#lavender bones

AUGH! What a horrible choice to have to make. I love so many songs! I suppose for the purpose of the ask though, I’m gonna have to go with Lavender Bones by Stand Atlantic.

Week 30: Lavender Bones by Stand Atlantic

I hate drawing rope so much, why did I think I'd enjoy doing it this time? I don't know, but I wanted to do a reference to an old self portrait I made (second and third pictures). That was a weaving project in college, which is what I focused my art minor on in college. I considered doing the same rope pattern that I did in the weaving, but I wanted to do something a little bit more complicated because I have no consideration for my future self :) Even if it's a pain I'm pretty pleased with how this turned out!

[Verse 1]

Sick of having empty habits

Leading to the selfish havoc

I’m lonely in my own bones

You’re unweaving where you stand

Stitch me into all your plans

Just like a cherry stone

[Pre-Chorus 1]

Temporary fleeting thrills

Keep me bruised and make me ill

My skin has lavender tones

Tell me I’m a loaded gun

Tie me up and come undone

I can cover it up, I can cover it up

I can cover it up, I can cover it

[Chorus]

I know I’m out of my depth, but I just float in it

I try to do my best, stop picking fights with it

I wanna be upset, you’re not alright with it

I can cover it up, I can cover it

Try to speak my mind, wish it was by design

But I can only confess to having doubts with it

Don’t wanna feel regret, I’m not alright with it

I can cover it up, I can cover it

(I can cover it up, I can cover it up)

[Verse 2]

Spending time with or without you

Cutting corners just to get

You out of my Goddamn mind

Keep your words up where they’re brewing

I want something worth pursuing

Still letting you curl my spine

[Pre-Chorus 2]

Temporary fleeting thrills

Keep me bruised and make me ill

My lonely lavender bones

Tell me how to hurt for fun

Tie me up and come undone

I can cover it up, I can cover it

[Bridge]

What have I done?

Chewing on my words

Nothing’s enough, I rinse myself in the dirt

Sold all my time to a plastic ecstasy

Nothings enough

[Outro]

I can cover it up, I can cover it up

What have I done?

I can cover it up, I can cover it

Nothing's enough

I can cover it up, I can cover it up

Just casually listening to a random mix on Spotify, heard this song... hit with feels.

Tell me this isn’t Essek.

I will fight you.