#lanstyled

                                  enzan felt his face heat up at lan’s words. he was normally used to lan’s loud personality, but it was different when he was declaring his love for him. he couldn’t say he hated it, though. it just made his heart pound harder in his chest. 

                                  lan was giving him a strange look, and enzan couldn’t figure out why. he was fine up until a moment ago. it wasn’t as though he’d said anything strange. “ what is it -- ” but just as he said that, lan spoke up. it was an odd moment, where they just stared at each other, lan with a look enzan had never seen on him, and enzan with confusion and concern. then lan did something enzan didn’t expect -- he closed the distance, and for a moment enzan thought ... but no, he didn’t do that, he placed a kiss on enzan’s cheek. still, it was just as surprising. and embarrassing. he felt his face heat up and there was nothing he could do to stop it. he couldn’t say anything, couldn’t do anything, he was frozen as lan made his escape -- then realized there was mistletoe above them. 

                                   “ you have. you’ve made me the proudest big brother, lan. ” it’s times like these hub is grateful that he was gifted one of the more powerful copybots. he hates that it’s at iris’ and colonel’s expense, but he’s grateful to them nonetheless. because he can cup lan’s cheeks in his hands and feel the warmth of his skin and know what it’s like to touch a human being again. 

                                 “ ... a half hour is not that long. ” he’d been ignoring lan, even with the incessant poking -- until lan decided to sit on his lap. now it was physically impossible to do anything, and lan ... lan was on his lap. ( he was warm. ) “ we can’t do anything if you’re on my lap. ” enzan said, even though he had no intent on doing anything with lan regardless. he had work to finish, and lan was the one who came to ipc unannounced. 

                               “ lan ... ” he was asking hub to do the impossible. he wouldn’t just risk his life, he would die if it meant saving lan. if it meant saving the world. giving his life back to those who gave him a second chance was proper compensation. but most of all, it was his selfish desire, wanting his brother to live a happy, full life. lan was reckless, got himself involved in dangerous situations. dangerous situations seemed to follow lan and hub wherever they went, too. it wasn’t the first time hub was ready to die for lan. it wouldn’t be the last, if such a situation came up again. 

                                            still, hearing lan speak like that, so small, as just a boy who wanted his brother ... it broke hub’s heart. he held lan tighter, pulling him in as close as possible. “ it’s okay. everything’s okay now. we’re both safe, okay? i won’t let anything like that happen again. ” it was such an impossible promise, but hub would do everything in his power to ensure he wouldn’t have to sacrifice himself again. 

                                 “ don’t say that  ”

                                               hub didn’t want lan to feel like he couldn’t share his feelings, but even more than that, he didn’t want lan to feel as though hub’s decisions were his own fault. if i were a better operator, if i were a better brother, he imagined those thought were going through lan’s head. he knew because he felt the same way -- if i were a better navi, if i were a better brother, then i wouldn’t have to take such drastic measures to protect him.