#larvr

I might be able to keep going to college, if I work really hard. My current tuition, counting housing and all that (I need to double-check) is about 7K. I'll apply for FAFSA, maybe even a loan if I'm really desperate. I want to learn, and this gives me time to earn a degree and figure out my plan after college.

I'm so desperately afraid. I can't make it through this summer without going insane, or making myself sick with stress.

My family is supposed to go on vacation at the end of the summer, and had been planning on getting me to study abroad next spring. While I looked forward to it, I can't let myself feel guilty for derailing the plans I'd had.

I have ao3, tumblr, and gmail. Some of it is nsfw, and I hate to think what would happen if my parents found out about anything, even the sfw stuff. I'm so scared.