant even be good at the competiton, resulting to her "trying" to make herself better by masking how she truly feels (acting very happy when she KNOWS she is the complete opposite)

the bridge(i think thats what its called???) or the part before the big part at the end is how pin truly feels, which is nothing but confusion. she CANT keep up with how the game expects everyone to start anew and fresh as if nothing has happened! so during this she tries to figure out what she is (which she doesnt even know). and at this point she has like hastag no one AGAIN after ruining her reputation so she ends up being dependent on others to figure out what she is!! (like how a singer is dependent on their audiance to be relevant)

tldr: pin mentally losing it even more because she doesnt know what she is!! yahhh

whaaaa??? femtanyl????

this one is uhhh PIN THINKING ABOUT HER RELATIONSHIPS AND HERSLEF!!!!

"wai lead isnt this song about abusive relationships who is the abus-" EVERYONE!! EVERYONE IS TO HER!!! yes she did get the surgery stuff so TECHNICALLY people do care enough to fix her. but did anyone during bfdia? NO!! (<- local idfb-pusphin is too stupid to realize the whimsical book exists)

so now she feels like a pet (LIKE THE SONG NAME WOAHHHH!!!) to everyone!! only getting help because they pity her (like people feeling bad for when a young pet gets hurt/ has a disability)

also bedrotting and abandonment.. waaoowww!!!

ultrakill.??? in my pin timeline?? and its the only calm one???? what the freakkk

this one is one of those "feels like" kind of songs since theres zero lyrics.. BUT!!!! i have more better reasonings for this one i SWEA

"the fire is gone" is the song played in the main menu before you play ultrakill. which consists of very fast paced gameplay, same happens vice versa when you return to the main menu.

"how the fuck is THIS pin?????"

pins trauma can be represented with fire/burning, since fire destroys things in order to get stronger, and any changes that occur to said fire (most of the time) make it stronger. with the title, it implies that said chaos is over. you could say... GONE!!! (hahahahaha get it guyss)

but after a fire ends, what is left is usually a burnt mess of whatever was there originally.

basically; pin is both the fire AND what is left after one. she has caused so much destruction to everyone and herself that after all is said and done, there is nothing to pin anymore except burnt nothingness. after all the fire is gone! there should be peace now, but there isnt.

ALSO!! whenevr places get on fire, theres a slow recovery to bring back what originally was said place!! (KINDA like how pin slowly builds up her happy self again <333)

this one is going at the end bc i do want to keep the idea of pin healing overtime!! the song is still loud so its obvious the singer is not fully okay, but it shows they are slowly getting better and coming to terms with what theyve been through!! hastag i love healing <3

also the title,, wanting what has caused you pain to be shown to the world,, aaaaaaaaaaaaaa

SONGS!! but its the instrumental ones that just feel like idfb pin hastag trust me on these

soundcloud links from here :,3

lost - hkomori

unwanted - d2s1

📌 OVERVIEW 📌

wowwz... so pretty...

also before i begin the explanations of the century about my design,,, since i put lots of extra stuffs, the closeups will be seperated via changes on diffferent parts of the body!!! (top to bottom, then extra thingyz c:)

📌 HEAD 📌

to begin,, HER POINT!! instead of lobotomy in previous, its now inserted via metal disc!! this is also how i am guessing pin is able to spin her point in bfdia 18 (im reaching here, SHE DID THAT OUT OF NOWHERE OKAY) though the metal disc thing is now a part of her head!! pin is the point the point is pin :)

then her face!!!! implied since the 12-13 design but the sewn part for her face got turned into the robo-face!! also it can change into different shapes and symbols because she is awesome

also her teeth!!! got metal sharpy sharp ones to help with chewing since she kinda wasnt able to for a bit

extra awesome fact: the face and point changes are permanent, stuck with her trauma FOREVER muahahahahahaaaa

📌 NECK-TORSO 📌

note you will be seing a lot of metals n stuff if you couldnt tell

da neckkkk.. since her whole body was paralyzed,, she gets wires EVERYWHERE on her for the most part. also for more cool durability :D

the front of the torso!!! (the back is talked about more in the battery pack section) its for the most part hastag normal, but the arm attachment thingys are there (she got wires IN the body too!!!)

she also got woah bunch patch sewn in,, how awesome sauce i hope that doesnt backfire in a episode called bfdia18planesinthenightsky

📌 ARM + WHEELS 📌

wow we went from arm attachments to the arms itself,, how beautiful!!!

the arms got little plug thingys to be attached into her battery thing. also her hand got swapped out for a magnet,, how heart breaking

and the wheels!!! i feel like she would at least have a few wires just poking out,and gave her wheels some xtra depth (would that be the word??? maybe shape??? idek)

also she gets an attachment thingy that goes onto her lower arm!! so that way it doesnt immediately get yoinked off due to gravity or something like in bfdia 14

and yes this is pin gijinka wheel arm propoganda,, you wanna do that so bad oooo /silly

📌 BATTERY PACK 📌

HECK YEAH!! HER BATTERY PACK!!

this is where all of pins energy and power comes from, so all of it gets attached to here, like a heart if you think realllylllyy hard about it. its also where her rockets, cable tail (gasp sfx) and trash compactor are stored at!!! without this thing she is a paralyzed angry thing

the actual battery itself i gave some slight changes to make it work with the inserter part,, wow who coulda guessed that,, /silly

📌 EXTRA ADD-ONS 📌

SPEAKING OF THE STUFF WITH THE BATTERY PACK

the cable tail,, i know that in canon its not visible because of the battery pack but uhhh lalalalalala i cant hear youuuuu, also awesome idea what if it worked like a taser or shocky shock thing,, can this be a hastag cooking idea

the rockets!!! i was gonna plan to make them a part of her ACTUAL body but i didnt like how it turned out plus it felt a little weird so your getting this instead rahhhh

fun fact for some reason i put wings on the rockets originally??? pin doesnt have those WHAT was i thinking

and her trash compactor!!! it looks a bit different in canon but saws look COOLER and more AWESOME

HEADCANONS!! THEYRE ALL ABOUT HER BEING MISERABLE!!! YAYY

POOR HYGINE!! she literally does NOT care for herself in THE SLIGHTEST,,, she stinks

this also leads into my acne headcanon!! she does not know what an acne cream is she is stupid

projecting here but skin picking!! she has magnets and wheels yes, but pin factory be damned she will try.

sings that stupid pointypointypointy song to herself sometimes,, pin and her 1 million unhealthy coping mechanisms

constantly checks if her point is sharp by stabbing it into the most random stuff anywhere(NOT EVEN TRTYING TO REFERENCE HER SONG LALALALA CANT HEAR YOU)

whenever she gets REALLY emotional she starts to overheat, her point atarts to rapidly spin, and she gets all electric-y,, breaking news thing cannot control her emotions properly wwagt the fuck

her sweat sometimes forms an oil-like substance, comes from the weird mixture of blood n metals,,

does not know what a "sleep" is, actually rests every few days since her body is able to last longer via her robot stuff

always ends up destroying things after getting angry grrr

SONGS!!!! LALLLALALALAA YAYYAYYYYYY (FYI THIS PART IS A LOT,, TRUST ME!! YOUD BE SUPRISED HOW MANY SONGS CAN BE RELATED BACK TO REALLYREALLYREALLY SAD WOMEN)

YES THIS IS WHAT I MEANT IN THE PREVIOUS PART

im not gonna go in full detail as i have explained why this song is pin-core in this post

but to summarize, the song represents pins very quick and messy spiral into what she is after bfdia 14!! this is with the happyness and joys in the beginning that then turns into a distorted mess that still, somehow keeps its original melody. showing that despite what pin goes thorugh its still her, just extremely changed (and traumatized)

tptm has gotten to me chat,, save meeee

THE CONSTANT MENTIONS OF SELF HARM,, THAT THING LITERALLY DOESNT MIND BEING IN NOTHINGNESS BECAUDE SHE DOESNT WANT TO HEAR HOW PEOPLE HATE HER BECAUSE SHE WILL END UP THINKING THAT SHE DESERVES IT!!! AAURRHHGHGHRGHRH

NOT ONLY THAT,, BUT ALSO THE LONLIENESS THAT IS PIN BFDIA???? "round the corner, acting normal, scary how they don’t see it" AND "bloody feet across the floor, nobody to clean the stains, never got to be adored, no one there to ease the pain"

AND HOW THIS BUILDUP OF ANGER TURNS INTO HER INFLICTING THIS PAIN ONTO OTHERS!!!!! AND NOT JUST CAUSE THEY HURT HER, BUT EBCAUSE SHE IS AFRAID THAT IF SHE LETS ANYONE ELSE SEE HER WHEN SHES VULNERABLE, THEYLL JUST USE AND LEAVE HER WHEN IT SOLEY BENIFITS THEM!!! AAAAAAA

also the screen and technology motfis,, yah

i personally see this song as like an aftermath of splitter girl if that makes sense??? (NOT REFERING TO THE ACTUAL CHARACTERS BUT PIN)

like after being all painful and stuff she ends up SO SEVERELY REGRETING WHAT SHE DOES!! since she NEVER wanted to be this, all she wanted to do was be a leader and help people!! but they all RELENTLESSLY tortured her for little to no reason!!!!

and so this turns into her so severly hating herself, what happens in chemical girl basically,,,

ALSO SINCE SHE IS METAL N STUFF I CAN MAKE A CONNECTION TO THAT AND RADIATION I WINN!!!

i remember listening to this like 2 months ago (or around after bfdia 20 came out) and being shocked at how pin-core it was??

the song is about someone showing very obvious signs that they are being harmed by others and themselves, but NO ONE comes in to truly help them and what they're going through!! and when they reach their limit, people are sad about their death even though they couldve helped, they couldve done something but they didnt. NOW WHO COULD POSSIBLY THIS BE IN RELATION TO ESPECIALLY IN THE YOUTUBE SERIES BATTLEFORDREAMISLANDAGAIN BY JACKNJELLIFY

also the song mentions green aligators, a green island, and pointy things, CLEARLY bfdi references ur honor. /silly

alsoalso the end (beginning with "autumn leaves failed to break my fall" till the actual end) is SO bfdia 18 core!! the leaves could be tb and needle (since they caused coiny to fall n stuff), sticks and stones as coiny (kinda could LOOK like him + he didnt give pin the proper care she needed, yeah getting her autonomy is awesome but he doesnt understand her as a whole so he fails on that), and the skin and bones is book!! (getting shredded n all).

PLUS at that point she has LOST IT.(mentally,, she loses a few episodes later :c ) and so why did all the others act like they care (execpt for fries and maybe tb) when they didnt do anything to ACTUALLY help her and understand what she went through? (COUGHCOUGH ESPECIALLY COINY COUGHOCUHGHHH)

and like all the lyrics are just pin-core

"what about the sister part?" <- THE SISTER IN THIS CASE IS HER YOUNGER SELF(BFDI) FOR THINKING SHE COULD BE A LEADER!! AAAA

the girl who sells misfortunes!!! wowww

again same talks about how its about someone getting bullied and mistreated to the cope and handle the trauma ever by lashing out at others!!!! aka a girl selling misfortune to people!!! yapapapapapapapapapapapapapa

also the song is just fire on its own

semi loud warning(?) BREAKING NEWS!! STOMACH BOOK HAS STRUCT THE BFDIA PINS AGAIN AAAAA RUNRUNRNRUNRNNRN

anarchy refers to when there is denial of any kind of authority or order. this can also apply to constant changes!! NOW REMEBER BFDIA!! LITERALLY THE ONLY SEASON THAT CHANGES SO MUCH TO WHERE IT IS CONFUSING FOR PIN!! "THIS ISNT LOVE ITS ANARCHY!!!!"

ALSO THE LYRIC "ONLY BITE ME WHEN IM DEAD" remember pin only starting to get some kind of attention and usage after getting everything stripped from her and not when she wanted to actually halp peoples,, yeahhhhh.

tbh i wouldve put this one in prev part, buuuut the end part where it feels like a reflection of pin?? pin to pin conversation if you may???

also how the song is about hopelessness n stuff "were all just drinking out of cups, waiting for the day when we cant get enough" could maybe be how everyone is able to fit in with bfdia and change accordingly but pin just cant?? and since she cant shes put thru literally hell??? does this make sens probably not lmao

the number one stomach book song who couldve guessed!!

anyways uhh the constant use of the word pretty,, hmmm, almost like one of pins big insecurities since some of the other contestants literally RUN when they see her.

also the end with "cause pretty girls deserve to die" that one bfdia 15 scene sighhhhhh

loud noises lie ahead.. beware muehehehw FEMTANYL BEAM BLAST!!!!

THE CONSTANT USE OF CONTROL, RESTRAINS, DO WE SEE THIS PLEASEEEEEEEEE "SIMPLE: I GET TO BE DUMB YOU GET TO EXCERISE CONTROL" <- HOW PIN WAS SUPERUSPER NAIVE AND THOUGHT THAT PEOPLE WOULD ACTUALLY GAF ABOUT HER (FUNFACTS THEY DIDNT) AND PLUS THE PRIZE WHEEL!! THAT BEING THE CONTROL PART!! SINCE THE PRIZES COULD RANGE FROM GETTING A TOMATO TO GETTING YOUR FACE RIPPED OFF!!!!

AND THE REPEATING LYRIC "ITS YOUR PROBLEM" HOW PIN IS EXPECTED TO BE ALL HAPPY N KIND AND TAKE JOKES THAT INSULT HER FOR NO REASON!! ITS ONLY HER PROBLEM BECAUSE SHE IS THE ONLY ONE HURT BY IT!!!!!!

also the song is abt being transfem so if you have that hc its extra points

OK A CHUNK OF THE LYRICS DONT MAKE SENSE IN THIS CASE, BUT!!! IT HAS THEMES OF REBIRTH!! like pin becoming mech pin in bfdia 14,, do we see this.. PLUS THE SCREAMING!! THE YELLING!!! AAAA

also dogmatic is when someone has a very strict set of beliefs and expects others to follow them,, could possibly be pin-core!??

i reached the limit of songs i can directly link lmao, but im still gonna name more songs, the titles will just be indented and will be linked via their name

KATAMARI BY FEMTANYL

FIND MY THREE FEMTANYLS >:D

basically all the lyrics are about someone going thorugh some kind of abuse im pretty sure????? but a good amount is pin-core since it also has that sense of hopelessness ("i cant ever fuck it up if i dont ever even bother", "got no place id rather go"). ALSO "DOLL OF FLESH" THATS BFDIA PIN FOR ME YAYYYYYY!!

plus the end lyrics (BEFORE the screaming section) is literally just my billionth same rable on how no one had truly understood pin correctly and properly which causes her to go insane yipeee!!!! da yelling at the end is uhhhh pin yelling.yeah.

PSYCHIC ATTACK BY MACHINE GIRL

thistihitrhirhhshihihsihs

LITERALLY ALL THE LYRICS CAN BE TRACED TO EITHER PIN BEING THE TRAUMA GIRL EVER OR TRAITS OF PIN!! (ex spitting acid and mind reading)THERES EVEN STACATTO WHEN "POTENTIAL" IS SAID!!!!!!!

LINK TO THEM HERE BECAUSE THIS ONE IS IMPORTANTS TO ME

THIS SONG HAS ALL THE THINGS,, HOPELESSNESS, PUSHING AWAY OTHERS, HARMING OTHERS, GETTING TREATED HORRIBLY!!! ITS THE PIN DELUXE I AM TELLING YOUUUU

i dunno how to fully explain it but i swear it is trust me

A HUMANS TOUCH BY TWRPtube

i felt like i had to have at least one of these but uhhh,, soung about coiny and pin BLEERGHHH

since they both do not hashtsga understand eachother, they end up having ISSUES IUSSUES YAYAYYYYY

also themes of codependency??? pin physically HAD to rely on coiny because she got bfdia'd and coiny relied on pin as uhhh friends??? does that wor

plus the "until the new me came" part until the end can be BFDIA 18!! SPECIFICALLY RIGHT AS WOAH BUNCH DIES TO WHEN THE """""BETRYAL""""""" (<-heavy quotes because it isnt really one but okay)!!! I LOVE REFERENCIING EVERYTHINGNGIGNIGN TO BFDIA18 IM NORNMAL ABOUT THAT EPISODE!!!

UNPLEDGED ALLIANCE BY crxw

if i gert to put a coiny n pin i can put a book n pin okay?/ okay!!!

we are going into the "very based on feels" territory weewooweewooo

calm samples for book and loudyloud instrument thingys are pin,, so different in how they handle stuff but they end up being similar in some ways?? how beautiful!!

there are other bookpin core stuff here if u wanna see

also the title,, bfdia 20 ultimate alliance yay

HYPERNOVA (VS PICAYUNE PHASE 1) BY milkypossum

big noises oooo note i havent played picayune dreams so i have no idea if in context this doesnt make sense

uhhh loud noises and stuff, tastes like pin trust me im johnjellify

METAL, FLESH, ITS ALL THE SAME BY JORCLAI

ultrakill musics(i know this one is fanmade but lalaalala i cant hear youuu) yum!!!

also the title,, pin would soo say that trust me

END!!!! THANK YOU FOR WATCHING UHU MAKE SURE TO LIKE LIKLIKE AND SUBSCIRB EFOR MORE AWEOSME BFIDA 18 MOMENRTS!!!

📌PRE-DPYA📌

prettygirlll yay

overall her outfit id kinda similar,, only main changes is

more red (TO SHOW MORE HEALING N STUFF YAY)

shortsss!! since she slowly but surely gets more comfortable with showing herself :)

the necklace from s1 returnss,, to show her slowly being able to actually express herself without getting put through the Doom Of All Time 2000

and sewing thing of team8s!! nothing of her old teams since the Lovely Scene that is tpot2 shows she is 100% NOT ready to talk about the past :D

green pant attachement thingss,, im gonna be real they dont have any meaning i just thought they would be awesome

^shoes for same reason + tpot is very movement outdoor based,, learned from bfb lolz

📌POST-DPYA📌

most present pin!! wowwwww

MORE CHANGES TO TALK ABT!!! !yayy!!! /VPOSSSS

BIG THING IM GONNA YAP ABOUT AAAAAHHHH!!!

THE SASH!! unlike previous pins,, i think she would ACTUALLY show how shes a leader through apperance (because having a little star stamp is not how it works apparently /silly) by showing that shes a "veteran" of sorts!! she has 16 years of competing under her belt!!!! xtra reliable!!!!!

THE GLASSES RETURNNN!! i think she would get like more comfortable with wearing them after having more than just a few freidsn actually and having a team who understands you!! also extra stuff added to the left side for awesomeness

some other smaller details that dont have much of an explanation other than they are swesome and uhh more awesom

JACKET!! to uhh SHOW SHES MORE OPEN WITH OTHERS AND HERSELF!! YAYYY

lil skirt,, because shes just like that yay

bracelets on her robot arm!! blue one to represent her team and red one for her :)

HEADCANONSS also very few waaahhh

sensitive with emotions in the accidental way,, like (if this has ever happened 2 anyone else is thi s normal) receiving care and causes her to tear up..

still has the deja vu stuff from pt.5 hc.. but less severe. like maybe a Stare Into The Void for a few seconds,, then uhh LALALA IT NEVER HAPPENED :DDDDDD

still bakes from time to time to relieve stress :3

SONGS!! i dont have much but the lengths of my rambles may compensate for that... maybeee

THIS IS TH E LAST TPTM OKA I SWEAR IT IS I SWEARRR /SILLY

love this song 5ever.. the singer (xiomara) is wanting to help The Traumatized Women from their issues by using herself as an example of how to move on from their suffering!!!

how is this pin??

MAINLY SINCE THE SONG ALSO GOES INTO HOW XIOMARA HAS ALSO SUFFERED!! HOW SHE THOUGHT SHE WAS ALSO GOING TO SUFFER FOREVER!! BUT BECAUSE SHE HAS ALSO FOUND OTHERS WHO CARE FOR HER!!!! (<- mainly me theorizing since "look inside me and find yourself" and the tptm girls being in a group.. maybe...)

it ALSO delves into the struggle of recovery!!

"i cant tell when you'll be indefinitely happy, but it's still worth trying"

"the futures wasn't what i planned, the reason for my pain i will never understand"

EXTR a ADDITION OF HOW XIOMARA IS LEADING THE TPTM GIRLS TO RECOVERY!! LIKE HOW PIN WANTS TO LEAD HER TEAM TO VICTORY!!! aaAAAA I LOVE THIS SONG IENVGRNINB

OHH MY GOD.. WEHRE DO I EVEN BEGINIJNWFIERVIUEBR

IT STARTS OFF WITH THE SINGER BEING PUT THORUGH THE SUFFERING OF THE CENTRUY (BFDIA), WITH ISSUES OF NOT BEING LISTENIED TO AND THEIR OWN IDENTITY (IDFB)

"I don't need forgiveness I just wanna talk and for you to listen I know I'd only raise the suspicion of my cause My burns, they throb to the beat of your heart"

(EXTRA MENTION THAT THE LYRICS ALSO HAVE BRUNING METAPHORS.. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA)

THEY THEN HAVE A SELF REFLECTION TYPE OF THINKING IN THE MIDDLE OF THE SONG (BFB)

"Yes, it made me who I am, but I'll never understand Why it had to happen to me."

"Temperament or sickness? Holler all you want, no one ever listens If only I had raised my suspicious of the cause Would you have noticed it at all?"

BUT AT THE END IS ABLE TO STAND UP FOR THEMSELBVES AND FOUND SOMEWHERE WHERE THEY COULD TRULY BE THEMSELVES AND BE HAPPY!!! (DYPA IN TPOT)

"Oh, I can change, I can evolve, I can get up when I fall I'll live contentedly, I don't need a reason why Standing tall and standing strong, I have found where I belong In the arms of somebody, there is no more need to cry"

ALSO THE INFAMOUS LYRICS THAT ARE USED EVERYWHER :

"Am I a robot or a doll? Am I anything at all? Maybe a soul like me doesn't even need to know Am I big or am I small? Hunching over, standing tall? I lost my identity, oh, so very long ago"

^DO I NEED TO EXPLAIN WHY THIS IS PIN-CORE. DO I. DO I RALLY NEED TO

THAT ALSO THEN CHABGE TO TPOT-PIN CORE

"Not robot nor a doll, I'm not anything at all I'm just an entity finding out the way to go But these fingers and these palms, full of love despite the scars They show indisputably, I have so much more to grow"

I LOVE YOU LANGUAGE OF THE LOST!!! JRBIUEVEU9J

o k i KNOW considering what songs i usually put for this series/yap sesh are veryy different from this BUT LKET ME EXPLAIN MYSEL PLEAS

also before i ramble about this song the lyrics are just. not there on spotify. is it stupid? so u gotta look them up (TUMBLR WONT LET ME RB WITH THE LINK >:C )

this is smaller explainings but this song is mainly here for the whole pin wanting to be a leader and her attempts overall, or in other words,, taking care of them!! (LIKE THE SONG TITLE WHAT THE FUCKKK)

and the lyric "i ride until my body cold" being pin wanting to stay with her team and stay for their causes!!!

BUT it also (very faintly with one single line) displays her worries of failing and losing people she cares abt (which does technically end up happening aaa) "Wait a minute, I'm goin' through some shit (yeah) I can tell it's not beginning to work"

song about moving on from your issue!!! yayysssysysysysysydss

mainly with pin coming to accept that the things that she has gone thorugh ARE messed up!! but despite this she HAS to move on from them!!! to stop dwelling on the past and use it to improve herself!!!!

"The sun'll come out Nothing good ever comes easy I know times are rough But winners don't quit, so don't you give up"

plus the "all you had to do was try" can be more self reflection,, yayyy

also the song title,, "after the storm" couldd represent after bfdia and the slow development afterwards.

END!!!! GONNA MAKE A BIG/INTRO POST WITH ALL DA PARTS LINKED N EVERYTHING (EVEN THO THEY ARE F0R ALL PARTS BUT ITS WHATEVER)FOR THIS SERIES!!!!! THANK U FOR LOOKING AT MY PIN GIJINK ART/ RAMBLES 🥹🥹🥹