Iāve been trying to live in denial about cancer crap lately in anĀ attempt to save some semblance of sanity, but itās getting to where I canāt keep ignoring it. Normally Iād have a full plan to deal with each issue but I really just donāt want to think or deal with any of it.
July - MRI report notes a metastasis on my liver
September - everything starts falling apart at F-bombās preschool
October - follow up scan confirms the metastasis; all hell breaks loose at preschool, push off January appointment with Woltering to February
January - new preschool, my body starts crashing but I write it off as just being exhausted from the preschool drama, push February appointment to March
February - the complete exhaustion doesnāt get better, cue the flushing to start again, cancel Woltering appointment instead of playing the rescheduling game
March - MRI reports a second metastasis on my liver...Ā āin retrospectā the second spot was on the October scan but they missed it in the report... great news for someone who has trust issues with false negatives
Keep on keepinā on with the Lanreotide butt darts
December labs (almost time for March labs... like I said... denial)
See new doctor about my hip - my doctor moved out of state, the second joint injection isnāt nearly as effective as the first and yet another round of PT isnāt helping. Surgery has a crazy long recovery and doesnāt always fix the instability and pain. After 5 years Iām almost frustrated enough to just ask for a full hip replacement. My body thinks itās 70 anyway. Iām going to ask for another MRI to compare the tear to 15 months ago to see if thereās any change and figure out a gameplan from there.