#laurm

So I met her over a year ago but we became formally acquainted in March at a Ranger meeting. She really intrigued me and I also thought she was really pretty. Since the meeting was at a mall, we both stayed behind to watch people’s belongings as they looked around. I really wanted to get to know her and I remember wanting to make a conversation so bad that I decided that a perfect icebreaker was to talk about what one would do with a cat structure after their cat completely destroys it (way to go Em)

So we ended up talking about school and life and stuff and we exchanged numbers so we can send vines to each other (and to keep in contact lol)

Around a week or two later we started talking again (in formulated sentences, not vines) and we decided to meet up again at a local Chapters/Starbucks. And let me tell you, I was nervous. And was I ever a mess. I wouldn’t stop making self-depreciating jokes and referencing loneliness, due to my anxiety being at an all-time low. I couldn’t really tell if she was nervous laughing or humour laughing at my jokes which make me even more anxious. Looking back on the afternoon, I had a great time and I wanted to see her again (If she didn’t hate me). 

When we were sitting in Starbucks drinking coffee and iced tea and laughing, was the first time I looked at her in the eyes and thought “Wow, she is truly incredible” 

We ended up talking multiple times a day every day about all the topics under the sun. The more we talked, the more my crush on her grew, the more I convinced myself that she is way too good for me. 

She ended up joining the Ranger unit (yay!) which meant I got to see her once a week and that was a lot for my little gay heart to handle. The commute to Rangers became more of a mental preparation session so I wouldn’t freak out when I got there. She was always dressed so nicely and looked so content. 

I went to Disney in April and since she is probably the biggest Disney nerd I know, I really wanted to get her something. So I settled on a pin. As I was looking through the kiosks selling pins my friends asked me “Who are you getting that for?” since we made a pact to only speak French for the evening, I had trouble responding, so I said “c’est pour mon crush” and she said “ohhh votre petit amie” and i’m like “oui” (little did we both know that petit amie translates to girlfriend not crush) 

She really liked the pin I got her and it made my heart melt to see her smile.

We had both made each other playlists to listen to and this was around the time I found a playlist titled “hey” under her playlists on Spotify. It was mostly comprised of cute love songs and three songs had my name as the title. I freaked out and I showed my 2 closest friends. I ultimately convinced myself “What are the chances that this is about me?” and decided to not inquire about it, and just listen to the playlist song by song using Spotify’s search engine.

In May, we decided to go on a picnic. I ran into my friends Clara & Jayme at the grocery store and they gave me advice on what vegan food to buy and told me “awwww you guys are going on a picnic, that's so cute when are you guys gonna date”? This wasn’t new since my friend Hunter had previously texted me saying “omg just date already, be gay together” 

The picnic was the most fun I’ve had in a year. 

Less then a week later she asked me out and we started dating! (Shoutout to Nora) I couldn’t believe it. I truly couldn’t believe it. (11:11 wishes do come true) Edit: I’ve been writing this for over two hours now and I still can’t think of any words to truly describe how I was feeling. 

And that was the start of a month full of wholesome gf memes, tremendous laughter, endless support and calling each other “my girlfriend” because it feels so right and fulfilling. 

@gayradiator 7 billion smiles and yours is my favourite