#larapot

ME: Ate, ang ginaw. Tingnan mo nga kung nilalagnat ako.

HER: *hawak sa may leeg* Hindi. Maarte ka lang.

ME: K.

Oo na nga iyakin na ko! Isip bata, mahina loob! Walang iba kundi ako. Kapag ako umiyak, para ka ring nagbukas ng gripo na hindi mo alam kung pano patayin o patigilin. Yun ako! Hindi ko talaga kaya na itago o sarilinin yung lungkot o sakit na nararamdaman ko. Minsan nga bigla bigla na lang akong iiyak. Parang adik lang. Kailangan iniiyak ko, kahit may nakikinig o wala, okay lang, basta mailabas ko yung nararamdaman ko. Kapag hindi na ko tinawag na iyakin o balat-sibuyas, hindi na ako yon. 

Not that I say na napakabait kong anak. I surely am not the most ideal daughter, not even close to it. I often argue with my mom about a number of things. May mga oras na nasasagot ko sya, I am not proud of it but, I don't deny it either. At kahit madalas kami magaway ng mama ko, I still give her all the respect I could give because she's my mom. 

I have yet to say thank you enough for all these.

I've been really blessed for having someone who totally understands and accepts me for who and what I am. Someone who doesn't ever want to change me to someone I'm not. Thank you for the gift of that person who makes me realize what I want to have and to be in the future, a wife. Thank you for the gift of love that grows stronger and deep every single day.

Thank you, Lord, for this brand new opportunity you gave me. I will meet new people, do new things, and live a new life in the days ahead. All I can promise is that I will take care of this chance at my best and do everything I could to keep it. 

Thank you, Lord for the gift of beautiful people in my life. My parents, though we often fight and argue about a number of things. Still, they support me all the way even if they don't understand some of the things I do. My friends, who never get tired listening to me about my tiresome issues and dilemma. And of course my love, who does everything just to put a smile on my face even in the midst of his exhausting days.

Thank you, Lord for the gift of strength and faith that keep me going. I love you Lord. Bring on all the pressures abound my way and may you bless me more to have more strength to fight whatever kind of rocky roads are headed for me.

With so much love,

Biglaang lakad with Cathy and Betchai! Haha.

So, it's Chet's birthday and Cathy asked me to pick up the cake at Becky's, our favorite spot for cakes! Then, we texted Betchai, at nahila para sumama samin ng di nagsasabi kay ate Melyn, haha! Nakapambahay outfit lang siya, LOLS. We went to Makati Med by cab and got there sooo ahead of time before Chet's off from work! Mega-kuwentuhan sa waiting area na nakipagagawan pa kami sa couch, haha! We waited for at least three hours, not enough for us to catch up on each other, though.  Pero okay lang, it was fun making 'chikka' with these girls again! 

At about 4pm, we went to the Nurse's Station. HAHA, parang nakakita lang ng multo si Chet! Lols. So, naghintay ulit kame for almost another 2 hours sa canteen and continued our talk. I told them about 'our' plans and they told me the best of advices they could give about that kind of thing. Dumating na si Chet, telling us it's time to go. We separated ways, then Cathy gave us 100 pesos for a cab ride na pinang-Zagu lang namen. TINIPID AKO NI BETCHAI! haha. Walkathon kameng 2 from Makati Med to Vito Cruz where she lives. Nakakapagod, sobrang nakakahingal! hahaha. Pero okay lang ulit, kase we got to talk a lot, betchai and I. :)

T'was such a tiring but eventful Saturday. I got home so tired and sleepy. I didn't get time to change clothes kase nakatulog na ko. HAHAHA, SOBRANG PAGOD. Lilybeth kase! I missed those two lang for God knows how much! Sayang lang, wala yung iba. Maybe when we get to Bicol! :)

A text message from the HR office of Nazarene Catholic School woke me up this morning, they want me to report today and have the preliminary interview and exam! Been waiting for this for quite long already! And, I'm gonna take it. Even if it costs the 3k attendance incentive I will get from our office at the end of the month. I'd say it's worth the try. Thank you Lord for this. God knows how much I want this. GOD, BE WITH ME. I LOVE YOU!! :)