#lead.art

📌 OVERVIEW 📌

(also these are based on what i think would be EARLY idfb!! she slowly gets better over the season <33)

ok so instead of the "very little healings" idea,, im going with her technically being better. but just 1000 times more miserable <3

also this gonna be formatted the same as 14-23, but more shorter trust

the shirt is meant to be like one of those hospital shirtss,, her whole transformation was like one big surgery i am guessing

and the cropped sweater is so 1. she doesnt get her arm all cold and 2. so she can still "fit in" (HEAVY IN DENIAL LAALALAALAALA :D)

her point light thingys r off, some of her old features got removed to reduce amount of wires n stuff used in the future!!

XTRA LONG HAIRS!!!! also bleached because uhhh surgery went wacky idk

slight burn marks,, from bfdia 22 yr honor!!!

📌NEW LIMBS📌

new limbs babyeyyyyy wooohoooo

the new human ones are a bit mix-matched since theyve probably havent been on a body for a bit i would think????

also the robot leg is what used to be the left arm!! all the wirse in her body n stuff got rearranged!!!! so it uses as little of it as possible!!!

stitch marks are covered with bandages,, very fragile areas!!!

📌BACK/BATTERY📌

in order to keep her body working without the weight of a bajillion pounds on her back she gets batteries in her body now!!!

also two of here neck-wires get moved to the back to support said batteries

📌EXTRA📌

her crutch!! getting used to walking and balance n everything takes a bit so she gets one of em >:3

HEADCANONS!!!

MASKING HER EMOTIONS SERVELY!! THERE IS NO WAY SHES ACTUALLY THAT FUCKKINNG HAPPY AFTER BFDIA DUDUEUEIIEEEEE

almost all of her body is EXTREMELY SORE!!!! ibuprofen is her beloved <3

frequently zones out,, anytime anywheree

STILL has poor hygiene!! maybe worse than 14-23

^ and if she tries to shower she just stares at a showerwall with the water running or something

bedrotter

also poor sleep schedule,, who woudlve guessed sighhhh

SONGS!! (14-23 is the biggest song count(mech pin is very dear to me), do NOT expect that many for the rest of these parts oka)

HECK YAH!!! WEEVILDOING SONGS RETURN AGAIN!!!

THE THEMES OF ILLNESS!!!! THE HOPELESS TENFOLDS!!!!!

ALSO I WOULD LIKE TO CITE SOME OF THESE LYRICS AS BEING SO IDFB PIN HOLD ON

"and no, i know, its not like i died. but its hard to call what's left of me "alive""

"and now i go throughout life puppet-ing my own corpse"

" and i swallowed my pride, left my old self behind. but to say i survived, it just fells like a lie"

ALSO THE ENTIRE SECTION ABOUT BEING TIRED FITS OKA

"what about the suicidal parts??" DOES SHE LOOK LIKE SHE WANTS TO BE ALIVE YOUR HONOR??????

this is the new remix version but the original can also fit here too :3

THEMES OF TECHNOLOGY!!! FEELING AS IF YOUR SOMETHING ENTIRELY DIFFERENT!!! ("machine girl, something between computer and man")

AND THE PARTS OF CONFUSION ON WHAT YOU ARE!!! ("since when did i get like this?")

ALSO JUST THIS LYRIC: "a future that will never compute inside my mind, and a past i only wish i could leave behind"

lead... the stomach books are here..

guys hear me out with this idea!!! pin actually wanting change to herself even though it feels impossible to reach since shes always hated the physical changes she went through in bfdia.. is this hashtag cookig

also the questioning what life really is,, so beautiful idfb pin would think of this actually <3

AND the "i wanna feel alive, but nothing will ever satisfy" GUHHH STOMACHBOOK IS THE GOAT IF YOU DONT THINK SO YOU SHOULD TRY AGAI /LH

okay i KKNOW this doesnt make sense at first BUT LET ME EXPLAI

so the song is teto overtime getting very famous, and as a result she starts to get physically and mentally worse!!! and with her getting worse she starts to feel as if she is nothing, or not knowing what she truly is as she feels her life is only as a singer and nothing else.

now how2 make this about pin?

after her new-limb-operation (tm) she starts to question what she truly is, since all of her changes were ONLY because of bfdi/bfdia. because of this she doesnt feel like anything else BUT the game is important. but since her new limbs and stuff make her physically VERY weak she feels like she cant even be good at the competiton, resulting to her "trying" to make herself better by masking how she truly feels (acting very happy when she KNOWS she is the complete opposite)

the bridge(i think thats what its called???) or the part before the big part at the end is how pin truly feels, which is nothing but confusion. she CANT keep up with how the game expects everyone to start anew and fresh as if nothing has happened! so during this she tries to figure out what she is (which she doesnt even know). and at this point she has like hastag no one AGAIN after ruining her reputation so she ends up being dependent on others to figure out what she is!! (like how a singer is dependent on their audiance to be relevant)

tldr: pin mentally losing it even more because she doesnt know what she is!! yahhh

whaaaa??? femtanyl????

this one is uhhh PIN THINKING ABOUT HER RELATIONSHIPS AND HERSLEF!!!!

"wai lead isnt this song about abusive relationships who is the abus-" EVERYONE!! EVERYONE IS TO HER!!! yes she did get the surgery stuff so TECHNICALLY people do care enough to fix her. but did anyone during bfdia? NO!! (<- local idfb-pusphin is too stupid to realize the whimsical book exists)

so now she feels like a pet (LIKE THE SONG NAME WOAHHHH!!!) to everyone!! only getting help because they pity her (like people feeling bad for when a young pet gets hurt/ has a disability)

also bedrotting and abandonment.. waaoowww!!!

ultrakill.??? in my pin timeline?? and its the only calm one???? what the freakkk

this one is one of those "feels like" kind of songs since theres zero lyrics.. BUT!!!! i have more better reasonings for this one i SWEA

"the fire is gone" is the song played in the main menu before you play ultrakill. which consists of very fast paced gameplay, same happens vice versa when you return to the main menu.

"how the fuck is THIS pin?????"

pins trauma can be represented with fire/burning, since fire destroys things in order to get stronger, and any changes that occur to said fire (most of the time) make it stronger. with the title, it implies that said chaos is over. you could say... GONE!!! (hahahahaha get it guyss)

but after a fire ends, what is left is usually a burnt mess of whatever was there originally.

basically; pin is both the fire AND what is left after one. she has caused so much destruction to everyone and herself that after all is said and done, there is nothing to pin anymore except burnt nothingness. after all the fire is gone! there should be peace now, but there isnt.

ALSO!! whenevr places get on fire, theres a slow recovery to bring back what originally was said place!! (KINDA like how pin slowly builds up her happy self again <333)

this one is going at the end bc i do want to keep the idea of pin healing overtime!! the song is still loud so its obvious the singer is not fully okay, but it shows they are slowly getting better and coming to terms with what theyve been through!! hastag i love healing <3

also the title,, wanting what has caused you pain to be shown to the world,, aaaaaaaaaaaaaa

SONGS!! but its the instrumental ones that just feel like idfb pin hastag trust me on these

soundcloud links from here :,3

lost - hkomori

unwanted - d2s1