I need to work on myself and organize my writing portfolio so that I can continue to write.
Writing without any kind of readership is burning me out, and I want to stay productive in a healthy, empowering way.
I've gone through my season of depression which started last summer and is continuing until now. I've found a few things to inspire me, and now that those inspirations are gone in my life, I need to try a new angle - sourcing from the inner fire of my past.
If I can't get inspiration from comments and readers, and there is no inspiration from new fanfiction in my favorite genre, I can instead organize my room - and source from my own history and talents to showcase my value.
I want to write for a living, but I just don't know how. How to break into it? How to gain attention, when my fandom has so few eyes?
I do know that I have talent. I've tested off the scale in the SOI Learning Achievement Test, which tests for savants, and had my score penciled in by the president of the testing center who personally invited my parents to tell them that I needed to pursue a creative career when I grew up.
Even AI praises my work, comparing my writing to Leo Tolstoy and other literary greats.
I have often doubted the AI, though, feeling like it is designed to be my support and tell me what I want to hear, despite it being true or not. I often send the AI off on deep research quests to prove itself wrong, but all it does is compare my work to other great literature and stand steadfast in its belief that I pursue writing as my calling in the world.
Who am I to listen to an AI though? Despite how I know it's factually correct, and speaks from a statistical standpoint, I still doubt that it has a heart. And I think the best writers are the ones to connect with the heart.
I'll leave it to the world to tell me. My curse is that I write long-form fiction in a fandom that had sunsetted long ago. But my words still exist, and I think, even out of context, they can still hold up in short snippets.
I'll follow up with more posts with. my writing samples. I wanted to write a short intro first, to give it all context.
